butterflyy
6/7 months and counting
Oct 14, 2009
I was not going to write anything for my 6month anniversary it was back on sept 24th but since it's almost 7 months I said what the heck. Life is life. I'm learning to be who La Shawn wants to be. For a long time I really thought that I was happy being me but now as the months go forward I learning that I wouldn't go back being that girl for all the money in the world. I know have a terrible shopping addiction. I have put away the food and picked up the hangers. I shop almost every weekend. But to be honey I really don't have anything to wear. I have to look a certain way to just walk out of the door. I've almost lost about 130 pounds so far and damn it feels good. God is smiling on me. I can fit most 16 but 18 are getting a little lose. My motto is "IF IT AIN'T TIGHT IT AINT RIGHT". Men oh well you know how men are. They are not just looking the are staring and I let them stare. At 350 pounds no-one was even noticing I was alive now it's like seeing Beyonce walk down the street. I can pick and choose who I want to talk to. I even went out with a WHITE guy and had alot of fun. This journey has not been as easy as I once thought it was going to be. I sometime just want to pig out on whatever and I do sometime but then without even having to remind myself to stop my little tummy does it for me. And when I say pig out it's something like a spoon full of cheesecake and that's all I can eat b4 my stomach begans to ache. My old shoes have all been replace now. I still am eating about 2/3 oz of food at a time and I know that's not enough but hey it's better than what it was about 3 months ago. Food just doesn't do it for me like it use to. Well I'm finish running my mouth I pray all of you are successful and until next time. La Shawn
5 months out 100 pounds gone 4ever and ever and ever Amen.
Aug 30, 2009
Before I get started I just want to say that I'm REALLY happy. Before WLS I thought that I was happy but now I realize that I was just going about everyday without any real purpose. God is a awesome God. Everyday that I'm blessed to see another I'm reminded of this. This journey has not been easy at all. You see I was never a big food eater. I've always liked sugar. Pies, cookies, candy, pastries, pudding, etc. but I had my fair share of food but I would eat a little then go straight to the dessert and never understood why until the other day I was talking with my mother and she said Oh I know where it comes from. Your grandmother got you like that. My grandmother would take me to this place called Johnson & Johnson and we would order a simple meal for both of us to share and then have 3 scoops ice cream sundaes every tues & thur after church services during the week. My grandfather is a minister. Anyhoo it's amazing how this one thing has affected my whole life and me not know about it. Even now I still eat a little but I have to save room for a snack. Even though it's sugar free or low sugar it's not going to get me to goal if I continue down this road. I'm not going to say oh as of today I'm stopping this because you and I both know that is a crock of sh**. But I can say that I feel so good being able to admit that where in as before I would have covered it up or down played it with something like oh well I'm still human. Today I'm not beating myself up over it. But I'm trying to get it under control. I have been eating every 3 hours and I'm still at 2/3 oz of food at a time which my Dr. tells me I should be eating a little more but I'm not worried for now. My hair along the edges are coming back I've been using Dr. Miracles cream and some kind of temple balm. I've been keeping my hair in a weave so I don't have to put up with all of the hair that sheads on a daily basis. I was in my favorite store yesterday and I saw my nephews lawyer in there and I'm looking right in her face and saying hello and she's looking at me like I don't know you. Then she sees Julian and puts it all together. She then follows with oh my you have really lost alot of weight. Let me tell yall no man could have made me feel how I felt at that very moment. Speaking with a friend the other day and she asked me "So are you a whore yet". What hell no I wasn't a whore from the start so why would I be one now. People thing that when you lose weight your not the same person I am. I haven't changed at all that much to be different. I'm down 100 pounds in 5 months so I feel GREAT. God bless all of you and I will see you at the end of next month.
Hair Today-Gone Tomorrow
Jul 07, 2009
I knew that this would happen going into surgery but I can honestly say I don't know if it's from the surgery or the braids. I had been getting my hair braided and she was braiding so tight that I did notice my hair thinning. Well thinning has become bald and it's only around the edges. I am a hair freak and have decided to do something about it. Me and of course Dr. Miracle and this other stuff so starting 2morrow I will be watching very close to see what will happen to my frow. As some of you may already know my hair is natural and has been like this for over 3 years I washed it and blew it out for my new weave so here is a picture of me in the natural. Natural hair that is.
Did you tell me to EXERCISE?
Jun 29, 2009
Today I read a post where somebody made a comment about if you have the sleeve you wouldn't lose that much unless you exercise. Well I'm contesting that because I just started exercising myself and I'm 3 months out and I've lost a total of 70 some pounds. I think it all depends on the person. I don't go by what my friend who had gastric bypass has lost because I didn't have gastric bypass. Nor can I go by what Jim Jim lost who had the vsg. We all are different. Our bodies react differently. Don't get yourself caught up in what so and so has done. Do what you can do and be done with it. I don't even want to compare surgeries. I'M IN LUV WITH THE SLEEVE. BELIEVE IN THE SLEEVE IS MY MOTO. But what works for me may not work for others. I just wanted to add my 2 cents. Since Thursday of last week I've been walking 2 miles a day and today was the worse because I walked at about 7 this morning and came straight to work to take a shower but I'm so sore I'm sitting here in my work out clothes typing this message. I've included a picture. One of my breast look funny because my money and keys are stuff down there. I look terrible but guess what this time next summer I'm going to be a BEAST. Luv Ya. La Shawn.
3 Month's Out
Jun 24, 2009
WELL I'M HERE AND REALLY DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START AT. I FEEL WONDERFUL. GOD HAS TRULY SHOWN ME FAVOR. I'M NOT WHERE I'D LIKE TO BE BUT I'M NOT WHERE I CAME FROM. THIS SURGERY IS NO EASY MATTER. I JUST STARTED DRINKING PROTEIN EVERYMORNING AND TAKING VITAMINS EVERYDAY LIKE I SHOULD. I EAT SOMETIMES BUT NOT LIKE I'M SUPPOSE TO. THE THING IS I DON'T EAT ENOUGH TO LAST ME 4 HOURS SO I NOW EAT EVERY 3 HOURS. I HAVE A ADDICTION TO SUNFLOWER SEEDS WHICH ARE REALLY HIGH IN FAT. BUT NEVERTHELESS I'M HERE. MY WEIGHT GOES UP AND DOWN UP AND DOWN AND IT USE TO PISS ME OFF BUT NOW IT'S LIKE IT'S WHATEVER. I HAVE BECOME A SCALE WHORE. I GET ON IT EVERYDAY AND EVERY NIGHT. I PUT THE MF AWAY TODAY I WILL NOT WEIGHT MYSELF UNTIL SUNDAY. I STILL LOVE TO COOK AND HAVE GOTTEN ALOT A GOOD RECIPES FROM EGGFACE. SHE IS TRULY GOOD AT WHAT SHE DOES I JUST LEARNED TO PUT MY OWN SPIN ON IT. SOME STUFF IS JUST NOT MY STYLE. LESLIE AND ADRIENNE I LOVE BOTH OF YOU GIRLS FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. YOU BOTH HAVE DONE SO MUCH FOR ME HOW CAN I EVER REPAY YOU. ANYTHING JUST ASK. 
PEOPLE REALLY DO CHANGE THE WAY THE LOOK AT YOU AS TIME GOES ON. I'M STILL THE SAME PERSON WEARING THE SAME CLOTHES BUT NOW ALL OF A SUDDEN I THINK I'M CUTE. NO BABY I'VE ALWAYS KNOWN I WAS CUTE URE JUST STARTING TO REALIZE IT. CO-WORKERS ALWAYS ASKING GIRL HOW MUCH HAVE YOU LOST SO FAR? I WANT TO SAY YOUR ASS WASN'T ASKING ME HOW MUCH I WAS GAINING A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO SO WHY ARE YOU SO WORRIED NOW. BUT INSTEAD I JUST SAY OH I DON'T DO THE SCALE SCALES ARE FOR FISH. THEY KNOW I'M LYING BUT I REALLY COULD CARE LESS MIND YOUR BUSINESS. HERE ARE MY 3 PICTURES FOR THE MONTH OF JUNE. I HOPE ALL OF YOU ARE DOING YOUR BEST AND I WISH YOU ALL CONTINUED SUCCESS.
Things That Make You Go HMMMM
Jun 01, 2009
Today I was messing around with my camera and took a picture of myself and noticed that I looked larger today for some reason. That reason being I had on old clothes. My clothes are not falling off of me yet that should let you know that I wore my stuff extra tight. LOL. I have enclose a picture of my outfit. The capri's are a 18 and the shirt is a 2x. Looking in the mirror taking a picture PRICELESS.
I LIED TO MYSELF
May 27, 2009
Vertical Sleeve Is No Laughing Matter!!!!!!!!!!
May 11, 2009
SHE HAS TO BE CRAZY. SHE SAID THE MORE YOU EAT THE MORE YOU LOSE WELL FOR ONE THING MY STOMACH IS THE SIZE OF MY THUMB SO I REALLY DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH SHE IS EXPECTING ME TO EAT FROM DAY TO DAY BUT I'M FULL IN JUST ABOUT 5 MIN. SO I STOP. I CAN'T DO EVERYTHING SHE TELLS ME. SHE DOES THE SURGERIES I'VE HAD THE SURGERY. MY BODY HAS REALLY STARTED SHAPING ITSELF. MY LEGS ARE STARTING TO LOOK LIKE LEGS AND NOT LIKE THE BODY OF A WILD BOAR. THANK YOU JESUS. IT NOW TAKES ME ABOUT 2 HOURS TO GET READY IN THE MORNING WHERE IN AS B4 I COULD BE READY IN LESS THAN A HOUR. I JUST TAKE SO MUCH MORE TIME FOR MYSELF NOW. IF YOU GO BACK TO ONE OF MY POST MY AUNT TOLD ME THIS WOULD HAPPEN AND I SAID NO. YOU WERE RIGHT PAUL I ADMIT BUT JUST ON HERE BECAUSE I'LL NEVER LET HER READ MY PROFILE TO MUCH CURSING AND SHE IS A CHRISTIAN AND DOESN'T KNOW I HAVE SUCH A POTTY MOUTH. ANYWAY I'M SITTING HERE EATING SHARP WHITE CHEDDAR CHEESE WITH PEPPERED TURKEY BREAST WITH CRACKERS AND I'M STUFFED AFTER ONLY 3 CRACKERS SO I'M DONE MY CRYSTAL LIGHT IS RIGHT ON THE LEFT OF ME AND WILL BE DRINKING IT A HOUR FROM NOW. I'M EVEN GETTING USE TO DRINKING A HOUR AFTER I'VE EATEN. SOME PEOPLE LOOK AT ME WITH THAT (THIS BITCH THINKS SHE'S CUTE NOW LOOK) BUT I'VE ALWAYS KNOWN I WAS THE SHIT THEY JUST DIDN'T SEE ME BECAUSE THEY WERE BLIND AS HELL. HAD TO BE IF YOU CAN'T SEE A 350 WOMAN COMING YOUR WAY THEN DON'T EVER WORK WITH THE BLIND CAUSE THEY WOULD BE DEAD A SH**. PRAYERFULLY EVERYONE IS DOING WELL ON THERE JOURNEY I'LL KEEP IN TOUCH AND WILL BE POSTING PICTURES BY THE END OF MAY. BLESSINGS.
