Chance22
A letter to myself...
Feb 21, 2010
Dear Chance,There was a time in your life when you were not aware of your weight. It was a very long time ago... before Andrew Thompson told you that you were fat when you were in the 3rd grade, you were 8 years old. Since that time you have been aware of your weight at every moment of every day.
You went through High School, as someone that most people thought was popular, they never knew that you hated the view in the mirror.
As a adult, you refrained from relationships that had any real entanglements- uncomfortable with the attention of most men and untrusting of the ones who seemed to really like you. What kind of a man could possibly be attracted to someone who looks like you? Now, you find yourself alone and wonder how it happend.
It stops now. Hating yourself and your appearance. You are beautiful, funny, intelligent, and have a huge capacity for love. People introduce you to their family members in hopes of a match because they can see you for who you are, not who you think it is they see.
Enough is enough. Celebrate your curves while you have them and prepare yourself to see the person others see when they look at you as she emerges from behind the weight you have carried.
There will be no more loathing, no more disgust, no more hiding, no more making excuses. You are being given the tools at long last to become a thin person- take them, learn them, use them and live them.
Do not mourn the foods you will be giving up. Celebrate the life you are being given.
Remember that you have many friends, your family love you and you deserve this as much as anyone!
Chance
