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AS OF TOMORROW I WILL BE 2 WEEKS OUT AND IM FEELING MUCH BETTER NOW, I REALLY HAVENT HAD ANY PAINS EXCEPT FOR AT ONE INCISION THAT WAS THE MAIN ONE THAT THEY WENT THRU MY DR SAID, WENT TO THE DR ON THURS LAST WEEK AND FOUNF OUT I LOST 7 POUNDS!!SUPER HAPPY!!! HE WANTS TO SEE ME BACK IN 6 WEEKS AND IM MAKING A PERSONAL GOAL TO BE DOWN 50 POUNDS!!! IM STARTING TO WORK OLUT AT THE GYM NEXT WEEK SO I KNOW ITS GOING TO REALLY START FALLING OFF!!! GOODBYE FAT I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN! IM SO HOPING I CAN REACH THIS GOAL!!! THEN ANOTHER GOAL AFTER THAT!!! I KNOW I CAN DO IT!! IM STAYING POSITIVE THAT I CAN, STAYING PRAYFUL THAT I WILL!!! TOMORROW I START THE PUREED DIET WITH IM NOT TO HAPPY ABOOT I JUST CANT SEEM TO GET INTO THE WHOLE BLENDING UP FOOD AND STUFF   ....SO I WILL BE EATING SCRAMBLED EGGS THIS WHOLE WEEKS. I LOST 12 POUNDS 2 WEEKS AGO SO IM HOPING TO AVARAGE AT LEAST 10 POUNDS A WEEK!!  DO YOU GUYS THINK THAT IS POSSIBLE??? I SUREE HOPE SO!!! I REALLY DO!!! IM JUST SO EXICTED TO SEE WHAT MY BODY IS GOING TO LOOK LIKE 50 POUNDS LIGHTER...I WANT TO TAKE PICS DAILY BUT I KEEP FORGETING TO....SO ILL SETTLE FOR TAKING PICS WEEKLY, I ALSO WANT TO BUY ME A PAIR OF JEANS IN A SMALLER SIZE AND USE THAT AS MOTIVATION TO GET THE WEIGHT OFF! IM GOING TO DO THAT AND HANG THIS RIGHT ON MY CLOSET DOOR SO THAT IM ABLE TO SEE THEM EVERYDAY WHEN I WAKE UP!!! I WANT TO CHEAT JUST SO I CAN HAVE THE TASTE IN MY MOUTH...THATS WRONG AND IM TRYING TO STAY STRONG! I PRAY TO GOD, THAT HE GIVES ME STRENGTH!!! IM SO ANXIOUS TO GET RID OF CLOTHES SO I KNOW I CANT CHEAT!!! LOL   I REALLY WANT TO BE IN A SIZE 12 BY MY BDAY IN JANUARY IS THAT GOING TO FAR?  IS THAT TOO HIGH OF A GOAL? I HOPE NOT BECAUSE IM REALLY TRYING MY HARDEST TO ACHEIVE IT!!! MY GUY FRIEND DOESNT WANT ME TO GET ANY SMALLER, HE DIDNT WANT ME TO GET THE SURGERY.....HE SAYS HE LOVES ME JUST THE WAY I AM ....THAT IS SO SWEET, BUT I TOLD HIM I HAD TO DO THIS FOR ME!!!! AND NO BODY ELSE, IM SCARED THAT I MAY LOSE HIM, BUT IF I DO THAT LETS ME KNOW THAT HE WASNT THE "ONE" .....TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE THROUGHOUT THIS WHOLE PROCESS IS SOMNETIMES SO HARD WHEN YOU HAVE DIFFERENT PEOPLE ALL IN YOUR EAR SAYING DIFFERENT THINGS  ....IM JUST READY FOR THE WEIGHT TO BE GONE!!! IM SO READY!!!

THE HARD PART IS OVER!!! I HAVE MADE IT THRU SURGERY AND AM NOW 12 POUNDS DOWN, AND 100+ TO GO! IM FEELING GOOD!!!

SURGERY WAS GREAT I FOUND OUT I HAD A HERNIA, IT WAS REMOVED DURING SURGERY AS WELL....I WAS SCARED VERY SCARED BUT I MADE IT THRU.....

IM EXICTED TO SEE WHAT THE NEXT STEP IS AND THE WAYS THAT I WILL BE LOSING WEIGHT!!!

IM EXICTED AND SCARED! AND JUST READY TO GET IT ALL OVER WITH.... THIS IS A SHORT POST...THOSE ARE MY ONLY THOUGHTS...I WISH I HAD FRIENDS ON HERE TO TALK TO WHILE IM GOING THRU THIS....

ILL BE AT ST JOHN OAKLAND IN MADISON HRIHTS MI ON MONDAY......



~~~~CHARMAINE~~~~~~~

SO ABOUT AN HOUR AND A HALF TODAY I GOT THE CALL IVE BEEN WAITING FOR I AM APPROVED!!!! THE INFO WAS JUST TURNED IN LAST WEEK ON THURS!!!   THAT WAS FAST!!! IM THANKFUL TO GOD THAT I WAS APPROVED!!! IM SCARED AND HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME!!!!  IM NOW AT THE POINT OF NO RETURN!!! NOVEMBER 8 IS MY BIG DAY!! ITS A MONDAY, IM READY! ITS ABOUT A MONTH AWAY!  IF ANY OF YOU GUYS CAN PLEASE JUST INSPIRE ME,  AND INBOX ME, AND GIVE ME ANY TIPS I WOULD LOVE IT!!!
I GUESS ITS CRUNCH TIME NOW!!!! TIME TO GET IT TOGETHER AND START CUTTING OUT THE OTHER FOODS NOW!! I HAVE BEEN DOING GOOD WITH NOT DRINKING POP, BUT I NOW HAVE TO STOP EATING FOODS WITH OVER 5 GRAMS OF SUGAR I CAN DO IT!!!!  

SO TODAY ALL THE INFO HAS BEEN TURNED INTO THE INSURANCE...IM HOPING AND PRAYING THAT IM APPROVED!!! IM READY TO BECOME A SMALLER ME!!!! 

IM FINALLY DONE!!!!!

I have done the 12 month monthly check-ins! I have to wait on a medical clearance from my Dr. and then submit to the ins company, my office says that they have a 99% approval rate  So Im hoping and Praying that I am APPROVED
IM READY TO GET RID OF THE FAT!!
PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS, AND PLEASE INBOX ME IF YOU WOULD LIKE MY INFO...
~***~CHARMAINE~***~

Hey Everybody I have not been on in a while...

Update on me-well I have to take the blood test tomorrow, and get the letter of consent filled out by my PCP, I juat hope that I am approved!!! I have been having some set backs which I have been beating myself up about, In May I was 329!!! I have NOT been that BIG since I had my 4th child so you can imagone the HURT I was dealing with!!! I went back in June and I lost 3!!  So Im hoping that when I go back I can see some more results! Im still very nervous at times, and I am really starting to feel the reality of it, Im at the end of the 12 month required period that my insurance requires....I just hope that it is APPROVED!!!!  I cant wait to get the surgury, but Im scared as far as what I CAN and CAN NOT eat!! lol!!!! I have tried doing that now but it didnt work, Quitting COLD TURKEY just may be the way to go!!  <-----Is that a disguested face to you because thats how I feel, I hate that I have gotten up to this point but I now must deal with it....Im sad that I havent been on here like I should of been....I hope that anybody who reads this would consider dropping me a messagein my inbox, I would really love to have somebody to talk to thru the rest of my journey....Thanks! and this time I wont stay away,Ill try to be on daily from now on!

JUST 6 MORE MONTHS AND THIS WILL BE THE START OF MY NEW LIFE! I AM SO EAGER TO FINALLY SEE THE WEIGHT COMMING OFF! I SWEAR I WILL NOT LOSE MY MIND AND BECOME A SELF ABSORBED B*#^H!  LOL JUST BECAUSE IM SKINNY (IM CLAMING IT NOW I WILL BE SKINNY) DOESNT MEAN THAT IM GONNA TREAT BIG PEOPLE (PEOPLE LIKE ME) BAD! I KNOW THE STRUGGLE! I KNOW THE PAIN, I KNOW THE DISAPOINTMENT THAT YOU GET WHEN YOU CANT FIND ANY 24'S ON THE RACK!  IM READY!! I HAVE BEEN HAVING DOUBTS (JITTERS) BUT I THINK THAT AFTER SEEING ALL MY WONDERFUL AND BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS THAT ARE ON HERE IVE DECIDED THAT IM GONNA DO IT AND NOT THINK ABOUT THE BAD THINGS THAT PEOPLE ARE SAYING, SO WHAT IF YOU HAVE A OPINION-IM CHARMAINE AND ONLY CHARMAINE KNOWS WHAT CHARMAINE WANTS/NEEDS/DESIRES/DEMANDS AND EXPECTS! 
I HAVE BECOME STRONGER  IN 24 HOURS THEN I HAVE SINCE I STARTED MY JOURNEY (I NOTICE EVERYBODY SAYS THAT ON HERE, SO I MIGHT AS WELL USE IT) AND YOU KNOW WHAT? IM GONNA STAY STRONG! 
135LBS HERE I COME!
*~*~*~*~*~CHARMAINE*~*~*~*~*~

I CANT WAIT FOR THIS WEIGHT TO BE GONE, I ALREADY KNOW THAT WITH THE BYPASS, YOU ARE ABLE TO LOSE HALF (IF NOT MORE) THEN YOU TOTAL BODY WEIGHT....I PERSONALLY LIKE TO THINK OF MYSELF AS HAVING A GREAT ASS! , BUT I KNOW THAT ONCE I GET THE BYPASS-IT WILL BE GONE!  BUT HEY-I KNOW THAT I WILL BE A HEALTHIER ME AND THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS! I KNOW ONE THING THAT I WILL BE HAPPY TO SEE LEAVE-THESE SIZE DDD/F BREASTS!  I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT I WAS BLESSED NOT TO HAVE ANY BACK PROBLEMS, BUT I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO GO TO VICTORIAS SECRET AND BE ABLE TO BUY A MATCHING (YEAH NEVER HAD ONE FROM ANYWHERE) BRA AND PANTY SET....THE PRETTIEST LACE ONE I CAN FIND! SERIUOSLY! LOL

ITS 7AM HERE IN MICHIGAN AND I HAVE TO GO GET READY TO GET OUT OF HERE AND TAKE THE KIDS TO SCHOOL.....TTYL FRIENDS, BUT THIS WAS JUST A RANDOM THOUGHT I HAD....BUT IM PRETTY SURE THAT YOU GUYS CAN RELATE....RIGHT?

UGH! Im really looking for understanding from family members-why is it so hard for people to accept the decisions that YOU make for yourself? I decided to get this done, I HATE when people say "you can lose the weight on your own" "why are you doing that?" "dont you know the risks?" WTH! IF I COULD OF LOST 100+POUNDS ON MY OWN I WOULD OF BEEN DONE THAT! WTH  PEOPLE DRIVE ME CRAZY WITH THAT!!!


Sorry about that I had to get that off my chest!