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may just postpone surgery for good...my decision 6-2-09
Jun 01, 2009
I started this journey last fall when a doctor hit me with the suggestion of WLS. I had never considered it before and when she said I could be dead at 40 if I stayed the way I was I knew it was time to do something. Well I started researching and signed up so to say for surgery. I did all my testing, read books, joined here, went to support groups. As we all know I even got as far as getting a surgery date after months and months. Started my preop liquid diet and then they postponed my surgery. Off and on through this process I have been having doubts about even having the surgery. During my physician supervised diet I lost 21lbs. Still have it off. For the short time I was on the liquid diet it showed me if I have to do something I can do it. I knew if I ate something my surgery could be screwed up and I could die. Didn't want that to happen obviously so no food. So now with no surgery date in sight I'm tossing around the idea of not having surgery at all. I'm thinking of telling them I need a month or so to really think about it because I'm not 100% and I can't go into this like that. I know I've tried a million times and failed. I know my health problems are working against me. I lost 21lbs though all by myself, in a healthy way. Slow, yes, but I did it. I didn't do any extreme diets or work out like a maniac (to the point where it's not healthy). I figure if I can continue to lose weight over the next month or so I will try on my own. Usually I end up off the wagon within a month so I'm pretty sure I'll figure out if I need surgery. So that's where I stand. I don't know if I should keep coming here or not if I decide against surgery because the site is pretty much WLS focused. Maybe I'm being crazy, but deep down...I feel like I could do it this time.
