cmobley4
Sometimes...
Nov 11, 2007
it just feels like Im spinning! Right, left... this way, that way... slow, fast...
Life overwhelms me more often that I would like to admit. Some days its all I can do to stay focused. I have been accused of having wheels that alway turn. I dont always know how to find peace from that.
Lately, it seems to be getting worse, then better... but always tackling my to the ground at some point.
I dont want to spin anymore. I want to get back to my peaceful place. To my silent & still moment, when I can hear my heart beat and all is calm. I really need to get back to that place before the spinning takes me to a place that I dont want to be.
I have been working so hard at my mental health. Its an amazing thing to realize how much your mental health dictates your physical/emotional health. For every step forward, I go two steps backwards. Thats the part that I cant overcome.
This weekend I had reasons to be spinning. I mean the truth is that I have reasons 99% of the time. But I hate that I do it. I hate that I cant cut the ropes and let some of it go. So... my resolution for the New Year is to get back to finding my peace! I am starting on it now... changing me, praying, making time for what matters....
If I can change those things, I know the spinning will stop!
Life overwhelms me more often that I would like to admit. Some days its all I can do to stay focused. I have been accused of having wheels that alway turn. I dont always know how to find peace from that.
Lately, it seems to be getting worse, then better... but always tackling my to the ground at some point.
I dont want to spin anymore. I want to get back to my peaceful place. To my silent & still moment, when I can hear my heart beat and all is calm. I really need to get back to that place before the spinning takes me to a place that I dont want to be.
I have been working so hard at my mental health. Its an amazing thing to realize how much your mental health dictates your physical/emotional health. For every step forward, I go two steps backwards. Thats the part that I cant overcome.
This weekend I had reasons to be spinning. I mean the truth is that I have reasons 99% of the time. But I hate that I do it. I hate that I cant cut the ropes and let some of it go. So... my resolution for the New Year is to get back to finding my peace! I am starting on it now... changing me, praying, making time for what matters....
If I can change those things, I know the spinning will stop!
WEEK THREE
Nov 07, 2007
Down another 2.8 pounds!!! WOO HOO!!!
and this was a bad week... I ate at captain D's... which is a big NO NO!! and over the weekend, we had a BBQ/SMORES event and a bday dinner on Sunday, so Im happy for the loss!!!!
and this was a bad week... I ate at captain D's... which is a big NO NO!! and over the weekend, we had a BBQ/SMORES event and a bday dinner on Sunday, so Im happy for the loss!!!!
WEEK TWO
Oct 30, 2007
And another 4 pounds lost!!!!
I was so nervous about the weigh in because my "friend" is here. I was praying to just break even... but 4 pounds lost!!! WOO HOO!!!!
Keep prayin, thinkin and talkin about me... I need the encouragement!
This weeks goal....
EXERCISE!!!!!
I was so nervous about the weigh in because my "friend" is here. I was praying to just break even... but 4 pounds lost!!! WOO HOO!!!!
Keep prayin, thinkin and talkin about me... I need the encouragement!
This weeks goal....
EXERCISE!!!!!
FIRST TREND....
Oct 29, 2007
I dont eat enough vegetables/fruit!!!!
The food journal has showed me that I eat alot of grains... whether its breads, pastas, rolls, bagels, pita chips... whatever... its not fruit/vegetables!!!! MAN!!!!
The food journal has showed me that I eat alot of grains... whether its breads, pastas, rolls, bagels, pita chips... whatever... its not fruit/vegetables!!!! MAN!!!!
FIRST WEIGH IN....
Oct 23, 2007
AND I LOST 4 POUNDS!!! 4 pounds and some change in a week!!! WOO HOO!!!!
DAY 3
Oct 18, 2007
Ok.. so WW isnt that hard! Thats the GODS HONEST TRUTH!!!
I get up each morning and eat. Then I have a snack. Then lunch, more snacking...and then dinner. You are required to drink 6 glasses of water... the first day I drank a gallon.. yesterday I drank 70oz. Today Im still on my first 32oz.
I break up the day in my mind rather simply...I get my first 32oz of water in before 11am. My second 32oz in before lunch is over. Then I take my third 32oz of water home with me. I LEAVE MY WATER BOTTLE IN MY TRUCK SO I NEVER FORGET IT!!! THAT IS KEY!!! If I have it, its a constant reminder!
I have been starting my day with either Maple.BS Oatmeal or Grits... the Oatmeal is 3 pts, the grits are 2, but I added a tsp of sugar, so that makes them 3. My snack is usually something crunchy... like Cheez its or popcorn...
Lunch... a hot pocket, burrito, whatever... but thats 7-8 pts. and then dinner!! WOO HOO!!!
For the past two nights I have been serving my dinner in a bowl... less room, less food. With all the water I have been drinking I cant eat like I could two days ago... which is another good thing!
So far Im not starving, Im not cranky (like Atkins makes u)... Im not sure how the weight loss is going because I dont weigh myself. BUT I do weigh in at the WW meeting on Tuesdays so I will tell you then.
I think WW is like "weight loss" for dummies... lol. So far so good!!!!
I get up each morning and eat. Then I have a snack. Then lunch, more snacking...and then dinner. You are required to drink 6 glasses of water... the first day I drank a gallon.. yesterday I drank 70oz. Today Im still on my first 32oz.
I break up the day in my mind rather simply...I get my first 32oz of water in before 11am. My second 32oz in before lunch is over. Then I take my third 32oz of water home with me. I LEAVE MY WATER BOTTLE IN MY TRUCK SO I NEVER FORGET IT!!! THAT IS KEY!!! If I have it, its a constant reminder!
I have been starting my day with either Maple.BS Oatmeal or Grits... the Oatmeal is 3 pts, the grits are 2, but I added a tsp of sugar, so that makes them 3. My snack is usually something crunchy... like Cheez its or popcorn...
Lunch... a hot pocket, burrito, whatever... but thats 7-8 pts. and then dinner!! WOO HOO!!!
For the past two nights I have been serving my dinner in a bowl... less room, less food. With all the water I have been drinking I cant eat like I could two days ago... which is another good thing!
So far Im not starving, Im not cranky (like Atkins makes u)... Im not sure how the weight loss is going because I dont weigh myself. BUT I do weigh in at the WW meeting on Tuesdays so I will tell you then.
I think WW is like "weight loss" for dummies... lol. So far so good!!!!
After the first day
Oct 17, 2007
Well... the first day wasnt so bad! I ate oatmeal for bfast, had a hot pocket for lunch with an apple, a few hershey kisses, popcorn and a nice dinner....
AND I DIDNT EAT ALL OF MY POINTS!!! But I did drink 128 oz of water!! WOO HOO ME!!!!
AND I DIDNT EAT ALL OF MY POINTS!!! But I did drink 128 oz of water!! WOO HOO ME!!!!
A NEW ATTACK
Oct 16, 2007
hey OH!!!
I just wanted to drop a few lines to tell you that I joined Weight Watchers. My sister and I joined last night and are doing the POINTS program with meetings every Tuesday. I get ALOT of points... which is nothing to brag about!! The first goal is set for you, which is 10% of your body weight. I have ALOT to lose, but less than 30 pounds... so Im trying no to cry! I can get anything I want, but I have to track it, deduct points for it and DRINK WATER!!!
I am very positive about the program because there isnt anything that I cant eat. Its all about accountability! Maybe the food journal will help me see patterns that I dont see on my own. Im not sure, but Im excited about the prospects!
On another positive note, Im thinking about joining the YMCA. its $46 a month for the family and Im able to use the gym and join any class + free child care for BOTH of my children. Im excited about that!!!
KEEP PRAYING FOR ME!!!!
I just wanted to drop a few lines to tell you that I joined Weight Watchers. My sister and I joined last night and are doing the POINTS program with meetings every Tuesday. I get ALOT of points... which is nothing to brag about!! The first goal is set for you, which is 10% of your body weight. I have ALOT to lose, but less than 30 pounds... so Im trying no to cry! I can get anything I want, but I have to track it, deduct points for it and DRINK WATER!!!
I am very positive about the program because there isnt anything that I cant eat. Its all about accountability! Maybe the food journal will help me see patterns that I dont see on my own. Im not sure, but Im excited about the prospects!
On another positive note, Im thinking about joining the YMCA. its $46 a month for the family and Im able to use the gym and join any class + free child care for BOTH of my children. Im excited about that!!!
KEEP PRAYING FOR ME!!!!
UPDATE
Oct 09, 2007
ok... so heres the latest/greatest...
My company is being bought out! They are crazy in debt and a big healthcare organization from NC bought them during the summer and the official transistion is upon me. The "old" company underwent open enrollment, so I just kept the benefits I had since we were told that when the "new" company takes over, we will have new benefits.
So I went online to read about this new company....and it turns out that they own several hospitals in NC and a BARIATRIC CENTER!!!
SO I AM DESPERATELY PRAYING THAT THEY WONT HAVE AN EXCLUSION!!
PRAY WITH ME!!!!
My company is being bought out! They are crazy in debt and a big healthcare organization from NC bought them during the summer and the official transistion is upon me. The "old" company underwent open enrollment, so I just kept the benefits I had since we were told that when the "new" company takes over, we will have new benefits.
So I went online to read about this new company....and it turns out that they own several hospitals in NC and a BARIATRIC CENTER!!!
SO I AM DESPERATELY PRAYING THAT THEY WONT HAVE AN EXCLUSION!!
PRAY WITH ME!!!!
EXCLUSION
Oct 07, 2007
WELL.... MY EMPLOYER HAS EXCLUDED WLS!!!!
UGH!!!
EMPLOYERS ARE SHUTTING THE DOORS FOR PEOPLE LEFT & RIGHT! ITS VERY DISHEARTENING! BUT I WILL PREVAIL!!!
UGH!!!
EMPLOYERS ARE SHUTTING THE DOORS FOR PEOPLE LEFT & RIGHT! ITS VERY DISHEARTENING! BUT I WILL PREVAIL!!!
