cmobley4
PRAYER REQUEST
Oct 03, 2007
HEY OH FAMILY...
IM WRITING TODAY FOR PRAYER...
#1... IM SICK! I HAVE A COLD THAT IS MAKING ME NUTS, SO PLEASE PRAY FOR MY HEALING
#2... MY COMPANY IS BEGINNING OPEN ENROLLMENT! TONIGHT WE ARE HAVING A DINNER TO GO OVER CHANGES... PLEASE GOD DONT LET THEM EXCLUDE WLS!!!
other than that, im ok. alittle homesick, but that happens to me during the holidays. prasy for that too... GOD KNOWS WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE (SC OR CALI) SO PLEASE PRAY THAT HIS WILL BE SHOWN TO ME AND IF MY HEART DESIRES SOMETHING OTHER THAN HIS WILL, THAT HE TAKE THAT SPIRIT FROM ME!!! cause I miss HOME!!!!
IM WRITING TODAY FOR PRAYER...
#1... IM SICK! I HAVE A COLD THAT IS MAKING ME NUTS, SO PLEASE PRAY FOR MY HEALING
#2... MY COMPANY IS BEGINNING OPEN ENROLLMENT! TONIGHT WE ARE HAVING A DINNER TO GO OVER CHANGES... PLEASE GOD DONT LET THEM EXCLUDE WLS!!!
other than that, im ok. alittle homesick, but that happens to me during the holidays. prasy for that too... GOD KNOWS WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE (SC OR CALI) SO PLEASE PRAY THAT HIS WILL BE SHOWN TO ME AND IF MY HEART DESIRES SOMETHING OTHER THAN HIS WILL, THAT HE TAKE THAT SPIRIT FROM ME!!! cause I miss HOME!!!!
WIND OF RELIEF
Sep 27, 2007
Last night I had to sit and tell my husband about my visit to the DR. I was embarassed and ashamed and told him that I felt bad for him because he had a FAT WIFE.
And he almost fell outta the bed. He told me how much he loves me, how much he supports, how he would be with me every step of the way and how he WOULD NEVER see me as his FAT WIFE! and I just felt like a weight was lifted off my heart and I could see some light at the end of my tunnel again.
As a woman, I am so hard on myself. I see things that are HUGE to me, but not HUGE to him. And I guess its a good thing because it makes me want to try harder, but as our marriage progresses, we have grown comfortable.... and that can be devastating...
As married people, we should always be looking to be at our best. I know its not something we can accomplish every minute or every day, but for the most part...
So... I am restarting AGAIN... going back to TRYING! GETTING BACK TO THE BASICS OF LOVING MYSELF! PRAY FOR ME
And he almost fell outta the bed. He told me how much he loves me, how much he supports, how he would be with me every step of the way and how he WOULD NEVER see me as his FAT WIFE! and I just felt like a weight was lifted off my heart and I could see some light at the end of my tunnel again.
As a woman, I am so hard on myself. I see things that are HUGE to me, but not HUGE to him. And I guess its a good thing because it makes me want to try harder, but as our marriage progresses, we have grown comfortable.... and that can be devastating...
As married people, we should always be looking to be at our best. I know its not something we can accomplish every minute or every day, but for the most part...
So... I am restarting AGAIN... going back to TRYING! GETTING BACK TO THE BASICS OF LOVING MYSELF! PRAY FOR ME
BIGGER LOSER TODAY!
Sep 27, 2007
Today I found out something that devastated me. I went to the DR and when they went to weigh me, I had a ANXIETY attack. I couldnt bring myself to get on the scale. I froze... like a deer in head lights and panicked. I felt like a total idoit!
And I cried...and the DR was nice enough to let me sit in a room till I gathered myself and then I asked him to leave the room so I could weigh myself. It was the scariest moment of my life when that number popped up! I almost passed out!
I hate myself for letting it get this outta control. I hate myself for letting food rule my life. I hate myself for being this big of mess. I didnt see the Dr.... I politely walked out of the office. its like a dirty secret.. I have a problem! I feel trapped and I HATE IT!
SUCH A LOSER
Sep 26, 2007
hey OH family...
well... lately things have been a mess. I havent been eating right, I have barely walked my two miles a day, and water... well lets just say Im only getting what I drink in the shower... haha
SO... I am repledging myself to the battle of the bulge.
Lately I have been letting things like life get my off course. And I am quickly learning that life will always throw stones in your path...
I just have to be able to step over them rather than go around them... cause there is a big bowl of pasta, or mexican, orchinese sitting next to the rock...
OK! TODAY IS A NEW DAY! I FELL OFF THE WAGON AGAIN, BUT I KNOW HOW TO CLIMB BACK ON!!!
WOO HOO!!!!
well... lately things have been a mess. I havent been eating right, I have barely walked my two miles a day, and water... well lets just say Im only getting what I drink in the shower... haha
SO... I am repledging myself to the battle of the bulge.
Lately I have been letting things like life get my off course. And I am quickly learning that life will always throw stones in your path...
I just have to be able to step over them rather than go around them... cause there is a big bowl of pasta, or mexican, orchinese sitting next to the rock...
OK! TODAY IS A NEW DAY! I FELL OFF THE WAGON AGAIN, BUT I KNOW HOW TO CLIMB BACK ON!!!
WOO HOO!!!!
ON MY SOAPBOX...
Sep 17, 2007
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IT ALWAYS AMAZES ME WHEN CRAZY THINGS LIKE THIS HAPPEN IN THE WORLD. I AM ALWAYS OVERCOME WITH GRIEF AND ANGER. AS I MATURE IN LIFE, I AM TRYING TO REFOCUS THOSE EMOTIONS INTO ACTIONS.
I TALKED TO MY SON ABOUT MYCHAL BELL, I PURCHASED T-SHIRTS FOR MY FAMILY, I AM PARTICIPATING IN BLACK THURSDAY, I WROTE MYCHAL BELL A LETTER WHILE HE WAS IN PRISON... AND I CARE! I CARE THAT IN 2007, MY CHILDREN FACE THE SAME DEMONS THAT WERE PRESENT IN 1950. I AM MORE SAD THAT PEOPLE DONT REALIZE WHERE IT COMES FROM. 7 GENERATIONS OF CURSES IF THE CYCLE DOESNT CHANGE. ITS OLD TESTAMENT, BUT IT HOLDS TRUE! IM BREAKING THE CYCLE ON MY FAMILY TREE AND I CHALLENGE YOU TO BREAK YOURS!
IN HIS GRIP,
CRYS
IT ALWAYS AMAZES ME WHEN CRAZY THINGS LIKE THIS HAPPEN IN THE WORLD. I AM ALWAYS OVERCOME WITH GRIEF AND ANGER. AS I MATURE IN LIFE, I AM TRYING TO REFOCUS THOSE EMOTIONS INTO ACTIONS.
I TALKED TO MY SON ABOUT MYCHAL BELL, I PURCHASED T-SHIRTS FOR MY FAMILY, I AM PARTICIPATING IN BLACK THURSDAY, I WROTE MYCHAL BELL A LETTER WHILE HE WAS IN PRISON... AND I CARE! I CARE THAT IN 2007, MY CHILDREN FACE THE SAME DEMONS THAT WERE PRESENT IN 1950. I AM MORE SAD THAT PEOPLE DONT REALIZE WHERE IT COMES FROM. 7 GENERATIONS OF CURSES IF THE CYCLE DOESNT CHANGE. ITS OLD TESTAMENT, BUT IT HOLDS TRUE! IM BREAKING THE CYCLE ON MY FAMILY TREE AND I CHALLENGE YOU TO BREAK YOURS!
IN HIS GRIP,
CRYS
FIRST STEP
Aug 26, 2007
Most thought my first step would be to get sliced and diced....
haha...
and I thought so too. But after some serious soul seraching... I have decided to postpone any immediate attempts at WLS.
I am going to join Weight Watchers with my brother and sister and begin my journey on a much smaller scale.
I am however going to use my PCP for weight loss RX and be monitored by him, but I am far too afraid to have surgery right now... and I would like to fix the things in my life that keep me fat... you know like eating too much, lack of exercise... haha... all the basics.
I have several post op friends who are struggling intensively with the mental issues of food... and I dont want that for myself.
So... I am starting small... and will work my way up if I need too. BUT Im going to just lay all my demons down on the altar and be healed!!!
haha...
and I thought so too. But after some serious soul seraching... I have decided to postpone any immediate attempts at WLS.
I am going to join Weight Watchers with my brother and sister and begin my journey on a much smaller scale.
I am however going to use my PCP for weight loss RX and be monitored by him, but I am far too afraid to have surgery right now... and I would like to fix the things in my life that keep me fat... you know like eating too much, lack of exercise... haha... all the basics.
I have several post op friends who are struggling intensively with the mental issues of food... and I dont want that for myself.
So... I am starting small... and will work my way up if I need too. BUT Im going to just lay all my demons down on the altar and be healed!!!
OFFICIALLY INSURED
Aug 23, 2007
WITH AN EFFECTIVE DATE OF 07/01/07... WOO HOO!!!
SO NOW, I CAN OFFICIALLY START MY JOURNEY!!!
SO NOW, I CAN OFFICIALLY START MY JOURNEY!!!
FINALLY!!!
Aug 09, 2007
THE BENEFITS COORDINATOR OF MY COMPANY FINALLY GOT ALL OF MY BENEFIT FORMS AND IS PROCESSING MY ENROLLMENT!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!!
the pitter patter of lil feet
Aug 09, 2007
Friends of OH...
NO I AM NOT PREGNANT!!!
But my husband has two other children, that are in California! We havent seen them in several years... about 3 to be more specific.
ANYWAYS... their mother is ill. They have asked to come live with us. So, we are suing for full physical custody.
GOD IS GOOD and I know HIS WILL will be done. Just keep me in your prayers...
PUHLEASE!!!!
NO I AM NOT PREGNANT!!!
But my husband has two other children, that are in California! We havent seen them in several years... about 3 to be more specific.
ANYWAYS... their mother is ill. They have asked to come live with us. So, we are suing for full physical custody.
GOD IS GOOD and I know HIS WILL will be done. Just keep me in your prayers...
PUHLEASE!!!!
MY FAITH HAS BEEN RESTORED
Aug 05, 2007
Sunday was an amazing day for me!
I got up, took a shower, gave my baby a shower, got her dressed, got the kitchen cleaned, made blueberry pancakes and got my son ready for church. It was 5 minutes till 10 and my hubby wasnt out of bed yet. So... I left him. I loaded up the kids and we headed to church.
Shortly after, I got a text from him that said "u suck, y did u leave me"...
and my flesh said... "Tell him your not his mother. He knows what time we leave for church and he is a grown man who can get himself up and get ready." BUT...
since I was sitting in the church parking lot... I just replied and asked him if he was coming.
Well... 20 mins or so passed and he still wasnt there. So I just figured he wouldnt be showing up... and my sister asked me where he was, and I just rolled my eyes...
WONT YOU KNOW THAT A FEW SECONDS LATER HE WALKED INTO THE SANCTUARY!!!
GOD PROMISED BELIEVERS THEIR FAMILES AND I AM SERVING AS PROOF OF THAT!!!
its a slow, sometimes painful process. I mean some days him and I act like heathens... sometimes we both fall short of showing ANY kind of glory. But for the first time in a long time, I knew God was talking to me and telling me NOT TO GIVE UP!!!
And so... I am believing that GOD will help me in my battle of obesity. God will save me from being imprisoned in this body. God is renewing my faith everyday.... and I BELIEVE GOD FOR A MIRACLE!!!!
I HOPE YOU DO TOO!!!!
I got up, took a shower, gave my baby a shower, got her dressed, got the kitchen cleaned, made blueberry pancakes and got my son ready for church. It was 5 minutes till 10 and my hubby wasnt out of bed yet. So... I left him. I loaded up the kids and we headed to church.
Shortly after, I got a text from him that said "u suck, y did u leave me"...
and my flesh said... "Tell him your not his mother. He knows what time we leave for church and he is a grown man who can get himself up and get ready." BUT...
since I was sitting in the church parking lot... I just replied and asked him if he was coming.
Well... 20 mins or so passed and he still wasnt there. So I just figured he wouldnt be showing up... and my sister asked me where he was, and I just rolled my eyes...
WONT YOU KNOW THAT A FEW SECONDS LATER HE WALKED INTO THE SANCTUARY!!!
GOD PROMISED BELIEVERS THEIR FAMILES AND I AM SERVING AS PROOF OF THAT!!!
its a slow, sometimes painful process. I mean some days him and I act like heathens... sometimes we both fall short of showing ANY kind of glory. But for the first time in a long time, I knew God was talking to me and telling me NOT TO GIVE UP!!!
And so... I am believing that GOD will help me in my battle of obesity. God will save me from being imprisoned in this body. God is renewing my faith everyday.... and I BELIEVE GOD FOR A MIRACLE!!!!
I HOPE YOU DO TOO!!!!
