cocoa_beauty
Well my story is not really all that different that many of everyone else. I have been fat most of my life since I can remember I have been over 200lbs. For a long time I was ok with my weight and actually very concieted. Then I stop working became a stay at home mom and got married. I gained so much weight that I started to get low self esteem. I wanted to get preganat and I have PCOS so I decided I needed to loose wieght and regulate my menstral. Well in 3 months I lost 30 pounds! I was on a roll I decided forget baby right now I wanna keep going. Well I can plot and plan but God is the best planner, I was pregnant with TWINS!! it was bittersweet. Needless to say my whole diet and exercise went out the door I gained back my wieght and more. Than at 24 weeks I went into early labor and gave birth early and my beautiful babies passed away (boy and girl) . So weight loss became extremely hard and I just kept putting on the pound, got depressed and now I am at the biggest I have ever been. Since then I have tried and tried many different things to loose weight but I just was never successful so I decided that the sugery was neccessary to get my health back. I want to be able to walk without breathing heavy or having an asthma attack. I want to be able to clean my house without my back killing me. I want to not be in fear of everything because of my weight. I want to have more energy to perfect my worship. I want to show my daughter a better and healthier life. I pray that God (One and only who has no partners) make this journey easy for me and good for my health, my life and most importantly MY Religon!
