Finally

Nov 30, 2009

have not posted for sometime.  When I first started this journey I was 368 pounds and desperate, but also excited to get this done. Finally I got it done and again I was excited, I knew this journey would not be easy, but I did not anticipate how hard, mentally and physically and emotionally, I have to say that I guess somethings you have to expericence yourself.  It was like when you expect a baby and you are so excited your due date is coming and you keep looking at the baby clothes then you give birth and the baby is so cute but you realize you can't sleep all night anymore the honeymoon has definitley worn off. That was me with the sugery and every thing else. I have had ups and a whole lot of downs but despite all of those things I am so grateful to my lord for blessing me to make it this far. I am now 77 pounds down and I am not longer in the 300's .  I have not been this small in more than 6 years!!!!. At first I was not proud of myself that is why I haven't been posting I felt like a failure and althought I was loosing weight I felt like it was the sugery and not me.  I don't regret getting the sugery it was a neccessary step for me. I am so glad when I go to eat and  I don't have to finish or I share my food now. I was so greedy I would not dare share.  I can walk away from food that alone is a great acomplishment. I feel like a 6-7 year old child got off my back.  I can walk and not get tired easly, I can clean my house.  I don't know what I was going through but I am so motivated not than I have been in a while. I am going to keep going goodbye 300's  hope to never see you again, just passing through 200's, 100's I am on my way

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