corndog
I have come here to begin my journey to becoming thin. I have always been alittle on the thick side but never more than 200lbs until 5 years ago. I got pregnant and BAM I gained close to 80lbs. Now I have hit rock bottom. I have decided that having Gastic Bypass is at this point my only hope. I have tried everything else out there and here I am bigger than ever! I have already gone down the long road to get my surgery approved. Now the time is here. I was very excited about the thought of getting my life back, but now that I am only 8 days away I have become so scared that I am not sure if this is the answer. I was fine until I got on site and started reading memorials. Now why in the heck did I go and do that for? I love my son and I want to be around to see him grow into a wholesom young man. I know that if I don't loose some weight that I may cut that time short. At this point I have no health problems what so ever. In my mind this should be safe for me. I am aware of the risk and complications that are involved but they are the same with any major surgery. My biggest problem is my liquid diet that I am on for 2 weeks. I have not stuck to it at all. I worry that this my cause me to have some complications in the end. I will wait until tuesday and call my doctors office and see if this will be a big problem. I leave this entry with a silent prayer that this will all be ok and that GOD see me to do the right thing for me and my son. AMEN