June 23, 2009

Jun 23, 2009

Well it has been a long journey for me...but I must say a rewarding one. I have met the man of my dreams and I am purchasing my first home. I have been holding at the same weight for over a year now. I don't know where to start to get the last 30lbs off.  Am I a failure because I don't know where to start?  I seem to have lost tract of doing the right thing. Now I do work out but not like I use to. I never want to see morbid obese again!  At 182 I feel fat just Like I did at 300lbs. I feel un-attractive and as the days go by I want to go out less because I am getting those old feelings of people staring at me because of my behind being so out of shape. I don't know what to do about it. Help my OH friends I am at a standstill but feeling like I am traveling backwards.

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