WOW!
Jul 02, 2009
It's crazy how the time flies! This month makes two years ago I had my WLS. Some days it seems like just yesterday, others like it was a million years ago. So much has happened and life has really changed for me. I need to get on here and post more. I am staying right around 147-150 and my husband says I am too skinny. I feel great but know I need to do more strength exercises. Working out on our weight machine! I am going to be doing a 157 mile bike ride through the Colorado Rockies in 3 weeks. So I do spend a few hours most days riding my bike. I really love it and don't ever feel like I am exercising. That helps! As far as emotional changes, I am still working on those. Big time. I am 2 years out and my therapist got in my face and asked me when was I going to get out of my denial. I knew this going in and thought I had such a handle on my addictive personality, but boy was I ever off base! Taking the food away just made me look to other things. And no, I was prepared for the shopping addiction and the problem with other men, it has been issues I would have NEVER thought I would struggle with. So I sometimes feel like I am starting all over with educating myself on myself and how to live life, but then I realize that is life, always learning and growing. Or we are suppose to be anyway! lol!!! This has felt good and I am sorry i haven't done this in so long. I will work to do this more often. I know how much it helped me when I was starting to look into having WLS. But who am I kidding, this helps me just by writing this stuff. So I guess it's a win win!
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Life after WLS
Aug 11, 2008
As I stood in the dressing room today trying on dress pants, I was overwhelmed with the reality of where I am in body size now. I really am where I have always dreamed of being and never even began to believe it could be a reality. You know, that feeling we all get that if we were just thinner................well it freaks me out to really think about the fact that I am thinner,I AM THIN! and my life has just as many challenges and difficulties as it did when I was bigger. I have to remind myself sometimes that I really am half the size I was a year ago. It boggles my mind to think that I will have lost more weight than what I weigh. Just freaky to me. I work in the school district here where I live and went in today getting ready for school to start tomorrow. I took last year off because of the surgery and it still blows my mind when people I have known for years do not know who I am , flat out look right past me, or stare trying to figure out who I am. I am loving where I am. But the truth is, life is not better just because you are thin. I would love to be able to shout that from the roof tops. And God willing, if EVER given the opportunity to share that with the world, I will! I am 13 months out now, and am being hit with the reality of life after WLS. I hesitate to say I have a Darling Husband, or that our marriage is in trouble. The reality is, with life comes issues. We all have them. And this has been a journey that has been difficult at times. Change in any form is difficult and scary. I am thankful for a husband who is committed to our marriage and is willing to go through this process with me. There seems to be a void in information for those of us out here a year or more after WLS. What happened to everyone? I can't believe that after WLS everyone's lives were so "normal" that they didn't need anyone or anyone's experiences to help them along the way. Maybe I am not looking in the right place. But for me, I did so much research before WLS and was really prepared for everything up to and I guess, months after. I hit a brick wall the other day when I realized I am now at that place where people start to gain their weight back. NOT ME!!! God willing, I am going to keep doing this life in the same mode I have been for the past 2 or 3 years. That is making sure I am healthy and never relax to the point of not being aware of every single thing that goes into my mouth. I NEVER want to mindlessly put food in my mouth again. And I have found that this far out, that can happen. So, I am now entering into a new phase of my WLS. That being figuring out how to keep the mind set I have had for the last 2 or 3 years.
Life is GOOD!!!
Feb 11, 2008
Wow........plateaus are for real. I hadn't weighed in a while and see that for almost a month I have only lost one pound. But, I really haven't been exercising like I should nor drinking all my water. The food part is fine. I have been taking all my vitamins and eating at least 60 grams of protein a day. I must confess I have found that I can eat dark chocolate and have to really watch myself. Actually the caffeine bothers me more than anything. But I am reminded that moderation is the key! Cottage cheese, Mott's no sugar applesauce, live active mozzarella cheese melted and Wendy's Chili have become main stays for me. I eat these things mostly. I do not like anything with nutra sweet or splenda, so I have really become hooked on LifeWaters. Another thing I like to do is go to Sonic and get water with a lemon, a lime and strawberry added.( their add ins) It's a sweet drink with not too much sugar. It's fun to have for something different. It's a nice treat. I also am enjoying hot water with lemon and a tiny bit of honey. I think I may do that with green tea as well. I am in a 14 jean and medium top now. I just love grabbing things from my closet and not having to worry if it's going to be too tight or not. I just need to get my exercise room in order. I haven't done that since we moved and we have had so much snow and ice this winter, I haven't gotten out and walked as often as I should. The dogs really love it when I do though. And so do I!!!! More later.....
Time flys!!!!!
Jan 09, 2008
Wow....lots has happened...I am under 200!!!!! Praise God, it's been over 20 years since I could say that. It has been a blast! We sold our home and bought another one. On an acre and a half with a pool. Can't wait till summer.....swimming, yard work, gardening and tree climbing with the grandkids. Will have 2 more come this spring!!!! Life is good. Weigh around 190ish and wearing size 16 soon 14 jeans. Just really having a ball living life to it's fullest! Will add more soon......................
I am so sorry!!! September 27,2007
Sep 27, 2007
I really am sorry for not posting anything since my surgery. Life has been full! It has been 10 weeks and 3 days since my surgery and for the most part things have been very very good! Everything I expected and more! Like you see all the time, I would do it again in a heart beat! Have no regrets! I am down from 288 to 222 as of this afternoon. From a size 26/28 to a 16 or 18, depending on the fit. I am doing water arobics and eating 4 or 5 small meals a day. Trying to get 60 grams of protien and 60 ounces of water. Doing pretty good. I will try to get on here sooner than this next time!!
God is good....ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!
******GOD IS SOOOOO GOOD******July 2 2007
Jul 02, 2007
Just got a call from Dr. Dort’s office…………………my surgery has been moved up to the 16th!!! YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Now I am excited!!!!! Start liquids right now!!!!!!! Man, I guess part of my numbness was the 2 week lag. I think I had become so tired of the waiting game. Well…..it’s over now! Praise God!!!!!
*GOALS*
Jul 02, 2007
*Be able to wear my wedding ring my husband put on my finger on our wedding day! * Have energy, energy, energy!!!*To finally look as good on the outside as I feel on the inside!*To be able to hold a baby close to me and not have all this fat in the way* Take the doors off my Jeep Wrangler and enjoy driving around!!!! * Be able to sleep through the night-as it is now I have to fully wake up to roll myself over!*To not have to change sleeping positions because of poor blood circulation (arms falling asleep)*To do the Leap of Faith and all other activities at Super Summer!* Fasten my seatbelt in my car without feeling like I’m being strangled or being afraid it won’t fit!*Be able to style my hair and it stay! (no more sweating like a pig!)* Cross my legs *Get down and up from the floor easily *Go up the stairs without getting winded *Walk or stand for more than 15 minutes without my back hurting and my arms and legs getting numb or tingly.*Go running or jogging *Become more outdoorsy and athletic * Stop being such a hot, sweaty mess *Tie my shoes without having to hold my breath *Paint my toes without having to contort into weird positions and not breathe *Have the doc use a regular sized blood pressure cuff on me *Fasten an airline seatbelt without an extender *Cross my legs on a plane *Put down the tray on a plane *Shop at regular clothing stores *Get my clothing and shoe sizes down to a single digit *Fit into any restaurant booth comfortably *Fit into any theater seat comfortably *Wear 7-inch bracelets *Be able to use armrests for their intended purpose *Be able to put things on my lap *Be able to hold my grandson on my “long lap” without him sliding off- my grandson says I have a “short” lap right now *Fit into a desk/chair at my daughters school "meet the teacher night" *Be able to go to her band concert and sit in the auditorium without sitting there holding my breath and keeping my arms folded tightly across my chest, so that I don’t spill over onto the people sitting next to me! *Tuck in my tops *To only wear long tops because it’s the style instead of wearing them to hid my stomach *Say bye-bye to back pain *Fit on amusement park rides *To not have to put down 3x on t-shirt size for youth camp or mission trips ever again!! *Wear things that say “one size fits most” *Wear cute panties and bras *Have muscle tone that you can see!! *To wear a bathing suit and not worry about embarrassing those around me *To use my exercise recumbent bike and wieghts and really enjoy it, feeling acomplishment instead of like a hamster in a wheel that gets nowhere! * Be able to wrap a regular sized towel around my body and it cover ALL of me! *Not have any activities limited by my weight *To not have to look for weight limits on things before I can use them *Know what it feels like to be at an “normal” weight (has NEVER happened to me in my lifetime!!!!) *Be able to sit in a chair and have people still be able to see the chair *Not be deathly afraid of wicker furniture, folding chairs or anything with armrests! *To not have to be afraid that others are worried that I may be to heavy to sit on their things (cars, couches, chairs,and the like) *To be with others and Not have to even think about if they are uncomfortable with me or not *Be able to go through a turnstile without having to turn sideways *Be able to eat a small portion of food and honestly be satisfied! *Sit “Indian style” *Wipe my backside without having to stand up (yeah, I know… too much info!) *Be able to find stylish clothes that fit me at Goodwill and consignment shops. *Not have to push my car seat all the way back in order to fit comfortably behind the wheel (and compromise the Jeep clutch!) *Go to the beach and truly enjoy it *Travel and completely feel at ease *Be able to accept it if someone tells me that I’m beautiful for what it really is, just a reaction to my outer apperance change. *Do the “Walk from Obesity” *Just have an easier time doing simple things.* Wear ladies sweat pants. I have to buy men’s sizes because “ladies” aren’t supposed to be this fat. *Be able to pick up whatever I drop on the floor. *Be able to walk and hold a conversation at the same time. * Only take up one seat on the bus or subway – not a seat-and-a-half! * Be able to walk between tables at a restaurant without having to feel like I am invading others space. *Be able to work in my garden and not feel like one of those wooden cut outs of a big butt lady! LOL!!!
50 things to do instead of snacking
Jul 02, 2007
1)Pray 2)Pray for someone 3)Imagine the new healthier you 4)Walk around the block 5)Call a friend 6)Make a list of your Top Ten Reasons to Lose Weight 7)Kiss your husband 8)Jot a thank you note to someone 9)Go to bed early or take a nap 10)Read a book 11)Blog or journal 12)Give yourself a manicure or pedicure 13)Plan a healthy meal for your family and fix it! 14)Surf the Internet 15)Finish an unfinished project 16)Walk your dog, pet your cat, feed your fish 17)Brush your teeth 18)Balance your checkbook 19)Chop veggies to keep on hand 20)Give a massage 21)Clean out a junk drawer 22)Play a game with your kids 23)Try a new route on your walk 24)Drink a glass of water 25)Hug someone 26)Update your OH profile 27)Look at old pictures 28)Rent a video 29)Wash, wax and clean out your car 30)Take a hot, soothing bath 31)Update your calendar 32)Work in your yard 33)Start your holiday shopping list 34)Count your blessings 35)Write a letter 36)Fold some laundry 37)Check your e-mail 38)Give your dog a bath 39)Send a birthday card 40)Try on your "new" clothes 41)Make a To Do List and start it 42)Rearrange some furniture 43)Light some candles 44)Put your pictures in an album 45)Plan a trip (real or imaginary)46)Straighten a closet 47)Clean out a file 48)Visit a friend 49)turn on music and dance 50)Do something nice for someone
When I read other profiles and people talk about going from a size 28 down to a size 6, I think how cool, but never me...........well.............it is!!! I was shopping the other day and started with a 10. Too big, then a 9, still too big. So I then tried an 8 and still loose. I could not believe it when I fit into a size 6. It is really strange. I don't feel as small as I guess I really am. I feel normal. I move around easier and don't take up as much room in seats or chairs anymore. But I don't think of myself as being the size I am. On the other hand, I don't feel big anymore either. Just like I said, normal. And that, I am so very thankful for!
