Waiting

Jun 22, 2010

Here I am waiting again. For some reason when I started on this path I thought that it would go fast and smoothe. Man was I wrong. I know that I did not gain this weight overnight, I know that it will take time to get insurance approval, than it will take time to schedual surgery, than the time to heal.  I know all this, I just want to snap my fingers and be on the losing side now!
On the other hand now, I have learned so much from the Holistic Nutritionist that I see. She has taught me to listen to what my body is telling me. Befrore and during meal times. I can tell now when I am hungry, really hungry and not just bored. Imagine that someone who weighs almost 275 pounds to have never felt hunger! I know how important water is and how bad soda is. I now know how important protein and good carbs are for you. I can take my time eating now. I can finally eat my food in more time than it took to prepare it. Nomore wolfing it down.
I learn from the wonderful support group at my surgeons office. How they eat, feel, and exercise. I learn about buying that beautiful dress and only being able to ware it for a couple of hours, cause you lost to much weight. I learned to have a sense of humor about your new body. I also learned that obesity is in every ethnic group and class of society. Nobody is immune to this. I am not the only one. 
I feel that I am ready for this new change in my life. I just wish my insurance company would understand that.
Oh well, maybe I will appreciate it more since I have to work so hard for it.

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