2014-01-28

Jan 28, 2014

Couldn't think of a title.

Yesterday I was very motivated and gung ho. Today I am emotional and bingeing. I know I have GOT to find a way to manage my feelings, because I can't eat like an idiot after surgery. I just got so down today. Really alienated about work. And I couldn't find anything to do with those feelings. And I know I need to.

I still have about 6 weeks to get all of this right.

I tried to visualize myself coming home and doing the right thing. I'll keep trying. I also need sleep.

It is a shift for me to just do this process - it feels like giving in, like the sleeve is a last resort because I am weak, because I don't have enough willpower or character. I am trying to push those thoughts of my head and just WORK THE PROGRAM.

Off to read the boards and get some support.

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