Jaime Moore
July 17, 2006
Jul 17, 2006
July 14, 2006
Jul 13, 2006
July 13, 2006
Jul 13, 2006
July 12, 2006
Jul 12, 2006
July 11, 2006
Jul 11, 2006
July 10, 2006
Jul 10, 2006
Alas, I have completed all tests and am now waiting for the results to be sent over to Dr. O. I have to pick up the endocrine workup info and fax that over but I'm doing that today though. Called the cardiologist left a message for them to call me back me back. I mean how long does it take for them to look at my heart. They have already had the ekg it's fine. I can tell you there isn't anything wrong atleast I don't feel there is. I have a heart murmur but that's it. I will be calling this doctor every other day. I don't have time to waste with them. I want everything sent in before the 31st. Preferably before the 20th once it's sent in I still have to wait another 15 days for the approval. I'm so excited it seems it almost here. It won't be long now maybe about a month. The months have been going by so fast anyway. I hope it won't be long before I have surgery. I want it to be next week. I wanted it to be before the kids went back to school because I know they would make me take them on daily walks. They love being outside. I am getting ready to take them for a bike ride now. SO I'll see ya later alligator.
July 7, 2006
Jul 07, 2006
How was everyone's fourth of July. I had a great time. I was a little upset because I couldn't fit into anything that was red white and blue but it was great. I so didn't know you could buy fireworks here in Florida. Well we over spent by a couple hundred bucks on the fireworks. I love em!!! Jack and my brother Justin put on a great show, they were even better than the professional fireworks. You know they were lame last year too. Anyway we (the kids, Jack, Justin, Nichole and I) BBQ'ed and at the same time shot off some bottle rockets. If you never buy them you'd be doing yourself a favor. We bought the most expensive kind Black Cat and they flew wherever they wanted to. I would never buy them again. Then we went down to the river and shot off all the fireworks. We had the big ones and they were so pretty. The kids had a blast lighting these huge rockets with a punk ofcourse and the sparklers. I can't wait until next year. I plan on buying bigger and better things. I really had fun. I didn't even drink or anything. I have swore off drinking now because 1 I don't want to be labled as a cheap date after surgery and 2 I'm scared that after surgery I might become an alcoholic. I have read so many profils that say they became alchies because of not being able to eat. I don't want to turn to other things. I don't do drugs, I only drink occassionaly now, and I want to keep it that way. I don't want to be like some of the other people that lose thier eating addiction only to hvae a different addiction take hold of them. That's ridiculus. I mean I understand that some peopl have addictiong personalities, but why turn to drugs? Why not do something creative like bikeing, running, walking, something good for you. I already know I'm going to dust my treadmill off. I can't wait. I can't wait to be able to walk without pain and then to run again. OHHHHHHHHHHHHHH that would be great. I told Andrew that I would definitly run with him after. He's as excited about surgery as I am. I know I shouldn't have told them but I couldn't help myself. Kaylynn is excited she wants to go shopping and pick out matching outfits. I'm just hopeing I'll be able to wear somthing that small. I bought a size ten but I don't really think I'd get down to that. I was thinking a size 12 but now I'm convinced the smallest would be a size 14/16. It's not that bad I guess. I think I have really huge bones so there is no way I'm ever gonna be thin maybe thick but never thin.
Ok the day has arrived for the stupid pych eval. It like 1230am and my appointment is at 1115am. I am so nervous and can't sleep. I want it to be over with and I want to get the go ahead on my surgery. This is so stressful. I've been keeping my mind off of things so I haven't really been that stressed, but now knowing that this is the last step to getting surgery is kinda freaking me out. This woman has the authority to say no way, Jaime is too crazy for surgery, we had to lock her up right away. Jack says I'm crazy for even thinking of such things, but I can't help it. It's scary. Oh well. I'm anxious, nervous, excited, and scared all at the same time. I want it to be over already but I don't want to go. I want it to be easy but again I don't want to go. I hope I'm just freaking myself out for no reason everyone says I am. I guess I'll let you know how it went after the fact if they don't lock me up in a crazy institute.
Later Same Day
Yes again I psyched myself out for nothing. I went Pamela Bratton in Port Orange. She was very nice and calm. She didn't have a couch or a big desk. She did write everything that I said down though. She never asked about childhood or that crap. She basically asked when I started gaining weight and what diets I've done and succeded at. How I'm doing emotionally, what I'm doing now to change and what after the surgey will I be doing to lose weight and keep it off. I went in there and told her I was nervous and she said it's understandable. I was on the edge of my chair the whole time waiting for her to say something to indicate that i was crazy so I could run out of the door! LOL, it never happend. Ok so we talk for like 45mins and then she hands me three packets to fill out. The questions on these things are hilarious...Do you ever hear voices other people don't hear. Umm yeah it's my conscious! Do you have a hard time distinguishing reality from fiction. Yeah it's called I can not believe that guy/ girl is wearing that! Do you ever feel like beating, hurting, or causing pain to others. Everyday I drive, DUH. No but seriously the questions were hilarious and I am happy to say that I am officially NOT DONE. I realized today that I had to do seven things not 6.
1. h. pylori test --- done 7-7-06
2. Endocrine Workup --- done 6-21-06
3. Psychological eval --- done 7-7-06
4. Dietary consult --- done 6-29-06
5. Chemical/ alcohol screening --- done 7-7-06
6. Cardio/Pulmonary eval --- done 6/30 & 7-10-06
I though the cardio part was the stress test and the pulmonary part was the echo. How dumb was I. Luckily though I can go in Monday the 10th at 7:30am. THANK YOU JESUS.I made a mistake but the Lord helped fix it. I'm serious call any doctor here and ask them how soon you can get in. It's months. I am so happy. So I guess that's it. I am still waiting on the results from the echo to see if there is anything wrong with my heart. Though there isn't. Anywasy I will write later. Love ya lots.
June 30, 2006
Jun 30, 2006
June 27 & 28, 2006
Jun 28, 2006
Well here it is a week later and I'm still scrambling around trying to get everything done. I hate waiting on everyone else. Ok lets see what I had to do
1) H Plori Test
2) Endocrine Workup
3) Alcohol and Drug screen
4) Psych eval
5) Dietary consult
6) cardio/ pulminary eval
Out of those six things I've fully completed 1, the endocrine workup. It's kinda dissappointing when I look at it that way. I honestly feel like trying to have this surgery is depressing me more than anything else. I can not believe how stressful all this is, expecially knowing I only have 45 day to do it and have it submitted to the insurance company. I'm trying not to let it get me down though. I knew when I started I would have to prove myself to the insurance company how badly I want this surgery. I guess I didn't realize that I would have to be on everyone elses time and terms. I figured it would be like two weeks worth of labs, and doctors and then submitting to the insurance. However it's proven to be completly different. I have to wait for this and that. I have to do all kinds of test that to me are just ridiculus. For instance I am only 25 I am overall healthy other than being overweight and having hip, knee, and back pain (caused ofcourse by being overweight) and I need a full cardio workup? Seriously. Like I could see someone that's older and has high cholesterol or something but a healthy young person. Ok and honestly a psych. I would imagine maybe this isnt correct but anyway that if I was in any way unstable or mentally unable to handle things I would have already been seeking the help of a psych. Am I wrong. Yeah theres going to be a hell of alot of changes going on with me my family my friends and just everything, but change is good. I'm used to change. I mean I used to move every six months and change schools that often as well. I still came out ok. I'm not a hermit, I like most people most of the times. I know I'm a bitch but that's just my personality. I'm not majorly upset or depressed or anything. I rarely get stressed I rarely get depressed. I mean trying to have this surgery is probably the first time I've been stressed in a year. I've slipped into a slight depression and am able to pull myslef out of it just as easliy. I don't really get depressed, just a little down. I'm seriously thinking this psych lady is going to try and say that I shouldn't have surgery because I don't let things bother me. Oh well. Anyway tomorrow I go in to walk on a treadmill I hope it's not going to hurt me to bad. I've been trying to get up and move this whole week. I actually got my whole house clean in one day.YES!!! I think I am losing some weight, not that I can tell or anything but maybe a pund or two. Ok so I'll talk to you tomorrow after I have my stress test. Love you all lots.
June 28, 2006
Hola. How is everyone? I'm good. I went to get the stress test done today. That was fun. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. They hooked me up to this ekg machine that was connected to a computer and a treadmill. The nurse took my blood pressure which was good then had me get on the treadmill. It started off at 1.7 mph and my heart rate was like 150 or something after three minutes the treamill went up to 2.5 mph. Please keep in mind that the treadmill was at a 12% incline. So it was all uphill baby. At 2.5mph my heart rate was like 163 but after three minutes it went to 3.4mph. OMG that was hard. Unfortunatly I could only do a minute of that so my heart rate was like in the low 170's. I got off and the nurse who was contstantly checking my blood pressure again checked it. I sat there and rested for 3 minutes before she let me wait for the doctor to come in. I was then told by the cardiologist that my heart was in seemingly perfect condition and there was no reason I wouldn't be able to have surgery. YES the answer I was hopeing for. WHOA!!!!!!!! (I'm easily excited!) So that part is complete almost. I still have to go to get an echo done on Friday. Tomorrow I go to the dietary class I think that's at like 2 in Ocala. So by Friday I will have three of the six things done. Yeah for me. Then I will go on Friday the 7th to have my psych test and labs done. After that I can hopefully submitt to the insurance company. At least as long as the pych doesn't find me crazy and commit me. LOL. Well I guess that's all folks. Let you know how the dietary class goes tomorrow.
June 20 & 21, 2006
Jun 21, 2006
I got a call today from the psych and I have an appointment with her on Friday the 7th of July. I am so HAPPY. So that's five of six that I have appointments for. Let's hope I can make it to them without any problems. Tomorrow 6/21 I go for my endocrine workup. I just want to know what they do, is it blood work, do you have a cat scan, do you have an x-ray? What is it? So I'm like freaking out because I don't know what it is I'm getting myself into. Update after I get home. Adios
June 21, 2006
I went for my endocrine workup today. I psyched myself out for no reason. All it was, was basically lab work. I'm actually wondering if I could have gotten it all done at a lab instead of going to yet another doctor. So out of the six things I have to do I have one down. I did gain 10 pounds according to thier scale. I don't know whats wrong with me. In Decemeber and January I weighed 298, February 304 March 310 May 316.5 June 326. I seem to just gain weight. I haven't been really eating just drinking. I bet it's from all those empty calories from soda and sweet tea. Oh well. On Monday the 26th I have my cardiologist appointment at 10. Then on the 27th I have my dietary class and nutrionalist class.On the 7th of July I have my psych eval. And sometime in between now and then I have to have my blood work done. I'm so excited it's not gonna be much longer now. I cant wait. I'm starting to have doubts that I'll be approved. Like maybe I'm just not lucky enough to have this surgery. I'm trying not to keep thinking that way but it's really hard. I mean it's been a month since my initial consultaion and I still don't have all that I need to resubmit to the insurance company. I think trying to get this surgery is more stressfull that anything else. I almost never get stressed and this is just doing a number on me.That probably has to help with me gaining weight too. Friday is the support meeting. I'm so excited and ready to go. I want to be able to meet people in person that have been where I am today. Maybe some encouragement. Jack hasn't really been talking about it and when I bring it up he's like you shouldn't be so hung up on it until after you've been approved. So I really can't talk to him about what I'm feeling. Oh well though. Talk to you tomorrow.