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Today I had my follow up visit with the psychologist to get my results from the MMPI and lifestyle assessment. I took the test two weeks ago after we had our first meeting. I didn't think the first meeting went to well. I left his office kind of feeling down but know what ever he said I needed to do I would do to get this surgery. Even if I had been preparing myself for two + years. See I know I needed to work on myself before I had this surgery. And I still have a few things I feel I need to work on. Well anyways he asked me some more questions and I answered a few more questions. And we talk about the test and the surgery. Then he said He felt like I was ready for the surgery and he would have his paperwork over to my doctor with in two weeks. And he would like to see me 3 to 6 months after the surgery. I could of kissed this man. It feels like I have gotten over on hill. Although I know there will me more hills to come. The next hill will be the insurance company. I think I have meet all of their requirements already. So I am I little further down the road then I was when I woke up this morning. What a great day. I am truly happy today.
I forgot about one more thing. I now have it in writing that I am not crazy. I am going to show it to my friends. I don't care what they say anymore. I am not crazy.
Have a great day.

Well, I haven't smoked sense Friday, 1/9/09. I started cutting back 5 weeks ago. I feel pretty good. I do miss my friend the cig. He was always there for me. Although he was killing me every time we sat down together. We were together for 21 years it is so hard to say goodbye to someone you have hung out with for so long. Through the good times and all the bad times. Man I will miss him. Then I think about all the money I am going to save. I smoked 1 1/2 to 2 packs a day, depending on what was going on. I have started making jewelry instead of smoking to keep my hand busy. It seems to work. Not sure what I am going to do with all the stuff I make. We will figure that out later. I just know I feel better and smell better.