Emily_Rose
Where to start... Well my weight has been up and down most of my life. I was a skinny kid but with puberty I filled out. I was still small at that point but had more hips than the average teen. At about 18 my weight started to go up, not fat but still above normal. I stayed in this OK state for a few years. I was engaged to a horrible man when I was 20 and became depressed. At this time I weighed about 160 and did not feel great about myself but did nothing to change it. Once I broke off that engagement about 1 week before my 21st birthday things changed. I started waitressing and went dancing 4 nights a week. At this point I went down to 125 and was in a size 4!!! I had not seen a 4 since elementary school. I met my DH and fell in love. With marriage I slowly gained some weight and then I got pregnant and lost the baby. In that year I went to 175. A year later I became pregnant with my Oldest daughter and gained 40 pounds. I was on partial bed rest and on hormones to keep the pregnancy. Every thing that I took had weight gain as a side affect. At 9 months I weighed 215. I lost 20 but then after my second baby I stayed at about 210. It is 4.5 years later and I am now at 220. I go on a diet and loos 10 pounds max then gain them back within 2 weeks of being off the diet. I just want to be able to control my weight. I look forward to being able to look in the mirror again and feel good about what I see. I am the owner of 2 businesses and dread meeting customers face to face because I am so self conscience. I want to be able to go to business conferences and not feel ashamed.
So now you know what is pushing me to surgery. I want my life back. I dont know if I will ever be a 4 again but a 10 would be awesome!
Update July 2009,
Now that I am almost 9 months out from surgery and have achieved my first goal of being a normal weight I felt it was time to update my story. As of today I am no longer overweight. I am back into size 8 jeans or size 9 Jrs. I was not sure if this day would come or not but now that is has I am so excited. I still have 15 vanity pounds I would like to lose but as of now I am so happy that if I never lose those I will be OK with that.
