One Year Ago Today...

Oct 21, 2009

i remember my surgery day like yesterday I weighed 221 lbs and was miserable in my own body.  It is now 6:45am so it is almost to the min right now, I was laying on the hops ital bed waiting for anesthesia and my nerves kicked in high gear!  I started to cry and panic a little so my mom who had been trying to talk me out of the surgery anyway says "It is not too late you can still change your mind"  I told her that no matter how afraid I got I was going through with it.  A few moments later the Anesthesiologist arrived with some of "the good stuff" and I relaxed.  My mom, dad and Husband kissed my goodbye for surgery and that is the last thing I remember until it was all over.  I woke up and I had my new tummy!.  The fist day was a breeze, I stayed in the hospital until about 4 or 5 that evening then I went to my MILs house for the next week.  She gave me my pain meds every 4 hours on the hour so the pain never started.  I did keep a heating pad on my tummy along with a pillow due to advice from some veterans. I don't think I am going to go ever everything since it is all in my blog but it was a very easy recovery.
BTW my mom had the sleeve done in Feb of this year!

Now one year later at 137 I am only 2 lbs to my original weight goal of 135.  My goal has changed a few times over the year I am still not sure where I want this journey to end,  Some days I want to stay right where I am and at other times I want to lose to 130 but in all honestly if it happens that is fine, if not I am perfectly happy where I am now.  I think the hardest part will be to say I am finished.  That may sound weird to you if you have not been to this point but I am not sure if I want the journey to be over.  This is the biggest accomplishment of my life and the journey has been a blast.  I know the destination is great as well but it will be a change of mindset. 

I more like the person i was a long time ago, before the weight gain.  I am self confident, no longer do I feel like hiding when someone pulls out a camera!  I have more energy, I can do things with my children more often, my house stays cleaner!  I actually like to shop again, it was no fun for me to shop in the Women's dept, NOTHING FIT right even there, they seem to assume if you are fat you have boobs and that was not the case for me.  Now I can actually find clothes that fit and LOOK GOOD.

I do need plastics quite a bit of them but I will take the extra skin over fat any day of the week!  I plan to have a LBL with inner thigh lift, Upper Arms and a Breast Aug.  I had hoped in Feb or Aug but it will more than likely be another year before it happens right now.  

I can talk about this surgery all day long and how it changed my life, I also owe a debt of gratitude to the people on this board that supported me at the very beginning I would start naming but I would feel horrible if I left someone out so just Thanks to All the people further out than me who were here for the start of this journey.  I t has been quite a ride!

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