One and a half years out

Apr 23, 2010

2 days ago I had my 18 month anniversary and life it is good!  Still a size 4 and love it. 
I am having a few struggles with my hormones that are causing some struggles with food but staying in my allowed window of 130-135 even with the war on chocolate.  I am on hormones for 3 months and they are making me want to eat nonstop so I had got all the chocolate out the house then my dad sends my kids home with 2 more bags! (ever want to commit patricide?)  My weight has been like a ping pong ball this month in about a 4lb weight area.  Hopefully I can get back to the bottom of the range and stay there soon.  I am going back to basics for a while hoping it will get rid of these crazy cravings.  So back to cheese sticks for snacks instead of junk, I cut the sugar back out of my coffee as of yesterday, I had added it back in when I lost more than I wanted to.  I drink about 10 cups of coffee a day so just that move cuts out 20 tsp of sugar (320 calories!) so that should get things back where they should be in about a week or so.

All that being said I would and do tell everyone what a wonderful choice this is.  My life is nothing like it was before surgery and I only wish I had done this sooner.  I can eat about double what I could eat 3 months out but still very restricted.  If I eat protein like steak I can eat about 3 oz with nothing else.  I can eat 2 baby back ribs with some sides when I choose.  I do know that weight will be something that I have to keep track of for the rest of my life but no more than a normal person.  I weigh in about 2-3 times a week now, where as when I was losing I would only weigh 1 time a week.  but I want to catch things in a small window now so that there is not a big surprise later.  I think weighing regular keeps me focused on what is impt in my eating even when I am battleing the demon chocolate.  Bad part of weighing regular?  when the number is at the bottom I take it as a pass to make brownies!!!  Got to fix the scale to where it never shows below 132 again!
 

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