Reflections in the mirror

Sep 22, 2010

Sometimes I look at a picture and just stare at it. There is something familiar about the young lady in the picture.  If I look really hard she bears a slight resemblance to someone I once knew someone who seems to be and hopefully will be gone forever. Deep in her eyes I see myself, the person in the picture is me, the old me but none the lease me. I have gone through such a drastic change within the last 6 months that I barely recognize myself. When people go to my facebook page they are amazed and shocked at the difference. And I find myself saying if you feel like that and you’re only looking at me, how do you think I feel because it is me. I thought I was ready for this journey but every day brings on a new set of challenges and a new discovery of who GINA really is. I have been hiding behind the weight for so long that once it started to shed I was left exposed, vulnerable, and alone. Now don’t get me wrong!!!!!! I don’t regret nor would I change having the surgery. I just would have invested more time in loving me and preparing me for the changes that were and are ahead of me. But thanks to my Boo~Bear and my Best Friend Toni I am going to make it. I am learning to live one day at a time and to look into a mirror and/or a picture and know that though the outside has changed the inside is the same but better. I am stronger, more determined, more appreative of myself and dedicated to learning to love and the people around me harder.

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