gardeninggal
Update July 2012
Jul 15, 2012
Just thought I would share a bit tonight. Since my first post it seems like life has been on my side in a great way. I feel so fortunate to part of this OH community and have become a part of 'the family' here. Emotionally I feel like I have such a huge weight off my shoulders (and off the rest of me too in the coming months lol). There is hope where once there was just despair. My husband says he can see how happy I am and how serious I am about this decision. It is a huge decision and I have a little discussion inwardly quite often and always come back with the same decision.. The saying 'Life is Short' is never so true as it is for me right here, right now. I will be 62 on my next birthday, next month, and I only wish I could have been part of this when I was 42 but better now than never.My beautiful grandson, who is 6 months old, is my passion. We stopped in to have a quick visit this evening about 6:45 p.m. and I knew it was his bathtime and we were lucky enough to join in on the fun because it is pure joy that is in his face. He loves his bath and like most babies love to get out of that diaper and roll around on the bed before and after. He giggles out loud and I could go on and on. I want to be a healthy, involved parent and grandparent too. I have always been an involved parent but this wee one is an absolute added incentive.
I think part of my 'head talks' involve the one that most people post at some point and that is: there is no going back in terms of the permanent surgical procedure. I have come to this conclusion: it is a good thing that it is permanent because it only ensures that the weight loss is permanent and is a tool that if respected will be your best life tool. I realize that some do not have success but there are many factors involved. I meet a man last winter who told me that he had bypass surgery 20 some years ago and he gained all and then more weight over the last 15 years. He knows he 'was a bad boy' and I will never forget him. He probably weighs 200 lbs more than he should - bless his heart he was honest with me. He has all the related health and body issues and he knows he blew his chance. Sometimes I think I was meant to have met him. I wish him all the best. He inspires me to do well at this chance I have.
My husband I attended a pool party gathering yesterday and I wanted to shout out that I have this wonderful opportunity ahead but kept my secret for now. My close friends and family have been involved and I will share as I feel ready to do so. Our social life has taken a nose dive because of my poor self-esteem regarding weight so it was a huge step to accept and follow through on this gathering that was so much fun after all and we both needed the time-out.
I met with Dr. David Lindsay at St. Joe's in Toronto on Thurs. July 12 and was given my surgery date of Sept. 4th and purchased the Opti. The Opti is stacked in the spare bedroom and is waiting for me to start and I am ready. I have to keep busy and occupied and the 14th of August when I start my Opti journey and the 14th will be here before I know it. Opti..........I await your company :)
