Michele S.
Just once this year would be nice - but not bad news I guess
Aug 14, 2009
Ok so I have been haveing a ringing in the ears for several months. PCP thought it was the C-PAP needing adjusted. It did need the pressure lowered but it did not help the ears. So he sent me to the ENT to check the hearing. I went today, There are seeveral common causes and I have none. My hearing is wihtin normal, none of my meds are known for causing it and I have no other indicators. Basically no idea, after the year I've had I should not be surprised. There are some meds that might maybe help sort of but my the docs body language it was a fat chance and I really don't need to add any meds to my ever growing list. Basicly if it is not keeping me from doing every day things, there is nothing to do (eve nthough it is a little nerve racking at times). If it starts to interupt my sleep or distract me from working then they will try anti-depresents (too late already there) or can do some behavior training of the brain (basically teach the brain to ignore the sound) So basically get use to it, it will be around for a while.You know just once this year I would like a normal something with a normal solution and a positive result. Oops ok twice I guess the galbladder was one. Yes I know It could be worse I could be going def, I could have ... I know and I am greatful for that but I have also lost the enjoyment of listening to a quite morning and just hearing the dog breathing, or sitting and hearing the wind on the grass wihtout a high pitched humm, Or sitting in a quite house, because it isn't anymore and I usually have to turn on the tvo radio to keep from being distracted by the humm constantly in boht ears and no one can even tell me why.
On top of everyting I have slipped and gained back 5-7 lbs and am so disapointed in myself. It is getting so hard without good restirction and I admitt all the stress has brought back some bad habbits. I am trying to get back on track as of today! Or atleast stop eating the carbs that are leading to the weight gain. I also know the acid reflux is getting worse and that is not good either so I am going to ask for more of an unfill at the end of the month when I go back to the doc. All this is also inceasing the stress and that is increasig the acid reflux etc....
Ok done feeling sorry for myself for now. I have to go finish making and sealing cookies for church on sunday and then take a walk. I also need to try to do somethig about this headache it is not doing well today! probablly stress!
Glad to get it all out! I can't talk to others some times it seems so petty. Complaining aobut the effects of loosing weight. Not too many understand and even those who do really don't need to hear me complain about what they are alredy going through it.
Heres to a great weekend!!! (I hope!)
