Michele S.
So I finally admit....
Aug 30, 2009
On Wednesday I had the doc take out another cc in hopes of reducing the acid reflux and hoping sortof it would not (in hopes it had nothing to do with the band). I have been having much less problems with acid reflux since then. Thank goodness something started working.I knew when I walked out of the office that the band was comming out, I think but it really did not hit me until today. I am glad the acid reflux is less, a little upset that I seem to have no restriction at all but I can work with that (I hope). Today is the first I was on the board and I was in tears, reading how well others were doing and what they wee looking forward to wiht the help of the band. Since I will not have a band, this is a resource I will really ot have and I don't know how much longer I will continue to visit the board. I admit it has been a wonderful tool but I will need to find other resources to assist me in the journey since this tool is not the one ment for me.
Truthfully I think it is just everyting comming out at once. Although the band is a big decision it is not happening in the next couple of months and is minor compared to the rest of the family. My dad got some good news, his heart attack did not do major damage to the heart muscle and there is only a 20% blockage that can be controled with meds. They do not know why he is having heart palpatations but are continuing to monitor him to find out why. Mom is having surgery on her foot on Wednesday, although the surgery is not generally major due to her current health it may be very dangerous for her. My sister is seeing a ENT surgeon on Tuesday because they have found a small tumor on or next to a nerve that may need removed. My cousins baby is having some trouble, she keeps turinig blue and they don't know why although they are seeing a pediatric heart specialist. My dog also has a tumor that is interfeering with her hind quarter nerves and as it grows it will cause her to have more problems and eventually she will not be able to walk etc and we will have to put her in Gods hands. I know the dog seems like a small part but she is so much a part of the family espically for my sister and I and with everything else it is hitting kind of hard today. I know, it is not today and I need to see the positive, I still have all these people in my life and I love them all but It hurts so much to see them struggling and I can't do anything to help them except try to be there. We are trying to keep our days off to a minimum all of us incase we need the time later so my sister scheduled around the surgery and I will be at work this week. I am keeping them and all who have health issues in my prayers at this time.
Well the puppy (ok dog) is trying to cheer me up so I think maybe a short walk is in order, she likes that and it dosen't do me any harm either. boy I will need to find a new electronic journal too. Oh well that is not today.
