Cynthia T.
So I am in the tub.....
Mar 09, 2007
with Calgon-- soaking my weary butt and troubles away. ZONED OUT.
I am home alone (got kid at sleep over-yea) went to a good movie, I am r-e-l-a-x-i-n-g.
I am all singin, having a good ole soak, in the dark, one candle, eyes closed, when ....
KER-SPASH!!!
MY DOG JUMPS IN THE TUB.
---All 50 pounds of Anna. (picture on profile of the idiot) I have no idea why she did this...
The singin'----- the door open---- the opportunity. She felt lonely.
So, I like my tub what I call "boil a frog to death" HOT...... Anna, does not, so I am trying to stand up so she don't scratch me to death, my side (gall bladder) is all "OH NO YOU DON'T" Anna is back peddling. She had her front outta the tub but cant getter butt out. She is doing this kinda whining thing. So am I. I kinda get myself into a crouching (OW, OW OW OW) position, and shove her out. It takes me quite a bit of time to compose myself, between trying not to cry from the OW that is created by my laughing at my situation, and the sweeping gratefulness I am experiencing that I am ALONE at this moment (Nick the other dog hid under the computer desk, Tom the fish, respectfully silent)
The high schooler I pay to clean my house (So I can learn to receive and let people help me) did a KICK A$$ job, and now I have a wet dog running all over it. I take a quick "black hair removal" shower and find her on my bed. Rolling dry.
So...... I like my rare evenings alone, I get to relax. .......Unwind...... Prepare myself for the coming surgery, busy week. Mentally and spiritually and oh,
bathe the dog.
I am home alone (got kid at sleep over-yea) went to a good movie, I am r-e-l-a-x-i-n-g.
I am all singin, having a good ole soak, in the dark, one candle, eyes closed, when ....
KER-SPASH!!!
MY DOG JUMPS IN THE TUB.
---All 50 pounds of Anna. (picture on profile of the idiot) I have no idea why she did this...
The singin'----- the door open---- the opportunity. She felt lonely.
So, I like my tub what I call "boil a frog to death" HOT...... Anna, does not, so I am trying to stand up so she don't scratch me to death, my side (gall bladder) is all "OH NO YOU DON'T" Anna is back peddling. She had her front outta the tub but cant getter butt out. She is doing this kinda whining thing. So am I. I kinda get myself into a crouching (OW, OW OW OW) position, and shove her out. It takes me quite a bit of time to compose myself, between trying not to cry from the OW that is created by my laughing at my situation, and the sweeping gratefulness I am experiencing that I am ALONE at this moment (Nick the other dog hid under the computer desk, Tom the fish, respectfully silent)
The high schooler I pay to clean my house (So I can learn to receive and let people help me) did a KICK A$$ job, and now I have a wet dog running all over it. I take a quick "black hair removal" shower and find her on my bed. Rolling dry.
So...... I like my rare evenings alone, I get to relax. .......Unwind...... Prepare myself for the coming surgery, busy week. Mentally and spiritually and oh,
bathe the dog.
Third surgery is a charm????
Mar 07, 2007
Getting the gall badder out on either Monday or Tuesday. In Denver.
The port will be fixed then. Everything hurts to eat. I am only about a third in my life. I want to live on the couch. I was actually feeling pretty good when I woke up this am, because I had not ate in like 12 hours, and I though, "hey maybe it is over" Then they did the ultrasound, all shoving around and so forth and I about passed out. I feel pretty crappy now.
I had a 2.5 cm gall stone.To me that sounds big. Feels kinda big. So they are yanking the gall bladder.
Honestly, the other night I drank milk and I almost took the damn thing out myself with some scissors in the house here. Holy crap that hurt.
As far as the money goes the port thing is free I probably have to pay for the gallbladder. Maybe they will let me keep it in a little jar. What would that do to the feng Shui of my mobile home?
I will post more on this when I know more.
The port will be fixed then. Everything hurts to eat. I am only about a third in my life. I want to live on the couch. I was actually feeling pretty good when I woke up this am, because I had not ate in like 12 hours, and I though, "hey maybe it is over" Then they did the ultrasound, all shoving around and so forth and I about passed out. I feel pretty crappy now.
I had a 2.5 cm gall stone.To me that sounds big. Feels kinda big. So they are yanking the gall bladder.
Honestly, the other night I drank milk and I almost took the damn thing out myself with some scissors in the house here. Holy crap that hurt.
As far as the money goes the port thing is free I probably have to pay for the gallbladder. Maybe they will let me keep it in a little jar. What would that do to the feng Shui of my mobile home?
I will post more on this when I know more.
PCP appointement follow up.
Mar 06, 2007
Had a rough little night. I just woke up with MAJOR nausea and pain at 2. I was hoping for the angel of death. Instead I got Anna the dog, and she was a comfort actually. I just toughed it out, and took a sleeping pill when I was pretty sure the worst was over.
I had an appointment with PCP. She was understanding but really, you can tell she thinks this whole thing is crazy. She always has though WLS is nuts, but she is agreeable enough. I told her the reason I did not just have it taken out was because it has not really had a chance to do its thing yet. I also am not healthy to start with, so where else would I go but as Francis says...onward?
I have gained back a total of ELEVEN pounds. I am at 222. Ugh. That made me sad.
I had blood drawn and ultra sound for tomorrow. I am scared to eat. I had toast today. Plain toast. Ohhh so satisfying. ANY of Gall bladder patients have ideas on what to eat in the next 8 hours?
If it is the GB they can do surgery and fix both at the same time. I am pretty tired. But hopeful. And a touch sad.
I had an appointment with PCP. She was understanding but really, you can tell she thinks this whole thing is crazy. She always has though WLS is nuts, but she is agreeable enough. I told her the reason I did not just have it taken out was because it has not really had a chance to do its thing yet. I also am not healthy to start with, so where else would I go but as Francis says...onward?
I have gained back a total of ELEVEN pounds. I am at 222. Ugh. That made me sad.
I had blood drawn and ultra sound for tomorrow. I am scared to eat. I had toast today. Plain toast. Ohhh so satisfying. ANY of Gall bladder patients have ideas on what to eat in the next 8 hours?
If it is the GB they can do surgery and fix both at the same time. I am pretty tired. But hopeful. And a touch sad.
Fresh new pain.
Mar 05, 2007
I think I am having gall badder problem. I eat, I get a wave of nausea, then right below my right rib cage, I get a KNIFE stab pain, that then relocates into my abs for about 2 hours. Every time I eat. I actually double over for a while sometimes. Ugh. Dr. S. said to go to my local dr. to "get an ultrasound or something", If it is he can fix my port problem at the same time. Whoo hoo. Joy.
Emotionally, I am tired. I realized yesterday that I walk all hunched over, from pain. This new pain has been going on about a week with each episode being more pronounced. So tomorrow at 11 I go to my Primary Dr. for the tests "or something".
I had someone ask me today why I just dont have them take band out and say, "oh well nice try" I told them that goes with the assumption that I was healthy to start with. i was not. A woman my age should not wet her pants when she coughs, or have her hips hurt every night. I think that we are having problems, yeah, do I think I would have been better off without it, not sure. I doubt it. I would really like to give a a heck of a chance first. Am I tired of the complications? Yeah. But I was also tired of being an ole fat person too.
So its a draw as it stands now.
I saw a kid today, probably no more than say, 12 weighing at least 200 getting into a car. His mom had driven up to the walmart door to pick him up. When he got in the car, the whole thing shook ALOT. I was almost moved to tears about how big this kid is. I get what that feels like. I have no desire to ever be that big again. So yeah, I get disappointed by the complications. I wanted it smooth. But that is not what it is. None of this is a smooth problem.
Some people get the smooth ride. I wish for it alot, but it does not always happen that way.
I do think I agree with my dear brother. Maybe they should just put a zipper in my tummy. Makes it easier.
Emotionally, I am tired. I realized yesterday that I walk all hunched over, from pain. This new pain has been going on about a week with each episode being more pronounced. So tomorrow at 11 I go to my Primary Dr. for the tests "or something".
I had someone ask me today why I just dont have them take band out and say, "oh well nice try" I told them that goes with the assumption that I was healthy to start with. i was not. A woman my age should not wet her pants when she coughs, or have her hips hurt every night. I think that we are having problems, yeah, do I think I would have been better off without it, not sure. I doubt it. I would really like to give a a heck of a chance first. Am I tired of the complications? Yeah. But I was also tired of being an ole fat person too.
So its a draw as it stands now.
I saw a kid today, probably no more than say, 12 weighing at least 200 getting into a car. His mom had driven up to the walmart door to pick him up. When he got in the car, the whole thing shook ALOT. I was almost moved to tears about how big this kid is. I get what that feels like. I have no desire to ever be that big again. So yeah, I get disappointed by the complications. I wanted it smooth. But that is not what it is. None of this is a smooth problem.
Some people get the smooth ride. I wish for it alot, but it does not always happen that way.
I do think I agree with my dear brother. Maybe they should just put a zipper in my tummy. Makes it easier.
Port Update.
Feb 23, 2007
I called Dr. Snyder this am. He said he wants to "me to come in and he will mess around with it." He is going to set up a time, so if it really is a leak, we can repair it right then. He said its free. Also to bring in all the bills from surgery number 2 as well. He is going to work on getting a free port and then call back with an appointment. He says cracked port is a possibility. I say, Pete poked the dang tubing. I am just scared, what if the problem is NOT by the port? What if it is deeper? Dr. S said that 95% of the time its by the port, "but you have not really fallen in to the 95 percent of any of this so far." Which made me laugh. But whatever. I am not letting Pete touch me anymore.and they are fixing it gratis.
I told my dad too this morning, mad would describe it. Well I have a hell of a horror story to tell the folks at Weight Watchers today anyway.... he says. Ugh.
So keepin'you posted. I am a redhead, so now I am all feisty and not to be messed with baby.
I told my dad too this morning, mad would describe it. Well I have a hell of a horror story to tell the folks at Weight Watchers today anyway.... he says. Ugh.
So keepin'you posted. I am a redhead, so now I am all feisty and not to be messed with baby.
New pictures and no news.
Feb 21, 2007
I put new pictures on here of me and my kid. We are rather pretty. I have not connected with my dr. yet as to my next step. I am rather emotional. I do it all, angry, crying and laughing about just about everything. Its worse than when I was pregnant. I am eating like I am pregnant. I am not pregnant, Relax for heavens sake.
I thought the picture session would be fun. It was. We look great. We had the giggles and were doing all of that on the kitchen floor. The hair shows up redder in the pics than it really is. Its more strawberry blond-ish. Olivia looks more like a normal child than she really is, She is really a tiny perfect beautiful angel.
So what if I have to have my gullet carved for the 3ed time, I made my daughter giggle like a nut tonight. So there, Pete.
I thought the picture session would be fun. It was. We look great. We had the giggles and were doing all of that on the kitchen floor. The hair shows up redder in the pics than it really is. Its more strawberry blond-ish. Olivia looks more like a normal child than she really is, She is really a tiny perfect beautiful angel.
So what if I have to have my gullet carved for the 3ed time, I made my daughter giggle like a nut tonight. So there, Pete.
You won't believe this. I don't.
Feb 19, 2007
I went to Denver today (read the blog starting at October for full story)
I have a leaking port. This will be my 3ed surgery. He assures me its a same day, not going under out patient procedure. I have no idea how to talk about his with my family/friends that know about my band (aka just about everyone)
I was embarrassed that I was having surgery in the first place (Because I was fat enough for it)
Then I had a slipped band, so I felt embarrassed that I had to have another surgery to replace it and went through the its my fault its not my fault thing. Now I have a leaking port, my band is wide open, I gained 6 pounds.
I am starting to think that my body is kinda pissed about the band thing. Like I am some sort of mutant test case for all the stupid crap that can go wrong on here. I think all I need is an erosion and I will have everything. Then I can move on to like some other kind of revision, and experiment with all the screw up of a different WLS.
I am so sad. So so sad. And tired. And at almost at 220. Maybe I am one of those people that is not supposed to get below 220. I spent the last six hours in the car trying either not to cry (I had Olivia with me) or trying to forget about it.
I call next week for the appointment. I plan on being sad tonight. Bath and chocolate. But I will wrap my brain around it and move on. Really what choice do I have!?
I wonder sometimes if I would have done it myself with a garden hose and a stapler it would have been better.
I copied some stuff about what happens on my two RARE problems.
I have a leaking port. This will be my 3ed surgery. He assures me its a same day, not going under out patient procedure. I have no idea how to talk about his with my family/friends that know about my band (aka just about everyone)
I was embarrassed that I was having surgery in the first place (Because I was fat enough for it)
Then I had a slipped band, so I felt embarrassed that I had to have another surgery to replace it and went through the its my fault its not my fault thing. Now I have a leaking port, my band is wide open, I gained 6 pounds.
I am starting to think that my body is kinda pissed about the band thing. Like I am some sort of mutant test case for all the stupid crap that can go wrong on here. I think all I need is an erosion and I will have everything. Then I can move on to like some other kind of revision, and experiment with all the screw up of a different WLS.
I am so sad. So so sad. And tired. And at almost at 220. Maybe I am one of those people that is not supposed to get below 220. I spent the last six hours in the car trying either not to cry (I had Olivia with me) or trying to forget about it.
I call next week for the appointment. I plan on being sad tonight. Bath and chocolate. But I will wrap my brain around it and move on. Really what choice do I have!?
I wonder sometimes if I would have done it myself with a garden hose and a stapler it would have been better.
I copied some stuff about what happens on my two RARE problems.
Slippage: Less than 1%---I HAVE NEVER FELT SO SPECIAL. I WONDER WHAT THE STATS ARE ON HAVING BOTH OF THESE THINGS?
When the upper pouch of the stomach pulls the lower stomach through the band, this pushes the band down on the stomach. As more stomach is pulled through the band and the band is displaced distally, the band surrounds more stomach until it totally obstructs. This causes varying degrees of intolerance to solids of liquids or even total obstruction, depending on the degree of slippage. All slips require surgical repositioning. This surgery is very straightforward and should not be postponed, recovery tends to be faster and re-slippage is rare. JUST WAIT, I CAN PROVE THESE GUYS WRONG.
Port problems
The Lap Band has evolved to a complication free device. Rare port complications include infection (usually skin bacteria in your pores contaminate the wound), seroma, which is a collection of sterile serous fluid, (I HAD THIS TODAY, HE SAID IT WAS SCAR TISSUE COVING THE PORT. THE GROSS THING WAS IT WAS DRAINED ON THE FILL) hematoma, which is a collection of blood. Breakage of the port can also occur though the Lap Band device is guaranteed. Natural body movements can also cause it to break. This is very rare and is usually related to a specific event. Port replacement can be done under local anesthetic as an ambulatory procedure. Port leaks are rare and are usually related to the disconnection of the device or a needle stick.
My Flat tire.
Feb 16, 2007
Ok, so Olivia was feeling better, meds were working, she has been holding down food, so we were on our way to denver. Got a flat in Debeque (about 50 miles outta town.) I had this tire changed on Thurs, and it was new. So I could not get the lug nuts off, but a good guy helped me. Got er back to Big O, they changed it for free. This is the 3 flat this year. All from Big O.....hmmmmm....
So the Denver appointment is canceled, and we will be heading out tomorrow night, spending the night a SWEET carols (who ROCKS by the way) doing fun stuff on Sunday, then Have the Dr. appointment on Monday morning. The good news it that Pete said he would do a fill. And Olivia can go to school today and they are off Monday, so she wont miss anymore. My shop is also closed on Monday (I am gone, 2 sick clerks, holiday) So it will work out.
I get a day off today, and a few hours to myself, so that is good.
You guys, I have the best Angel ever. Just FYI.
So the Denver appointment is canceled, and we will be heading out tomorrow night, spending the night a SWEET carols (who ROCKS by the way) doing fun stuff on Sunday, then Have the Dr. appointment on Monday morning. The good news it that Pete said he would do a fill. And Olivia can go to school today and they are off Monday, so she wont miss anymore. My shop is also closed on Monday (I am gone, 2 sick clerks, holiday) So it will work out.
I get a day off today, and a few hours to myself, so that is good.
You guys, I have the best Angel ever. Just FYI.
Ahh romance. Or just love.
Feb 14, 2007
Thanks for everything. We had a day. Olivia started being sick alot at about 1am and kept it up all day. She just now tossed her dinner (clear soup) We went to the dr. this am, then I went to work, leaving her with Grandma and grandpa. She has a stomach virus. She slept all day, and finally took soup tonight, which she ralphed just now.
Not the most glam of Valentines Day. You know how you feel when you clean up after a stomach sick kid all day?
I guess since she just yacked we are staying home tomorrow too. Then off to Denver on Friday. I did get 2 hours of sleep at dad's which helped. Honestly I kept crying at the drop of a hat. I think I am pulled out like taffy. The picture of Jesus someone sent me gave me such peace.
I have to tell you what I she just said. Again, made me cry. I was telling her she could use the laptop when I am done to play computer games. I told her that I am asking people to pray for her. (keep in mind that she JUST threw up) She said "But mom, what about Marie, are they praying for Marie?" Marie is the child in Africa we sponsor. I doubt very seriously that I would think of anyone but myself after the day she had. My daughter is ....amazing....and that is not enough word for her.
I want you to know I am reading all your day-reports and note to me and enjoying them. This board makes me smile. Thanks again gang.
Not the most glam of Valentines Day. You know how you feel when you clean up after a stomach sick kid all day?
I guess since she just yacked we are staying home tomorrow too. Then off to Denver on Friday. I did get 2 hours of sleep at dad's which helped. Honestly I kept crying at the drop of a hat. I think I am pulled out like taffy. The picture of Jesus someone sent me gave me such peace.
I have to tell you what I she just said. Again, made me cry. I was telling her she could use the laptop when I am done to play computer games. I told her that I am asking people to pray for her. (keep in mind that she JUST threw up) She said "But mom, what about Marie, are they praying for Marie?" Marie is the child in Africa we sponsor. I doubt very seriously that I would think of anyone but myself after the day she had. My daughter is ....amazing....and that is not enough word for her.
I want you to know I am reading all your day-reports and note to me and enjoying them. This board makes me smile. Thanks again gang.
Can we start this year over please?
Feb 14, 2007
I am trying to be upbeat, really. I look on here and I find people struggling with Cancer, their parents being ill, their own MAJOR struggles. I pray for you guys alot. I really do.
I also have appreciated the poems, notes and so forth I have recieved for Valentines day from the board.
I just feel a bit, sigh. I feel like my life is being eaten on by hundreds of tiny mice
My little girl was up throwing up all night with a stomach virus, and we had to go to the dr. She has to miss all the fun parties and so forth. Truely broke my heart. She even had a new dress/shoes. I did not sleep. She was all crying and sweet though. (You know how lovey they get when they are sick). She was so upset about missing everything. They were having a Valentine buffet at her school where the girls all dress up and the boys pull out their chairs and everything.
She is at grandpa' s and I took time out at an internet cafe to juice up to go to work.
I am still going to Denver, Friday, I will try to make the trip fun for her. I just needed to complain. Please forgive me, I know there are worse out there, really. I dont take it for granted, I just thought if I could vent on here I wont be taking it to work with me. Just Sigh.
I am ready for 2008 now.
About Me
IN, CO
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29.8
BMI
Surgery
08/10/2006
Surgery Date
Apr 27, 2006
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