gottaspin77
Ten Months Post Op
Jun 05, 2009
I've lost 123 lbs. I find myself worrying about the amount of food I eat and food choices in general. I'm afraid of going back to bad habits. Thankfully I'm on a fruit kick right now. My fridge is stocked with fresh pineapple, apples, peaches, strawberries, grapes, cherries and kiwis. Yum! Oh, and get this. I went fishing in our pond and caught couple of bass and bluegill. And.... I ATE them!! Delicious! I tried deep fried chicken and had to puke in a public restroom!! I was trying so hard to be quiet that I puked on my foot and pant leg. Delightful. That's what I get for trying to eat greasy grub.So, my joints hurt pretty badly now. I suspect arthritis. I'm faithfully taking my calcium supplements. I was doing the Citracal petites but had so much pain that I decided to switch to the stuff my mom takes for her DS supplements, which is a HUGE liquid filled calcium carbonate vitamin. I notice that if I sit longer than 10 minutes then my joints all freeze. It's hard to say if the liquid calcium is helping yet. My mom had a bone density scan test done last year and everything was perfect, so I'm hopeful for the new supplement.
Ugh, but I still can't shake this weird head funk thing. I'm so very stuck in my head. I'm so angry. I try hard to hide it and am trying to figure it all out and deal with it. I hate that my face is ravaged by a perpetually hungry, angry look. I can sit for hours and just think. That's not a good thing. I'm not lamenting over bad thoughts; I'm yearning for something. The problem is... I don't know what the hell that something is! I'm discontent. That's the perfect word. I'm so annoying that I'd like to kick my own ass. Speaking of ass, I've stopped buying undies. At least for now. I haven't bought a new pair of panties in a month. It's like shaking an addiction off. "My name is Sara and I'm a recovering panty-buying addict." Baby steps.
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About Me
Location
32.3
BMI
Surgery
08/27/2008
Surgery Date
Surgeon
Jan 31, 2008
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