happy easter!! 4/4/2010

Apr 04, 2010

As I sit here with my daughter next to me we are talking about my surgery that is in 8 days!!! I asked her if she is scared or nervous she said yes cause we will be apart for a couple days...awww breaks my heart but I'm doing this for myself and for her. I want her to have a healthy mom! I know I'm going thru a lot of emotions but each day when I'm trying to do different activities all I think about is I'm doing the best thing for me and my life. No regrets, no turning back. I went to the store earlier and some little kids where staring and pointing at me and I'm like soon that wont be the case. I truly can't wait. I don't want a body like a porn star lol but I want to be what society would consider "normal" and not have to go thru the day looks from others!!!

Also I had a couple of people ask me if I'm going to change after the surgery??? I'm like how would I change, maybe be more happy, more confident, more noticeable not hiding behind my fat because I'm so unhappy?? If that's how I'm going to change then yeah I guess so !!! I think ill still have my personality cant change that or at least don't want too.

I guess that's all for now, let the count down begin woo hoo.

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