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Brain Dead Today
Mar 02, 2012
Ok the last day at work, trying to get everything caught up - done ahead and left tidy.... problem is I can't make my brain work ...LOL...I am super excited and oh did I mention FRICKIN' hungry. I have drank every liquid I can think of ... unjury unflavored protein isn't bad, but what I have discovered is you get what you pay for... I like crystal light but the off brand peach sux... I have stomached it today because I didn't want to waste my unjury (ok I am a bit of a thrift nit)
These days I just walk around sloshing. I just keep reminding myself that on Tuesday it won't feel this way ever again. Then the very next thought is OMG is this really happening, am I still dreaming of the day that I can make a change in me? All the waiting and jumping through hoops is finally over and I am " moving on up"
I can't describe the wide range of emotions racing through me right now, excitement, nervousness, hope... I am really not scared of the gas pain (an open hysterectomy is pretty fresh in my memory so if I can do that I can do this...) what is kinda of unnerving is the thought of removing the drain tube... When I went to my Dr Appt on Tuesday of this week the nurse went over what to expect in the hospital and after then she whips out this tube with a bulb on the end (this sucker is like 3.5 feet long) and begins to explain how it will work and be removed... have to say removal is a little daunting...so after reading some posts on here I will save away a pain med for the removal...still kinda gives me the willies.
My family is being pretty supportive however watching them eat green chili stew last night was baaadddddd. One of my fav's. So drank a little more and left the room :) yeah buddy getting in the right mind set (remove myself from temptation and SMELL)
I have a little more to do here at work then TONS to do when I get home. I need to get everything cleaned and put away, I promised to choke the family if they don't find somewhere to go this weekend and not mess up my house. I need to do the last minute run to the store, I have everything that I wanted except tylenol & gas strips.
Woo hoo - doing the happy dance inside where no one can see, but look out cuz ONE DAY I'll do that wiggle jiggle in the broad daylight where EVERYONE can see.
Seriously want to say that I love my husband and my boys (well young men) they love me now and I can't wait to be/go/do more with them as I get healthier :) LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!
