Week 6 update

May 04, 2009

Well another week down!! how exciting that time is passing by and the scale keeps moving! I love my RNY.
BUT have I had I pyschological issues? YES. i found myself at a child's birthday party this weekend. I knew no one and no one knew about my surgery. They had three different types of salads and the smell of the grill (hotdogs and hambugers) was permeating the air. It was too much much for my weak mind. I first tried small portions of the salad chewing them really well. They went down well. Well I had more salad and I got one cheese burger minus bun. Ok well it was going okay then i felt that terrible full feeling had to vomit! Yikes! Well after I did I came back out and continued to try to eat again. I vomited again then I did it AGAIN!!!. I have been under alot of stress Husband was admitted in the hospital thursday, mom had knee surery friday and of course I worked a night shift friday and went to this party with out a proper protien drink or meal in my pouch.
But why did I continue?
I made a appt with my psychiatrist for this week, so that will be good to see her. I will also plan to go to an OA meeting this week. That episode can not happen again. I will not let it. I am stronger and smarter than that.
Well I cleaned up my act after leaving the party and the followig day.
This surgery has been such a blessing. I feel absolutely wonderful. I feel more confident in myself, I love wearing clothes that fit me better. I feel healither in general.
On another positive note I lost 5.6 lbs this week. AMAZING!!! I'm in the 240's I'm 248. I don't remember being in the 240's Moving closer and closer to onederland!! I hope to be at or under 200 by the end of september. that is 5 months away which is 9.6 loss per month, over the next few months Approximately 2.5 lbs loss per week. I can do this! If not though it will not be the end  of the world small steps moving closer to a healthier lifestyle.
thanks for listening
take care

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