Hvhmom
6 Months Out
Aug 25, 2011
June -July was simply AWFUL. In June I had an 8 pound loss in one week then not a pound lost for nearly 7 WEEKS. It was soo crushing and cruel. I still ONLY eat protein with an occasional green apple. The weight loss has resumed but it is considerably slower than before the crash.
My period has changed completely and I am unsure if I will reach my goal. 135 is the number that I want to see on the scale. 43 pounds to go. What size will I be at that point? 2-4? I don't want to revise my goal because that "number" has kept me focused and far away from even a cheating thought.
Zumba and walking is my exercises of choice NOW. I must admit, I was not really working out before last month but I was staying busy and making a real effort to move move move walk walk walk. Overall, I look great and can fit into many of my clothes circa marriage and baby. I look glamorous in my Mercedes again and am thinking of trading it in for a convertable. I say this because I actually stopped driving my car at my heaviest weight and would only drive my husband's conservative vehicle. I just felt akward and ridiculous driving a luxury sports car and was embarassed every time I stepped out. Shallow..... I know but it's "my" true sentiment.
For the first time in several years I can honestly say that i'm happy, healthier, grateful, and very hopeful of my ever changing and evolving life.
LOVE
3 Month Surgiversary
May 21, 2011
The last three months has been a rollercoaster in terms of the "numbers". Today, I weigh 210. Down from 269. I suppose this is good progress. I was hoping for more......don't know if that's realistic. I'm wearing a size 14 down from a 22 WIDE. I've set a pretty low goal for my weight 135, so I still feel as though I have a VERY long way to go. It's a daunting task but i'm just going to do my part to a T and trust in the process. I'm determined to reach my goal weight because living in the body that i've lived in for the past 5 years has been hell. I NEVER want to be overweight again!
Overall, progress has been great. I look %100 better and am getting those ooh and aah stares that I got nearly every day of my life prior to putting on the weight.
I love to shop but as it is, I have several dresses that I bought early out that I can't fit and never will (size 16's & 18's). I will resume shopping when I get to about 180 pounds.
This post sounds a wee bit shallow but so much of myself and image has been caught up in this enormous number for the past 5 years and I want to see the woman that I was prior to the excess weight soo badly. I will. This i'm positive of.
4 weeks out
Mar 20, 2011
My personal chef and trainer starts 8 AM sharp and i'm nervous, excited, scared, ready, reluctant......... a ball of nerves. I hope that this working relationship works out. I'm down 24 pounds but feel it should be more....hence the the trainer/chef.
I am OVER the protein shakes and mushy foods. My diet has mainly been avacodos, seafood, fage, eggs, and various beans. At this time, I refuse to choke down any sort of protein drink with the exception of Crystal light "hunger satisfy" with a tad bit of Nectar "fuzzy navel". Plenty of high protein low or no carb great tasting food to go around.
My birthday is about a month away and I can't stay away from the shops hunting for the perfect frock. Shopping was an activity that I used to love and get paid to do. After I got married, I no longer got paid to shop (real housewife). When I began to gain weight I ceased to shop for myself. Much to my hubby's chagrin and delight, I intend to indulge once again!
Not so bad
Mar 06, 2011
Mom who had her RNY 5 years ago has been helping out. She and I are like twins in many ways. She has done GREAt so far. She went from 290 to 140 and has only gained 5 pounds. I've been watching what she eats (everything I loved pre-surgery), small portions. No deprivation.
We'll see. I'm sure that i'll do well with this surgery.
READY SET RUN
Feb 21, 2011
Decisions decisions
Feb 13, 2011
Was denied for the DS nearly 2 weeks ago. Approved for the RNY a day later. My husband said "please don't settle babe, go for what your heart desires". He is willing to pay out of pocket BUT i'm concerned that if I self pay, BCBS may not pay for any complications that MAY arise from the surgery. $38K could easily shoot to 100k if that's true. *SIGH*
I'm soo close weight wise (33 pounds) from that magical BMI of 50. At this point, i'm not sure what I will do. I'm sooo TIRED of this weight and the pounds just keep pilling up week after week. I'm up 11 pounds just in the past 6 weeks.
DH is pleading with me to just wait a couple of months and see what happens. My mother (had RNY 5 yrs ago) says take the RNY and run with it. She's done great with her tool by the way. Ohh the AGONY!!!! I want to feel better NOW but I just can't come to terms with the RNY now.
I meet with my doctor in the morning and I will voice my fears and concerns. Perhaps i'll leave his office with my mind made up.
STILL WAITING
Jan 17, 2011
My Part is Done
Jan 13, 2011