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10/25/6

Okay so the best thing just happened to me. I called UHC to see about thier bariatric program, and my insurance specs. I talked to the nicest lady named Cathy. She informed me that I will need to coordianate with her or one of her colleagues throughout my bariatric surgery process. Which I think is a good idea. I listened to their criteria about qualifying. I told her my weight and she was like yeah you qualify. I listened about the criteria of coordinating and such. But she never mentioned the supervised diet. So I asked her...do I need a supervised diet..and she said that my program doesnt require it. SCORE!!! I havent had a steady PCP for years. SO I wouldnt have had it for anything. I would have been stuck trying for six months. Now in normal circumstances I would not have minded . But the job I have now is...well ...unlike anything I ever seen before. I am so happy right now!! Thank you GOD.

until next time

Amanda

9/10/06

GO COLTS...well its an hour and a half before kickoff..and i know my boys in blue are going to kick some butt.

Guess who got hired on at my job???? I DID. That means that Gastric Bypass may be a reality after all. I have to wait for the back ground check to go through and then its official. I am however not as happy as I thought I would be...First off they gave me ten dollars an hour and the guys eleven. So you know I had to question them about it. SO i am going to discuss it tomorrow with my supervisor. Anyhow...as of October 18 guess who has health insurance??? I DO!!! I cant believe it!! So I am going to make an appointment with Dr. Klor and get some things tested and on the ball...

So because I got hired on I had to go out and buy new clothes. I hate shopping. I am now almost out of size 28 and I cant wear any sort of jeans. I want to loose weight so desperately. I wish I was dead! Even if I'm suppose to be on my way..my life just sucks. I am suppose to be starting a new healthy way of eating. ONe of my friends, Ashley at work is kind of like a personal trainer. So she is going to give me a excersise routine and help me with some healthy eating stuff. So everyone wish me luck! I did put a pair of pants on layaway that are size 26 because that is my new goal. PLEASE GOD HELP ME GET STARTED.

Until Next Time

Amanda

8/27/03

On Friday I got the email that my current supervisor wants me to interview again on Monday for the perm position. Huh. I also learned that two of my guy friends got hired on. Not because they told me but because I over heard one of them telling someone else. Some friends huh. Anyway. so hopefully I'm going to get told that they want to hire me on! Guess we will find out tomorrow. If they dont hire me on I am going to put in my two weeks. I hate the job but I will do anything to get this surgery!!! I keep having these dreams about what my life will be like when I'm healthier. More energy..no more needing a nap on the weekends. I will be able to play with my kids and to think of all of the housework I can get done!!! I am so excited!

Until next time

Amanda

8/24/06

Today was my son's first day of Kindergarten. Dan and I took him to school today. I have to admitt that I felt so bad for him; having the fat parent. I probaly wont be going back to school where other kids can see me. I dont want him to have to go through other kids making fun of him because of me.

Last Friday I started excersising. I rode my bike around Gray's lake with my friend Chrissy. IT WAS HORRIBLE! I thought I was going to die. I went back Saturday and Sunday. Monday I was sick..Tuesday we had open house and Wenesday she had open house. Tonight was just crazy. I assume we are going back tomorrow night. As I rode around the lake I thought to myself how stupid I was to let myself get this fat.

Tuesday i had my formal interview with my employer whom I'm temping for. There are 6 positions and like ten people interviewing for them. Somehow I dont think I am going to get hired on. I hate that place. but I am willing to do whatever it takes in hopes of getting this surgery. I found out that they carry UHC. So again its a 50-50 chance of getting surgery. I am starting to get really paranoid about the people I work with. I am pretty sure I am hated because I am friends with someone the others are intimidated by. SO i dont know what the hell to do. Dan lost his job on Monday becuase he had a seizure on Saturday. So money is tight. He does have an interview with Wells Fargo tomorrow on the phone. Who knows how this is going to work out.

I was watching Oprah today. She was talking about class. The show just makes me want to hurry up and finish my degree so that I can make more money to improve our class. I just dont feel like I can start back to school being this heavy. I dont know what kind of career to make for myself. No one wants this fat chick to work for them. I hope I can make something of myself someday. I really want to do something with my life. I would love to teach High School English...or even elementary school. But that is another lifetime I suppose.

Until Next Time

Amanda

8/13/2006

So, Dan found out that this new job has Wellmark insurance and that he will be getting hired on in September sometime. Which is great news. He also thought that I shouldnt give wellmark any info on me. He thinks we should just wait and just get me added on to his insurance. So thats what I am doing now. I cant stand any more of this back and forth stuff. I still havent gotten a superivised diet becuase i dont want diagnosed with a pre existing condition.

I've been praying for this surgery for about five years now. I believe that GOD makes miracles daily so mine shouldnt be any more special then the next persons.

We went to the fair on Saturday. I am so happy that this could potentially be my last year at the fair being fat. I was so miserable there walking and walking. I have never before felt my weight when out walking around somewhere like that. I did feel it Saturday. MY feet and ankles and back hurt like hell. Hopefully next year I will be about a hundred and fifty pounds lighter!!!

Until Next Time

Amanda

8/5/2006

I hate my life. I have had 24 hours to think about the current situation. Last night my husband and I were laying in bed. I told him about the letter from Wellmark and do you know how he replied???? All he said was "sorry". Thats it. Not a hug, he didnt hold my hand, he didnt turn over and look at me...he just mumbled sorry. I cant believe he was so cold.

I need this surgery to get my life back! I need this surgery to start living my life instead of just existing. I'm going to be in a world of hurt, in a few short years if I dont do something about this weight! It doesnt matter what I do, I cant seem to get to even the start of this journey. Its like standing around at the starting line of a race..just chatting to everyone talking about how fast I can run. Knowing fulll well that the race is going to start ....yet not feeling like its ever going to happen.

I was shopping for my kids today. We ended up at Walmart getting my mom's hair cut and getting a birthday present for my nephews party tomorrow. So, my little nephew Brandon is visiting. So I pick up these size 7 lacey pink underwear! I WANT TO WEAR THOSE FREAKING THINGS, never in my whole life was I into those pretty things.....but now that I cant have them they are my hearts desire...lol

Until next time

Amanda

8/3/2006

Well I got a letter from Wellmark today. They are requesting a statement from my physican. Which I dont have one. They are basically asking me to find out and have a doctor state the following.

1) What is the etiology?

2) How long has the condition existed?

3) WHat treatments and weight loss methods have been attmepted?

4) Please list all underlying diseases or disorders, suchas arthritis, diabetes, gout, etc...

5) Is there symptoms of or has the diagnosis of hypertension, hyperlipidemia, sleep apnea or heart disease been diagnosed? Please explain?

6)Has weight reduction surgery been advised or discussed? please explain

7) is there any disabiliteis or limitations becuase of weight?

8) Weight___ Height___ BMI___ date recorded____Frame___ Size___ Blood Pressure____ Date Recorded____

9) Please list all medications____

10) What is the current status of prognosis?

WHat the hell am I going to do? I dont have a doctor to see. I havent had consistent insurance in a long long time. Where am I going to take this to? SHould I just take this to Broadlawns and go to the Walk in Clinic? I dont know what to do. I knew this was going to come up...I know this surgery isnt going to happen. I never thought I would have to fight this early in the game to try and find insurance!!

8/1/2006

Well its official. I have applied for the Wellmark insurance as a self payer. I faxed in the paperwork on Monday. So I just have to wait and see what Wellmark says. Its going to cost 428 a month..I can't believe it. However on the application there was a question about how much you weigh. So I told the truth as always. I just like to blog that I expect them to offer me insurance with a NO WLS clause. LOL.

If your wondering about the sprucing up of my page..well let me say that I am trying hard to get it looking good. I will be adding some pics of my kids and such. Not that I think really anyone ever reads this to check up on me. If you do read this THANK YOU!!! I'm going to be blogging more often.

I am going to use this as sort of a tool in itself, a healing tool. So email me if you check back and I've forgotten to blog.

Until next time

Amanda

7/30/2006

Well I've had a few outbursts since march, I just havent had time to post them...go figure. Dan lost his job with BCBS. LOL. They didnt want to pay him the original wage he was gaurenteed so he quit. Good for him. I am so tired of people d*cking us around. So he started working for the same temp service I am. He works for this image place. He loved it at first. THen he started seeing how the owner there treats his employees. He screams at them and calls them names...much like Chef Ramsey on Hells Kitchen. He should be hired on sometime in August. THey too have BCBS. I just dont trust him not to quit. I cant say that I blame him though...I wouldnt let some one yell at me calling me curse words and such.

I have noticed that I am not as mobile as I once was. I no longer feel like going up and down stairs carrying laundry. I just cant do it anymore. My ankles knees and back hurt a whole lot. I keep trying but I am so depressed that I dont want to do anything. I know Dan has to be getting sick of doing most of the work around here. He doesnt seem to want to take care of me like I have him before. Whatever. I have to get this surgery..my weight is causing me to ruin my life. I loose ten pounds gain ten pounds. I have given up Pepsi again. I forget for how long now. At least a month.

Okay so back to my point. I have been researching purchasing some individual insurance. I have found that Wellmark offers such plans and the Alliance Select Comprehensive plan costs about 428 a month but that includes dental. So maybe i can get some dental stuff done too. Does anyone know anything about it? Drop me a line if you do.

Does anyone read this profile??? I doubt it.

Until next time

Amanda