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Yep, I am now sort of tripping out over my decision to have surgery. I realize that this is normal but I'm still freaking out.
Today, I started the clear liquid diet and tomorrow more clear liquids and bowel prep stuff. If I can just get a grip on all the thoughts racing through my head and dispel them or rationalize them to myself at least, I believe it would help more.

Tomorrow, we have to go and pick my brother up and visit with my mom and sister. Even though they live an hour away, we just do not get out there to visit too often. Well, I guess I will go make myself some chicken broth now and then try and find something to keep my mind occupied until my best friend calls later on tonight.

I picked up the cash my friend sent this morning and called the mechanic. So, they did the tune-up and the car is back to running quite well. After I got back home my wife needed to run a few errands, so I drove her and managed to get one of my own done in the process. GNC took my soy protein back and let me exchange it for whey, so that worked out.

Wow, my surgery is on Monday! My wife asked if I am nervous yet, but honestly I am not anymore. This may change once they prep me Monday morning. In the past when I have had surgery, the nerves don't kick in until they are wheeling me back. Now, I just have to call my brother tonight, so he knows I need him to take care of the furry kids. We think picking him up Sunday evening will be best, since we have to leave the house Monday morning around 3am.

Tomorrow, I need to get my homework done for class. Not sure if I will miss next weeks classes but better to be safe than sorry. Ok, I am off to try and grab a nap. It seems all this stress the past few days has caused a serious lack of sleep.

My best friend back in Vegas came through, she wired me the money today. I tried to go and pick it up this evening,but there host site was down. So, in the morning I will try again to go pick up the cash. After that my wife will take the car for a tune-up, just praying that will fix the issue. I have fought too hard for this surgery and can only hope things work out.

My wife's dad also has offered to send some cash Friday, this will give us gas money for the drive to Louisville and back home. I am grateful for my wife, her family and my best friend. It feels good to have people who care and come through in a pinch, Let's just keep good thoughts and it may all come together after all.

I will update more tomorrow, after we have done those errands.
 

At least that is the way I see it right this moment. Our car is not running very good and of course we do not have the money to fix it until next month. I am unsure of wheteher or not surgery is going to have to be canceled and this is stressing me out. Alot, depends on if we can get family to loan us enough for a tune-up or not.

I tried asking relatives to take me on surgery day, but I guess everyone is in the same boat. There cars will not make the two and a half hour drive either. My wife's dad said he can help us but not until friday, which means we will need to see if the mechanic can get us in that morning, so going to call the garage back in the morning.

Man, I tell ya if it were not for bad luck we would have no luck at all.

My surgery date is fast approaching, January 26th. Yep, feeling all those wonderful mixed emotions right now.
Thankfully, my wife has been my grounding force, so I do not freak out too much. We have had to get someone lined up to take care of our critters for the time we will be at the hospital. My mom was originally going to come stay at our place, but other family obligations came up. Then asked my sister, who now may not be able to come, she is eight months pregnant and fell this past weekend. We will know more after here ultrasound tomorrow. I have one final person, my little brother who I know has no other obligations, so it will out sort itself out this week.

Classes start again for me next friday evening and this makes me happy because it will keep me occupied until surgery.
I am considering making a video journal on you tube, but since I'm not super tech oriented will need to get my wife's help with that. It would mainly be for myself to have a record of where I am now and end up a year from now.

From now on I plan to update more often to this blog to document my feelings,etc. This I believe will help me work through the emotions and have something to look back at. Anyway, I guess it is time for me to get some household stuff done.

I had to reschedule my surgery, just alot of stuff going on right now.
This is a better time frame, the end of January works out much better.
Well, I got to head out now to pick my wife up from the hospital. She has finally been released, woohoo!!

So, isn't this great I woke up sick as a dog Saturday morning. I have the worst cold I have had in years. My surgery is 13 days away now and I'm  not thrilled by this whole being sick thing right now.

Thankfully, school is done until January 17th. I took today off from work and plan to also miss tomarrow so I can rest up and hopefully kick this cold. Today, I am finally able to breathe with less congestion and I am sneezing so this is a good sign.

It has been raining here allday, so helps with the sleeping part today.
I have been taking some over the counter meds for the congestion and cough.

Ok, well I am off to lounge on the couch some more and try and nap as much as possible.

On Thursday morning my wife and I drove three hours to Louisville to do my final testing for surgery. It was a very long day to say the least. So, it looks like surgery has finally become a reality for me.

It is hard to believe that in about 22 days, I will be on the operating table.
This past week has been the roughest one so far because I have begun to second guess myself. It has been so bad I almost canceled my surgery but the loving support of my beautiful wife has allowed me to keep looking foward.

Yes, I still find myself scared at least once a day but I know that I have made the right choice for me.

One of my  college classes ended today, so a bit of stress is removed from my life. Next week is my final class until mid-January, so can not wait for that to be over also.

Today, I got my surgery consesnt forms in the mail and pre-op registration and testing stuff. My appointments are for November 13th.
Things are starting to look up as far as my wife and her health issues are concerned, she may even be coming home on Friday.

Just thought I would do a quick update before getting some reading done.

This morning, they called and we scheduled my surgery date. I will be having surgery on December 8th 2008. The reason it is so far off, is because I do not get done with school until then.

I should be more happy but alot going on in my personal life right this minute. Today, I am such a mess emotionally due to my wife's hospitalization and all.

Today is one of those days that I wish I had more friends who lived closer to me. But as with everything else we will get through this stuff and life will be better soon.