JadedJassy
Obesity=Depression=In Need of Hope!
Dec 25, 2008
Happy Holidays to everyone here at this site! I am very please that people have read my first blog and answered the questions that I have. Your responses have been very helpful. I want to update everyone about what has been happening this few days and lay out some of my goals for the 2009 New Year. First off, after while I am still in need of wls surgery, I also understand that financially I can’t afford it. Insurance premiums are through the roof and those that I have seen don’t cover wls, and as I a college student paying anything over 50 dollars a month is expensive. That is what sucks about health insurance, you pay the monthly cost, then depending on how low or high that is then you either pay an deductible, con-insurance or both! Makes you wonder what is the purpose behind health insurance, and with all that money, I could just go through Care Credit and secure a loan to get the surgery done! But all hope isn’t lost, because if there is one thing that I am good at it is making a way! I won’t give up, not now with all this great support from everyone. Please support me! I really need because sadly I feel that my family isn’t going to. Today when I talked to my mother about health insurance and getting the surgery, she keeps telling me that I should diet and try to eat right. And while she is right to a certain point, I don’t want to constantly count calories, which doesn’t work! I am trying to cut down on what I eat (hard I know due to the holidays) and during the year 2009 I my goal is to try to lose 50 pounds on my own. This won’t be easy, but I sure can do it. When I first started looking into wls, I was very young around 16 years old, with a dream of being thin, beautiful and the object of affection for the men that I like. While being considered attractive is a plus, I know that this can’t be the only reason; I know that is a life changing decision. But when it comes to low self esteem, I am the queen of it, I am smart, but I wish I felt better about myself. I am not happy because all the pieces of the puzzle doesn’t fit. I do plan on going to a seminar in a few weeks and arrange to talk to a doctor about what options might work for me. Meanwhile, health insurance might be in limbo because of the price. This sucks because my parent’s financial situation is really bad to the point where they might lose their home, so trying to place my needs above theirs I feel is selfish. Still, the depression is mounting and I want to desperately to be happy. The bottom line is I want to have this surgery, in a few months I will have graduated and hopefully landed a good paying job, the question will become, then can I afford it? There has to be way. For right now, I am going to explore my options and up date my blogs about my eating habits and whatever else in terms of my obesity. I am mad at myself for getting this big, to have the will power for school but not for my body. I am mad because I feel un- pretty but on my face to show the world and I hate how society places so much emphasizes on women to look like super models. What is wrong with me? Until next time readers!
