Jasmine72181
Day before surgery 229lbs
Apr 22, 2012
So here I am, a day before surgery, and I am SO NERVOUS. I am more nervous than I was before my lap band surgery. Perhaps it's because I was so naive about possible complications before lap band surgery. I didn't find these forums until after I had the surgery. I'm trying to keep my mind occupied by reading posts, but I am running into complication posts, which is just making me more nervous.Everything is a trade off, right? So, if I get this surgery, I will:
1. Lose weight
2. Get my blood pressure under control and avoid diabetes
3. Become more mobile
But I can also run into complications. I keep clicking on profiles of people who are under 140lbs and most of them have had to be admitted to the hospital several times after surgery. I also see alot of people who feel weak, months after WLS. I'm having this surgery to feel better and have more energy. I completely understand feeling weak a month after surgery, but not several months after. That's no way to live, either.
It really doesn't matter, because regardless of how I feel inside, I AM GOING THROUGH WITH THIS SURGERY. There is no going back. It has to be done. I will just have to pray and leave it in God's hands. Speaking of that, I am conflicted about writing my husband and son a "just in case I don't make it" letter. I feel like it would offer them some comfort if I didn't make it, but I also feel like it would jinx things. I am also so anxious about tomorrow, that I don't feel capable of writing such an emotional letter. I'm just going to make sure I tell them that I love them and make sure they feel it. This is going to be a wild ride. Just praying for the best.