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 I have reached a weight of 192, lost 6 inches from my waist, and can wear a medium t-shirt ( I think the last time that happened, I was in 7th grade). I changed jobs in February, I was tired of my former employers BS associated with their health insurance. What I am uncomfortable with is the reaction I get from my former co workers. They say "Oh you look so good" or "How much have you lost now". Truth is, I haven't weighed myself in a month or more. My heartburn and all the pain associated with that has been gone since Nov 11th. I really want to reply " I didn't know I looked like shit before my surgery!" But, I don't. They don't get it. Society is so programmed that your size and losing weight is totally to look good, for vanity. God forbid it MIGHT be because I wanted to reduce my blood pressure meds, or stop eating Prilosec like candy, or anything with my health status. Yeah, it was all to re launch my Calvin Klein underwear modeling career. 
I am very grateful that I was able to have this surgery. I cannot express that enough. I see so many people on a daily basis who are overweight and they have no idea how much better life could be with 50-70 pounds off of them. I am getting kind of scared, paranoid actually. I think my gut is coming back. My wife says it is not, the scales don't indicate it, but I swear it is. I think it is because I have to eat more than a few months ago. I freak out when I can eat a ham sandwich on those flat-bread rounds. I can eat 3/4 of it and feel full. Is that OK? What if I am pushing too much? It is the kind of stuff that will drive you crazy! I am drinking 4-5 bottles of water a day, I found that when I thought I was hungry, I was actually need water, not food. 
I have lost SO much muscle tone. I need to do something about that. I can't believe how much strength I have lost in my arms and legs. i just haven't gotten motivated to get that back. It's been pretty hot here, and I feel like I don't have much energy when I am outside in the 90 degree heat and humidity. 

 I am four months from by by-pass. I am SO glad I did this. I was scared as hell to do it. It was a seven hour procedure due to my previous surgeries, but it was all worth it. My heartburn is gone. Haven't had it since the two days before my surgery. That alone it worth it all. I wear medium T-shirts, the last time that happened was when I was 12. I am at the weight I wrestled at in high school. So funny! I feel so good. These overweight people that say they feel great are so lying. I guess it is like when you have a knee replacement, you didn't realize how much your knee hurt until it was changed out. I in the last few weeks, I can actually eat real protein! Shrimp, had some Ham today for easter, but very amount, and very careful of what cut I had. I have learned I really need to take the time to chew stuff up better. I have also learned throughout the day when i think I am hungry, I am actually thirsty, so I have started to carry water bottles with me throughout the day, I love it! 

 I am now nine week post op, lost about 55 pounds. I think I am getting close to topping out with my weight loss. That is fine with me. I have went from 40 inch waist to a 33 during this time. T-shirts went from XL to Medium. I am very grateful my heartburn is gone. My focus was always on that, not so much the weight loss. I love losing the weight. It feels awkward. Clothes being too big for me, or not adjusting to my new size.