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  I haven't blogged in quite sometime and thought it would be good to jot some thoughts down.  Tomorrow is New Years Eve 2008 and also my five year wedding anniversary.  Last New Year's my husband and I went to the casino and had the New Year's buffet....OMG it was so good.  They had every fancy thing imaginable and the dessert choices were to die for...and probably if I hadn't had the surgery it would eventually be to die for.  We were in a food coma and could hardly communicate afterwards...You know we had to get our monies worth.  I have to admit it was fun....but I don't miss that which is good.  My one year anniversary is next month on the 23rd and it is really hard to believe.  I have been successful but have cheated along the way and want to get back to be better about my band and health.  I want 2009 to be another good year of change and increased excercise and not one of broken resolutions.  I want to lose 25 pounds be the start of soccer season which is April 1, I want to build a better relationship between God and myself and learn more about the bible and its history.  I want to stop spending money on lottery tickets unless the state of michigan can guarantee me a huge win...lol....(not likely).  I got on the scale today and lost 2 pounds....woo-hoo.  I couldn't believe it with the holidays and all.  I have been stuck at 165 for quite sometime and now I was down to 162.2!!  So that is a total of 80 pounds since last December.  It sometimes feels surreal....like wow I can wear the normal-average american woman size and below and shop at "normal" stores.  I just feel like I am going to wake up and it will be gone....like it has been a dream.  So I must focus on the future of maintaining and benefiting from a healthy lifestyle.  It is hard because with three kids and an overweight husband who loves food and not cooking....it is really hard to cook separate.  I have tried to incorporate as many healthy choices as possible without them knowing but somehow they find out and say....yuck mom not whole wheat pasta and turkey burger!!  Well I will just keep trying to enhance their palates I guess.  Being married is tough....you know when you are working at your job you are given a duty list of expectations but when you become a wife...what does that mean??  So with your co-workers you can communicate and delegate the work load etc and laught and have fun...but with your husband it for some reason can become difficult and time consuming....a huge dreadful task!!   Their is no manual on how to be a wife...you just enter into as a 90 day probation period and hope all goes well for the lifetime...lol.  So that sometimes increase my stressful eating appetite.....and then the bills, the expenses of increased living....phew...I know people out there can relate to that.  So I feel better about unloading and I am really going to make a conscious effort to excercise and healthier eating...oh an yoga perhaps to lessen my stress...lol.  Happy New Year to all!!!   

Well I am nine weeks post-op and one fill down and many more to go...haha.  I am down 36 pounds since December.  I am now 203 pounds...woo-hoo.  That is nice but I am hungry more frequently and seem like I am eating a good two cups of food and have to tell myself just wait you are not hungry.  I am wanting chocolate too.  I am going through alot of other health issues at 32 and that is really getting me down plus trying to take care of three kids, a husband, a dog, coach soccer and go to work 32 hours a week and just put on that happy facade like everything is going wonderfully...but it just is not.  I can't wait until I can reap the rewards of losing this weight.  I hope so soon.  I need to get into the habit of blogging more regularly. 

January 31, 2008

Yippee!!!!  Even though I am in still in pain I had a ray of sunshine today.  Well it usually takes an hour to get to my dietician and my doctor from where I lived but mother nature decided to be cruel today and give us a wonderful winter wonderland full of snow, slush and icy roads.  So it took me two hours there and two hours back...grrr.  Driving long periods and trying to heal don't really mesh well...but I conquered that just like I will conquer this weight loss.  So I am down 14 pounds from when I saw my doctor last and the other good news is I can start mushies a day early which is next Tuesday....woo-hoo!!!  I have never looked forward to mashed potatoes, tuna salad, cottage cheese and scrambled eggs like I do now.  It will be like a gourmet menu...lol.  To all fellow bandsters we can so do this.  We can whip this obesity problem right to the ground.  Yeah we are achievers, conquerors, people with missions.  I am just so happy about all of that right now. 

January 30, 2008
Wow!!  I am blogging.  I haven't charted my progress at all and thought I should start.  It is sort of weird like an open diary but it just might help me to get through this phase with my wonderful lapband.  The whole recovery process has been slightly more difficult than expected.  Mainly sore at the port area and exhausted.  I have two boys and a step-daughter, a dog, and a husband.  My husband has been pretty supportive, however, now that I am moving around ok and he is back to work after taking two days off I think he must think I have it under control.  Which I feel most women are good at tolerating things and not good at asking for help.  My oldest who is ten has been wonderful.  He brings me the phone or gets me my water.  What a little angel.  I have been struggling with the whole protein consumption.  The protein powder I bought at a health food store marked unflavored is not.  I gagged and then prayed I did not vomit...thank God I did not.  My husband tried in four ounces of crystal light and thought it tasted really good....so why am I so weird??!!!  I don't know, but it does make it difficult to purchase all of these different ones financially speaking if I don't like them.  Well I am going in for my post -op tomorrow.  I am actually pretty excited.  I can fit into two pair of pants that haven't fit me in about two years or maybe more...lol.  So yippee....I am glad I kept them.  I am trying to be patient but so excited to move into the next phase of eating....the mushies.  I never thought mashed potatoes and squash would sound so good...but boy does it ever.  I am so going to conquer this weight loss thing...and I hope and pray I whip it into shape and keep chugging along at maintenance.  Woo-Hoo!!!!