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I ran a 5K this morning in 39:15!!!!  My daughter was there to take a picture of me before the race, but she didn't take one after.  She, my son (who also ran) and his girlfriend were at the finish to greet me.  TALK ABOUT BAWL LIKE A BABY!

I just wanted to share and I knew the only people that would understand would be you.  I have been up since 0800 yesterday morning and I have to work again tonight.  I am whipped ....BUT I LOVE EVERY SINGLE PERSON HERE.  EACH ONE HAS INSPIRED ME IN SOME WAY, SHAPE OR FORM.

Thank you! 

I couldn't get my pictures from the ball to upload for some reason, so here are some I had to cut and paste here.

Had a ball at the ball to say the least.  I think this is one of the best things the surgeons, nutritionists, PA-Cs could do to acknowledge not only themselves for what they do, but for the post ops whose lives the seemingly save.

You can bet your sweet ass Katy will be going back next year new and improved from this year even!

Me and My DH John



Me and Dr. Kothari



Me and my nutritionist Emily



Me playing the COWBELL!  Gotta have more COWBELL!

Last night I was on a qwest.  Every year the surgeons, nutritionists and rest of the surgical team at Gundersen Lutheran put on a Bariatric Ball for all post-operatives.  Kind of a tux/formal dress affair.  K...the last time I delved into the formal dress arena was at my Junior Prom 21 years ago.

I have gained a few hundred pounds since then.

I was walking around the Apache Mall in Rochester, Minnesota looking for the dress that would have the light shining down on it kind of like when Clark Griswold finds the perfect tree at Christmas time....I was beginning to give up hope.  Nothing NICE was going to fit me and I even considered NOT going to the ball.

I had gone into every store except for Herberger's.  Depending on where you live...it is a sister store to Younker's/Carson's lalalalala.  I thought...great...another gawdy prom dress store where I am not going to find anything, or I would find something my grandmother would have worn with some cheap ass smelling perfume.

THEN.....................The Clark Griswold moment happened.  The dress was beautiful, fireworks were going off around me and lightining shot out my ass as I was so excited about the dress I found....but would it fit?  I found myself looking at the size 24s when I clearly knew it would be way too big.  I was no longer that person...well still that person, just a smaller version....I chose a size 14.  I had a gut wrenching feeling in my stomach I would be disappointed.

BUT I WASN'T.  It zipped up and everything.  I hate to toot my own horn, but I looked stunning and I started crying.

I bought the gown...and I will take pictures of my fine self in it and post them later for you to see.  I should have done it at the same time as this, but I couldn't wait to write about it.

THAT'S WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT!

That's what I just did.  I was upset and I ate 3/4 of a piece of cheesecake I baked for my co-workers today.  What the hell is wrong with me.  I have been upset because the scale won't move, personal issues in my life whatever.....

It's not that I don't get support from anyone because I get more than my fair share from here!  I just want to get to goal so bad I can taste it.  Well if goal tastes anything like that cheesecake I just ate, then I don't want to get there.  

I don't even remember tasting it.  The whole time I ate it I said to myself, "I hope you get sick, the shits, whatever"  I knew the whole time eating it what I was doing, and I swear....never again.  I REFUSE!  I was doing so well today until I chose to make the bad decision.

Tomorrow's another day, I'm thirsty anyway, so bring on the rain!

:o)

WOO FRIGGIN' HOO!  I finally broke the stall.  Sure the day after the final weight entry for the Valentine's Challenge.  I had to enter 200 :o(  Nut when I woke up the morning of the 15th....I saw 198.  I weighed periodically throughout the day and I never went back to 200 even after I ate!  

La De Friggin' Da!  Yeah for me!  I think this is it.  63 awful pounds gone forever!  I am so proud of myself.  

New challenge goal weight is 185!  Let's hope my stall doesn't last another 6 weeks.

63 pounds in 4 1/2 months WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Still training for the 5K!  Can't wait to do it!  I KNOW I CAN!

I guess I decided not to give up.  That would be bad....plus I would be a quitter.  I decided I needed to do something different.

I have decided to start running which I stated in the giving up post...and that has been going real well.  I have made a pact with another WLS friend of mine that we are going to run a 5K this summer.  I AM SUPER EXCITED about that!  

I haven't lost much weight, and am not sure I will get to my mini challenge goal of 195.  I am currently at 200.8 and I only have a week to go.  HOWEVER...I submitted my new challenge goal today for 185 for the new round, so I can only hope.  That will take me to Easter.

More hard work and more determination....that's what this is all about!!!!!!!!!!!!

I appreciate all the support everyone has shown me.

Thanks!  You guys are the best!

Katy

What the hell?  I am so tired of sitting here at 202!  I am destined to never see anything below 200.  I haven't been there since before 1993.  This teasing me shit is really starting to piss me off, and I have had it.  16s are too big, and 14s are too tight.  I am running and weight lifting every other day, and for what?  NOTHING I tell you!

I never wanted to be like this.  I am now starting to question why I did this.  I know if I EVER get below 200, I'll be singing a different tune, but I am not counting on it.  

There is so much going on in my life right now, I can't be all things to everyone and I try so hard.  What's the use?  Why am I doing this?  Looking for sympathy...probably.  Don't give me any though.  This is a ship that needs no help with it's sail.  This too shall pass.

I am so not good at the blog thing.  I had a follow up on the 19th of December, 2007, with my nutritionist and PA-C.  I have officially lost 40% of my excess and my nutritionist thought my goal of 160-150 was very attainable.

I got flamed again for counting calories, as this is not a diet, but a way of life, so I am trying to better at that, but the whole too many calories thing scares me.  She said if calories get to be a concern, she'll let me know when I can start to count them.

My BMI went from 41 to 34 and I am real happy about that.  I have lost 54 pounds to date (unofficially) but that's what my scale at home says.

YEAH FOR ME!  I started running on my treadmill every other day and have kicked my strength training into high gear.  Trying to tone up the triceps.  The hand waves HI while the arm is waving by.  Had enough of that shit!

My plan is to run a 3 or 5K this summer...so I am officially in training for that.

RIGHT ON!!!!!!!!!!

Had my follow up today with Dr. Kothari.  I am down 21 lbs since September 25th and he said I am where I should be and then some.  I am cleared for weight lifting and am going to start an aerobics class, to get some of this mid-section off me.

Ran into one of OH's celebrities...Mrs. Amy Berry.  She was on a mission and it was nice to see her.  I hope she does not mind that I mentioned her here.

I started this whole thing back in September 2006.  I attended the mandatory seminar at Gundersen Lutheran in La Crosse, WI, on the 12th.  I met then with the surgical team on the 29th and they decided I was a candidate for the surgery.

I had to have the dreaded sleep study, then was told I had Moderate Obstructive Sleep Apnea.  Yea for the CPAP!  I can't imagine my life without it.  (Yea right).

Went through all the hoops, and was denied.  I called BC/BS of Iowa and asked what exactly I needed to do to get the approval, so I did it and wa-la...I was approved.

It took me just 4 days shy of a year to get through the whole thing.  I am glad I did it.

Dr. Kothari is fabulous and my stay in the hospital was unremarkable.  The rest of the team, Christopher Larson PA-C/RD and Emily Jantz RD are fabulous as well.  Can't forget Laurie who helped get the insurance through.  She works hard.

I had my surgery on the 25th of September, 2007 and I am doing well.  ABle to tolerate most things.  I would kill for some pizza and Pepsi right about now, but hey, the committment I made to myself will far out weigh the pizza and pepsi in the long run!