jspencer1014
6 1/2 hours till surgery!
Aug 01, 2011
It's after midnight on Aug. 2nd. I'm having surgery in about six and a half hours, at least that's when I am supposed to be at the hospital. I'm sure my surgery will take place a little while later. I thought I would be scared to death or so nervous that I couldn't sleep, but I'm neither of these. I'm up at this late (or early, depending on how you see it) hour because of the dreaded bowel cleanse. It definitely lives up to it's name! I would probably sleep like the dead if the prep wasn't so cleansing!!! LOL All joking aside, I am just so ready to have this done. I'm tired of feeling sick. I'm tired of hurting. I have Spinal Muscular Atrophy, so I know that I will hurt for the rest of my life and the pain will continue to get worse through out my life. I just thought that I would have more time to enjoy life. This surgery will give me more time. That's what I'm thinking about right now. Not the possible complications of the anesthesia and surgery, but the guarantee of living my life from a wheelchair in the next couple of years without it.I have been told that I'm not "fat enough" to have this surgery. Some have insulted me even worse by saying that I'm taking a huge risk just to wear a smaller size in clothes and be a little skinnier. For me and most of us here, it's not about being skinnier. If after the surgery I got to my goal weight or beyond, but my pain didn't lessen, I would consider this a failure. If after surgery I got back down to a size 6, but just looked "prettier" in my wheelchair, I would consider this a failure. I am looking for another chance at a healthy active life. I will claw and fight my way to it, and I will dig in my heels once I get there and use all of my strength to stay there for as long as I can. I know I will eventually start losing ground to this awful disease, but I don't have to go gracefully!
It is my time, now!!! T minus 5 hours and counting to my new life!
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About Me
Riverdale, GA
Location
29.6
BMI
Surgery
08/02/2011
Surgery Date
May 12, 2011
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