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I have become very aware that I am a major food addict.  I have a tendency to want to graze when I have a bad day. It is beating me a lot of the time so I have changed my strategy.  Instead of eating 3 meals and two snacks I have broken my meals down smaller and eat them more times a day. example: I eat a protein instead of eating the veggie at the same time I may wait an hour or so and eat it. then have my regular protein snack at what would be my regular time. then do the same with my next meal.  this may be strange and unorthadox but I have been stalled for awhile and I am finally back to losing. It is what works for me and keeps me from over eating. There is no one way for everyone, otherwise everyone would be skinny we all have to find the best way for ourselves with the tools we have been given. Best to all who are taking this journey. May you all find the success you seek.

 

hi, There are several things I have learned about weight loss that I overlooked and caused me to cause my weight loss to get stuck. the biggest is that not all food is created equally. How are body uses it makes all the difference. Sugar and corn fructose are both bad for us, corn fructose is the worst. It is hidden in all sorts of foods. spaghetti sauce. you think you are doing well using spaghetti squash instead of pasta but if you use jarred spaghetti sauce chances are you are adding corn fructose which screws up your insulin faster than sugar and you know how bad sugar is for us.  I kept getting the sweats basically dumping and couldnt figure out what the problem was but there it was hidden in all my processed foods, hidden sugar and corn fructose. You go to the fast food restraunt and get a small burger and take off the bun and think you are doing ok. Wrong again, some of the major fast food hamburger joints put wonderful corn fructose in their burgers to make kids crave them. See we become sugar addicts so we crave anything with corn fructose even if we dont know it is in there. Stay away from processed foods as much as you can. shop on the outside isles only and you will be a lot safer. It isnt hard to make your own sauce for your spaghetti squash, stay away from the premade. I have dropped 5 pounds since I realized this little tidbit with the help of a Dr. that is  a friend of mine. Dr. Haughn is no longer my physician he has moved on but he was the best.  He was the one that convinced me tht I needed my surgery and there was no shame in that. He wanted it more for me than I wanted it for myself at first. It took him almost two years to convince me. A gentle man that knows a lot about food and its effects. Stay strong people and dont quit trying. you only fail when you quit trying. Attitude and determination are everything.

all is going well for me. School is going well and my medical ills are taken care of except my hip and my knee. Going back to school so money is vey tight can't afford a lot for groceries need advice on how to shop the best for next to nothing money wise. I am eating more eggs now because they are cheap I am also making a lot of soups. I can use all the suggestions on what I can do to eat and get my protein without spending a lot of money. right now I only have 20 dollars a week to spend for groceries. I do have about 6 months worth of chicken and fish in the freezer along with a few steaks.

In the past before my surgery I was quite the emotional binger.  This can kill what I am trying to accomplish quicker than anything. I would like to say I never have the urge but that would not be true. I actually do usually after a bad day at work or when I feel very alone. I have found that extra dessert sf chewing gum seems to take care of my problem. That is until the day I was chewing so hard I made my jaw sore. LOL  I really like the flavor and it seems to satisfy me while I take a walk (Yep I can walk and chew gum at the same time). and get my head back where it needs to be. Hope this helps anybody who might have a similar issue. The idea is to find an action that can replace the binging when you feel the need to binge. Until I got real lame from my hip and knee I would always spend time with my horses. Brushing them was very relaxing. Sad to say I no longer am able to have or handle horses safely. I look forward to the day that I loose this last 50 pound my Dr. wants me to loose before I can get knee surgery. When I can the first thing I will do is go horse back riding.

today I did something I haven't done in years. I bought a full length mirror. The problem with this is when I look into the mirror I still see a very fat woman looking back. In my minds eye I look fat as ever. I hope this will change, I know it is not healthy and have made a call to my therapist. Haven't seen her in a year but I think we need to talk about this. People tell
 me all the time that I really look good. In the back of my mind I think they are lying.
I went shopping and picked up a beautiful top on clearance for nine dollars that is once size smaller than I am now. I know that by the time Christmas comes around it should fit. I am a size 18 (XL) right now so why do I keep thinking I need to still be in the fat woman's store. Is it just habits are hard to break or I just can't seem to believe that I am not that fat person any more. i think I used that fat person to hide behind so long that it is hard to let go. It is scary not having that to hide behind anymore I sometimes feel very exposed. I will work it out because I am totally dedicated to the new me. Just have to get used to looking at her.  LOL

hi,


 I am new to all this but have already found a friend. She is going to do awesome I know she will!!!  To tell you about who i am, because I am so much more than a number. I was always heavy, but I never let it slow me down when I was younger. I loved to play sports, ride bikes the whole nine yards. I weighed 250 pounds when I graduated from high school.
 I got into horses and rode and showed them for years keeping my weight battle to 250.  I actually got down to 180 for a little while but it didn't stick because I didn't know what I know now about eating.
 Then suddenly I started to gain a lot of weight I was pretty sure it was my thyroid but the tests kept coming back that I was normal(barely). The Dr.s thought I was justsaying that it was my thyroid because I wanted to make an excuse for my size.
  to make a long story short it took me 10 years to find a caring Dr. that looked past the simple test and discovered I did indeed have a thyroid problem. By this time I weighed in at 394 pounds. with his help I lost 70 pound then got stuck. I kept it off for two years and that is when he suggested bariatric surgery. I was scared but went to the seminar and met my future surgeon. I went thru therapy at the suggestion of my Dr.  A year passed before I finally decided to have the surgery 
  I have never looked back as it was the best decision I made for myself in life. it wasn't easy and it is a lot of work but it is and always will be worth it. I am a year out and proud to say I now weigh 197 pounds. My journey is not over by far but it has opened a door to the realization of who I am. I had lost myself on the way and now I am found and I like who I found.  I hope and wish that everyone has the same success I have had so far.