kat19136
Wow...can't believe I haven't posted since one month out....
May 12, 2009
Thought I would update a bit and can't believe I haven't is so long. I am doing great, loving my DS!! I am a little over six months out and am at 116lbs lost....it's just so amazing I can't believe I have done so well. It has hardly been an effort, my main efforts are in eating enough, getting in my protien and vits. I do pretty well most of the times but sometimes I do get lax, so I have to work on that, but in my own defense I have had a rough go of it in other areas of my life that have caused me to get neglectful sometimes.My Mom passed on 03/22/09, after battling lung cancer for about 1 year. She was my best friend, and it was a rough time to be sure. She went into the hospital in early March at my insistence, she was having some heart troubles, and really did not want to go, because I think she knew she wasn't going to make it. She really wanted to die at home and I was really dealing with some guilt over making her go to the hospital and my Mom didn't hold back and told me she was mad at me for making her go. So as things declined we did get hospice involved and were able to get her home in the end. She came home on a Friday and when the hospice nurse checked in that day, she told me she had hours to days to live and I was shocked. I knew things weren't good, but I still thought she was going to improve and be o.k. for a while. By Saturday she was pretty out of it and we were feeding her the morphine every few hours. I slept downstairs with her that Saturday night and at 5 a.m. gave her the morhphine and went back to sleep, when I woke up around 8:30 she was gone. I felt a little bad that I was not right by her side when this happened but I don't think I could have handled that and feel It happened that way for a reason.
I have been doing fairly well since then, I have my moments of course, but have been able to get myself back on track with vits and protein, with some exceptions when I get down, I have notice I don't eat...Imagine that....I used to eat my way through everything. Now I have to force it sometimes if I am depressed. But for the most part I do well, because I know that Mom would want me to take care of myself and be well.
So that is where I am at now....losing steadily and loving it, my only complaint at this time is my face, I feel like I look much older now that I did with my chubby face, but I will take that trade off and someday maybe treat myself to a little work. Was thinking about getting that awake lift, or lifestyle lift. It's a minor facelift, where they just pull up around the chin/neck area. We'll see...I have to see how the rest of the body skin does, so far it's not too bad, but I still have a little ways to go to get to goal. I am keeping my fingers crossed that it won't be too bad!!
That's it for now....
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About Me
Philadelphia, PA
Location
20.4
BMI
Surgery
10/29/2008
Surgery Date
Feb 13, 2008
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