Santa is on his way and I can.....
Dec 22, 2008
....sit on his lap and not worry about breaking the ol' guys legs! Whoo-hooo! What a ride this has been! I am right at seven months since my VSG and I feel wonderful! I'm down 100 pounds (7 more to go and I'm in the ONEderlands!) and life is better than I ever thought possible. For the first time in 30 years I have not dreaded the holidays.... what will I wear, everything is so tight.... how much weight will I gain this year.... will I fit in the chair at the theatre and really enjoy The Nutcracker or will I be crammed in so tight I can't move.... will I be able to really enjoy the holidays without going to bed with thoughts of failure on my mind? Yep, for the first time in 30 years I am actually enjoying every single aspect of the holiday season.
For Thanksgiving my sweetheart husband Charlie and I spent time with my entire family (wow, we all survived, I didn't kill/mame/disfigure a single sibling!) and I discovered a new relationship with food. I finally realized that just because it is Thanksgiving I don't have to eat until I explode. I fixed my plate, ate slowly and visited with family and friends without worrying that someone else might get that last piece of pie. Food is no longer my master and that is such a liberating feeling!!!
In a few days Charlie and I will fix a simple Christmas dinner. We will praise the birth of Jesus and give many thanks for the wonderful blessings we have received thoughout the year. We will give thanks for the many wonderful people who have touched our live's and continue to inspire and encourage us. My amazing parents, they have stood by me through some rocky points in my life and through it all they supported and trusted in me. My ever handsome son... he is truly my hero. How I wish there was a way that I could tell him that he saved me from myself. In my battles with cancer he was the light that kept me going. My wonderful, awsome, SKINNY, beautiful girlfriend, Kelly. What an astounding individual. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine I would find such a dear friend via the internet (right here on OH!). She truly is an inspiration and I am so fortunate to have met her. You know those friendship that last a life time... I know in my heart that the friendship Kelly and I have is, indeed, a friendship that will last a life time. And my wonderful, supportive, loving husband, Charlie. He came into my life when I had fallen to my lowest point. God blessed this man with more compassion and care than I ever thought possible. He gently extended his hand to me, offering to help me help myself and from there a love grew that I still am in awe about.
So, as Christmas quickly approaches and the house smells of baking breads and cooling cookies I will look back over the past year and thank God for my many blessings. Merry Christmas to one and all.
November, 2008, Backpacking in the Gila Wilderness!
Nov 23, 2008
Well, I finally did it! I mean I really did it! Once I dropped a little weight I started going on short hikes with Charlie. You know, nothing like Mount Everest or anything like that but nice hikes with some mountains. But in early November I took the plunge and we went on a three day two night backpacking hike up into the Gila Wilderness of New Mexico. I'm talking packback, no makeup, carrying pots, pans, food, water, tent, sleeping bag and all the other little things you need for a camp out in the wilderness. The hike into our camping spot was wonderful although a bit tough at times. I know all too well that had I not lost weight there was no way I would have been able to make the hike in let alone back out! For three days it was my wonderful husband and I, enjoying nature at its finest and having the time of our life. As I looked back on our little adventure I realized that for once my weight was not a sour spot on the memory, it was a positive addition. As for our next adventure, it will be some time in the early spring and will probably be a week long trip... again, with no makeup!