katetme
October weekend
Oct 03, 2008
Hi all,
I haven't been around cause my computer has a poltergist in it, somedays it works and somedays it doesn't. My house had a lightening strike that took out my phones and computer and cable back in July sometime and nothing has been the same since.
So hi everyone, hope you are all doing well.
Had my 6 mo check up with Dr. Loggins. FINALLY saw him, he has been out of the house both check ups before, I wes get my feelings really hurt.
Well, i have lost 78% of my excess body fat in 6 months. My numbers are great, total cholesterol 185-from 235, A1C perfect so no diabetes and get this one.
My BP- 121/44!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was 160/90 ON medication before. I wasn't even sure you could live at a bp that low LOL
bmi FROM 41-28.4
So Dr Loggins is very proud of my progress and so am I!!
And this morning the scale hit 156 which is an 80 # weight loss since I started in Jan!!
TO God goes the glory!! I lost 4 pounds in the last week, and had been pretty low energy and wondered, with my rotten mood what was going on...well...my body was getting ready to release some more fat and there you go. So it was a 4 # monthly loss, stalling for 4 weeks but I really don't get too worried cause I know the tool is working and I trust it.
Huge open house last weekend, worked my a++ off(obviously, right???!!) and ONE person came. I don't think the weather helped.
THat part is a little frustrating but on we go.
But this weekend, my DD is here with my Bestest grandson(and only) he is so fun 9 months old and blabbling and crusiing around the house. We had all three grands over night last night and again tonight. Grand mimi heaven!!
I am feeling physically great, my head hasn't caught up with my body, having a hard time with people not recognizing me. That will all come in time, I guess...
Love to all of my dear OH's
I haven't been around cause my computer has a poltergist in it, somedays it works and somedays it doesn't. My house had a lightening strike that took out my phones and computer and cable back in July sometime and nothing has been the same since.
So hi everyone, hope you are all doing well.
Had my 6 mo check up with Dr. Loggins. FINALLY saw him, he has been out of the house both check ups before, I wes get my feelings really hurt.
Well, i have lost 78% of my excess body fat in 6 months. My numbers are great, total cholesterol 185-from 235, A1C perfect so no diabetes and get this one.
My BP- 121/44!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was 160/90 ON medication before. I wasn't even sure you could live at a bp that low LOL
bmi FROM 41-28.4
So Dr Loggins is very proud of my progress and so am I!!
And this morning the scale hit 156 which is an 80 # weight loss since I started in Jan!!
TO God goes the glory!! I lost 4 pounds in the last week, and had been pretty low energy and wondered, with my rotten mood what was going on...well...my body was getting ready to release some more fat and there you go. So it was a 4 # monthly loss, stalling for 4 weeks but I really don't get too worried cause I know the tool is working and I trust it.
Huge open house last weekend, worked my a++ off(obviously, right???!!) and ONE person came. I don't think the weather helped.
THat part is a little frustrating but on we go.
But this weekend, my DD is here with my Bestest grandson(and only) he is so fun 9 months old and blabbling and crusiing around the house. We had all three grands over night last night and again tonight. Grand mimi heaven!!
I am feeling physically great, my head hasn't caught up with my body, having a hard time with people not recognizing me. That will all come in time, I guess...
Love to all of my dear OH's
and on
Sep 17, 2008
I have to admit I am not doing that well...now the weight is still coming off, slowly but off, and I feel so great. Starting to appreciate what others see in me, too, which was very hard at first, my head hadn't caught up with my body. That is better. But, WLS does not fix everythng, and I am struggling with---so silly really- FAIRNESS. Life is not fair, and I want it to be, I want my share of fair. It seems like for 5 years my family has been attacked from a variety of angles and what it boils down to is financial issues on all fronts, our 3 businesses, not selling our house, and I do realize it is early yet, but there is no break in what we are dealing with. I pray constantly, and even started praying for an enemy, evil man who is in my family and who has caused my family so much pain. I was convicted in church that I couldn't pray for him alone and I needed God's help with that so that is how I prayed.
Now I can list the blessings, I really can, and I am so grateful for the following:
My DH who is strong when I am weak, a prayer warrior when I can't, an amazing dad. but he is working and trying to figure this all out and it is killing him.
My son is doing so much better, working steadily, living on his own
The good health of my other 2 children and their children.
My WLS and my amazing transformation into a a healthy woman, I bet I have given myself 10 more years-
But what will I do with it? I have to admit I am in a funk and can't see beyond daily worry about how will we do this?
WLS has not cured this, hard work and faith will cure this and I have to relax in Jesus' arms and let go of most of this. I am trying, I just want to be safe and secure as possible...I am trying, and will keep on trying to put all of the pieces together for contentment and grace and joy.
Now I can list the blessings, I really can, and I am so grateful for the following:
My DH who is strong when I am weak, a prayer warrior when I can't, an amazing dad. but he is working and trying to figure this all out and it is killing him.
My son is doing so much better, working steadily, living on his own
The good health of my other 2 children and their children.
My WLS and my amazing transformation into a a healthy woman, I bet I have given myself 10 more years-
But what will I do with it? I have to admit I am in a funk and can't see beyond daily worry about how will we do this?
WLS has not cured this, hard work and faith will cure this and I have to relax in Jesus' arms and let go of most of this. I am trying, I just want to be safe and secure as possible...I am trying, and will keep on trying to put all of the pieces together for contentment and grace and joy.
moving on
Aug 27, 2008
The most wonderful thing about this selling the house thing is that our son made the decision to get an apartment. This is a joyous wonderful, thing. The first sign of forward movement in his life in 5 years. I have been in tears about the move, which hemade last week. He is not completely out of the garage room, but is slowly taking what he wants and leaving the rest, promises to be out this weekend so we can continue the cleaning and repainting of the space...what a relief and joy. I hope he is able to do this, I believe in his ability to do this and care for himself. It hs been a long time earned and I am so proud of him.
I went to a wonderful gathering of the Maine board on Saturday at a State partk here in Maine. What a day! It was soooooo awesome to meet some of the amazing women I have been talking to for months. Such a diverse, interseting group, too, and all with their own remarkable journey to a size healthy!! It was a great day! To see it check out Moodyblueyes VLOG on youtube.
I went to a wonderful gathering of the Maine board on Saturday at a State partk here in Maine. What a day! It was soooooo awesome to meet some of the amazing women I have been talking to for months. Such a diverse, interseting group, too, and all with their own remarkable journey to a size healthy!! It was a great day! To see it check out Moodyblueyes VLOG on youtube.
OVERWEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aug 19, 2008
I am OVERWEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally!!!!!!!!!!! I made it, I am no longer the O word, and I never ever want to go back to that place. I am feeling so good, sleeping better than I have in a decade, no snoring at all, am walk/jogging 2 miles 5 times a week, rain has made that a bit hard, so it isn't exact, but my numbers from my 2 month-finally got those, and even my choleseraol as of June was 175. I have never had that low a reading since they started to check it!!!
AND, I got into to a pair of size 14 dress chinos yesterday that I bought in the middle of July that I couldn't fit into and they fit now. So the pounds slowly are being dropped and I am slowly figuring out what this all means.
HEad huger and heart hunger is still alive and well, and I do find myself "circling camp" looking for the elusive perfect food to make me feel better but those times are done with so much more mindfulness now, than ever before. Rarely, if ever, do I find myself with something in my mouth that catches me by surprise-come on I know you used to do that, too, and if and when that happens, I spit it out and think about the NEXT bite. Before, I would gobble it down and take another , and another until I would "wake up" realize what I was doing and then stop. I thank God for this chance, the chance to recapture so many things in my life that are good and true, feeling healthier and looking forward to the future with so much more hope than I have had for a long time. For a long time I felt my days were numbered and on top of that, numbered because of MY choices with food. Now, knowing I could get hit by a truck tomorrow, at least I have been an active participant in living today! SO, other than that,
my house hasn't sold yet, my middle son has moved out to his own little apartment-we are so happy for him-he is emotionally disabled and has been home for 5 years-HUGE step for him, big change for us, too.
The Maine board is having a summer gathering on Saturday and I am going with AuntieGlasses, I think, we will all have such stories to tell, and meeting people in person is going to be, I think, so powerful!! I can't wait!
Thank you all my dear, wonderful OH friends for your support and inspiration, I wouldn't be here without you! God Bless you real good.
Hugs and honks from the goose lady!
AND, I got into to a pair of size 14 dress chinos yesterday that I bought in the middle of July that I couldn't fit into and they fit now. So the pounds slowly are being dropped and I am slowly figuring out what this all means.
HEad huger and heart hunger is still alive and well, and I do find myself "circling camp" looking for the elusive perfect food to make me feel better but those times are done with so much more mindfulness now, than ever before. Rarely, if ever, do I find myself with something in my mouth that catches me by surprise-come on I know you used to do that, too, and if and when that happens, I spit it out and think about the NEXT bite. Before, I would gobble it down and take another , and another until I would "wake up" realize what I was doing and then stop. I thank God for this chance, the chance to recapture so many things in my life that are good and true, feeling healthier and looking forward to the future with so much more hope than I have had for a long time. For a long time I felt my days were numbered and on top of that, numbered because of MY choices with food. Now, knowing I could get hit by a truck tomorrow, at least I have been an active participant in living today! SO, other than that,
my house hasn't sold yet, my middle son has moved out to his own little apartment-we are so happy for him-he is emotionally disabled and has been home for 5 years-HUGE step for him, big change for us, too.
The Maine board is having a summer gathering on Saturday and I am going with AuntieGlasses, I think, we will all have such stories to tell, and meeting people in person is going to be, I think, so powerful!! I can't wait!
Thank you all my dear, wonderful OH friends for your support and inspiration, I wouldn't be here without you! God Bless you real good.
Hugs and honks from the goose lady!
70# lost forever
Aug 05, 2008
Never-evah did I actually believe this day would come and I would have lost 70 # in 7 months. 62 since my first NUT meeting. I am so grateful, and humble that I have been given AND am smart enough to use this new tool.
I don't always get in the 5 days of exercise and I am going to really work hard at that for the next 36 pounds because I believe in the 3 legged stool that Dr. L teaches, Support, exercise and nutrition.
I know I would not have been able to handle the first few months pre and post without my unbelievably supportive, loving OH family. Thank you one and all!! I am 3 pounds from Overweight!! that is my next goal. Thank you my God for the skilled hands of my surgeon, the guidance of my NUT and the love from my family both gene related and new found here. Today is a good day.
I don't always get in the 5 days of exercise and I am going to really work hard at that for the next 36 pounds because I believe in the 3 legged stool that Dr. L teaches, Support, exercise and nutrition.
I know I would not have been able to handle the first few months pre and post without my unbelievably supportive, loving OH family. Thank you one and all!! I am 3 pounds from Overweight!! that is my next goal. Thank you my God for the skilled hands of my surgeon, the guidance of my NUT and the love from my family both gene related and new found here. Today is a good day.
OM
Jul 22, 2008
So, Monday went ok, but I was snappy with the grands, hating my dogs cause one still pees on puppy pads and I can't break her of this...and I am drivin myself a bit insane trying to keep everything show ready...
I went to bed Monday feeling, maybe being off depression meds isn't such a great idea after all but...woke up yesterday and realized "Everybody has bad days" how is that for insight??? This is a tough thing to do, selling my home, and it is going to create havoc and stress in my life, and I just have to deal.
We are going camping in the higher mountains, near Lancaster NH and taking the grands to Santa's Village, a fun place with reindeer and rides-look it up if you want to know-it should be fun and we are going with our camping friends and their grands. Leaving tomorrow after work, I scheduled eeryone from 8-1 so leaving at 2. We should be able to get on the road by 4 and it is a two hour drive to the area.
I am really looking forward to letting go of the house for 3 days. We are taking the dogs with us so nothing should mess things up at the house LOL
Today, all the contractors are suppose to have their estimates in and we might hear from the prospective buyer with an offer...that would be nice to get OUR ball rolling as we can't do anything without selling.
We have picked out a floor plan we like, and have decided on where it is going to sit on our property, met with a builder we like, and we have a dinner date with an architech friend who will draw up plans for us based on what we want, so those things are happening. i find the more I can look OVER the sale and concentrate on what is coming next, I can deal with the sale. It really is exciting contemplating all new everything!!
ok, the grands are here and we need to start our day. Love to all...
I went to bed Monday feeling, maybe being off depression meds isn't such a great idea after all but...woke up yesterday and realized "Everybody has bad days" how is that for insight??? This is a tough thing to do, selling my home, and it is going to create havoc and stress in my life, and I just have to deal.
We are going camping in the higher mountains, near Lancaster NH and taking the grands to Santa's Village, a fun place with reindeer and rides-look it up if you want to know-it should be fun and we are going with our camping friends and their grands. Leaving tomorrow after work, I scheduled eeryone from 8-1 so leaving at 2. We should be able to get on the road by 4 and it is a two hour drive to the area.
I am really looking forward to letting go of the house for 3 days. We are taking the dogs with us so nothing should mess things up at the house LOL
Today, all the contractors are suppose to have their estimates in and we might hear from the prospective buyer with an offer...that would be nice to get OUR ball rolling as we can't do anything without selling.
We have picked out a floor plan we like, and have decided on where it is going to sit on our property, met with a builder we like, and we have a dinner date with an architech friend who will draw up plans for us based on what we want, so those things are happening. i find the more I can look OVER the sale and concentrate on what is coming next, I can deal with the sale. It really is exciting contemplating all new everything!!
ok, the grands are here and we need to start our day. Love to all...
sell, sell, sell
Jul 22, 2008
Monday's post on the ME board:
I have a lady coming back today with a host of contractors to give her estimates on what she would want done on this house if she buys it...so i have to pack up the grands and the puppies and leave for an undetermined amount of time... She wants
1. 2nd bathroom upstairs for her daughter's "wing"
2. balcony off the Master suite
3.heat upstairs
4. Central air
5 and a bathroom over the garage for the "Nanny's quarters...
OM
Yes I think she has a wee bit of hmmmm investable income...and I don't know how I feel about all of this...
She has not made an offer yet .
Keeping the house perfect is such a strain....on everyone...
my puppy has forgotten how to be housebroken....
the toilet overflowed the morning of the first showing...
it has rained for 40 days and 40 nights and i can't paint the porches in the rain...
my DS quarters over the garage had to be mucked out(literally) and scrubbed and invaded-he is emotionally disabled and this is very upsetting to him, I feel like we are displacing him...he is ok with it and has applied for Community Concepts housing....I'm not...
While I know if it sells I need to let it go whatever people want to do with it, I think I am having a hard time knowing I am being judged-27 years of our lives is being judged by strangers-withNannies-
On the amazing oh boy side, DH and I decided on house plans yesterday so when it does sell, we can move forward, hired a contractor Saturday, someone who did our kitchen and master in 91 very good builder and we are comfortable with that...
Ok, I think I am done...Thanks everyone....
I have a lady coming back today with a host of contractors to give her estimates on what she would want done on this house if she buys it...so i have to pack up the grands and the puppies and leave for an undetermined amount of time... She wants
1. 2nd bathroom upstairs for her daughter's "wing"
2. balcony off the Master suite
3.heat upstairs
4. Central air
5 and a bathroom over the garage for the "Nanny's quarters...
OM
Yes I think she has a wee bit of hmmmm investable income...and I don't know how I feel about all of this...
She has not made an offer yet .
Keeping the house perfect is such a strain....on everyone...
my puppy has forgotten how to be housebroken....
the toilet overflowed the morning of the first showing...
it has rained for 40 days and 40 nights and i can't paint the porches in the rain...
my DS quarters over the garage had to be mucked out(literally) and scrubbed and invaded-he is emotionally disabled and this is very upsetting to him, I feel like we are displacing him...he is ok with it and has applied for Community Concepts housing....I'm not...
While I know if it sells I need to let it go whatever people want to do with it, I think I am having a hard time knowing I am being judged-27 years of our lives is being judged by strangers-withNannies-
On the amazing oh boy side, DH and I decided on house plans yesterday so when it does sell, we can move forward, hired a contractor Saturday, someone who did our kitchen and master in 91 very good builder and we are comfortable with that...
Ok, I think I am done...Thanks everyone....
Survived!
Jul 11, 2008
I survived, barely, the first "showing" of our home. People came today for the walk through, have no idea if they are actually in the market. This has been 2 weeks in hell... found myself up at 4 am this morning pulling carpet strips up from a room we removed carpet from a couple years ago, and never finished the job...
I restaged that room after scrubbling the floor and pulling up staples from the foam pad, still left over, geesch, didn't I do anything 2 years ago!! Then vac-ed the whole house, oiled all the wood furniture, and then loaded up the grand girls and the girl dogs just as the realtor came- togo out for an early lunch, to get out of the house. I was frazzled, this is taking alot out of me. Don't think it is all physical either. Had a small lunch, plain burger patty and side salad, couldn't eat. Stood up and all the strength went out of my legs. DH was with me and he made me sit back down, helped me to the car and siad sit here with the air on until you feel as tho you can drive...I have no idea what that was all about.
Anyway, came home to a nice note from the Mass couple who toured.
Wow, I don't know how people buy and flip houses this is killer, I am absolutely exhausted!
Oh and my weight is stalled a bit....ok with that tho!!
Saw Bob Marley the comedian last night, hilarious!!! Went to Stone Mountain Arts Center in Brownfield, ME- an absolutely amazing venue-check them out on line.
I restaged that room after scrubbling the floor and pulling up staples from the foam pad, still left over, geesch, didn't I do anything 2 years ago!! Then vac-ed the whole house, oiled all the wood furniture, and then loaded up the grand girls and the girl dogs just as the realtor came- togo out for an early lunch, to get out of the house. I was frazzled, this is taking alot out of me. Don't think it is all physical either. Had a small lunch, plain burger patty and side salad, couldn't eat. Stood up and all the strength went out of my legs. DH was with me and he made me sit back down, helped me to the car and siad sit here with the air on until you feel as tho you can drive...I have no idea what that was all about.
Anyway, came home to a nice note from the Mass couple who toured.
Wow, I don't know how people buy and flip houses this is killer, I am absolutely exhausted!
Oh and my weight is stalled a bit....ok with that tho!!
Saw Bob Marley the comedian last night, hilarious!!! Went to Stone Mountain Arts Center in Brownfield, ME- an absolutely amazing venue-check them out on line.
more musings...
Jun 26, 2008
All of our lives we spend enormous amounts of energy collecting thngs...bigger houses, more stuff...
The second half of our lives the universe demands we give back...the energy needs to be focused inward to create balance in our lives...if we don't live this way God demands it by creating situations that require our responses to change
l(thanks Stef) am realizing living under the load of debt we are is creating inbalance in our lives. My DH is a farmer, and intrinsicaly understands this part...to grow a tree the soil must be balanced, all the right nutrients, the right amount of rain and sun. Going through WLS, the
balance of the 3 legged stool ,Dr. L talks about, is nutrition, exercise, and support...without all three, no balance, no success-and even worse-illness, dumping, weight gain.
I support my DH's decsion because that is what God calls on a wife to do, but it isn't about submission, it is about supporting him and HIM in the position God has put DH in as head of my household, and provider and protector. He is doing that FOR us not TO ME.
changes
Jun 25, 2008
I have been sitting on this for a couple of weeks, but figured it is probably impacting me alot, so ddecided to spill..
My DH has made the decision to sell our home of 27 years. For a lot of reasons that I won't go into, suffice it to say it is a big 4000 sq ft OLD NE Farmhouse that we have lovingly renovated for our family's needs. It sits on 40 acres give or take, has a 3 car garage, and a in ground pool. It is hard to heat, and hard to maintain both inside and out. He has had it, I guess, with all that it takes. I honestly thought this was my forever and ever house. I am grieving,deeply, but I do understand where my dearest one is coming from. It is too big for just the 2 of us, it is expensive to heat, maintain, it isn't very "green". WE just painted it last year and finished it this summer so it really has great curb appeal, summer is the best time to show it.
My DBro is going into the commercial/residential cleaning business and he is going to come up and deep clean all the rugs and floors soon. I worry because we were going to replace our carpet in our br with wood floors, our dogs have ruined the carpet(and cats, too) not just missing the pee pads but throwing up and just dog stuff... now to show it?? before the deep clean??? NO way. I don't want to be embarassed if it is a muggy day, it does take on an fume de pee.
One DS lives right next door, the other over the garage..I cannot bear to think of someone else living next door to my grands!
The plan is to build on our land, a smaller more efficient house, perhaps a post and beam.
I don't know,,,I can't eat through this so I guess I will have to stay in the moment and try and work through all of these feelings...
huh...that IS a change...
My DH has made the decision to sell our home of 27 years. For a lot of reasons that I won't go into, suffice it to say it is a big 4000 sq ft OLD NE Farmhouse that we have lovingly renovated for our family's needs. It sits on 40 acres give or take, has a 3 car garage, and a in ground pool. It is hard to heat, and hard to maintain both inside and out. He has had it, I guess, with all that it takes. I honestly thought this was my forever and ever house. I am grieving,deeply, but I do understand where my dearest one is coming from. It is too big for just the 2 of us, it is expensive to heat, maintain, it isn't very "green". WE just painted it last year and finished it this summer so it really has great curb appeal, summer is the best time to show it.
My DBro is going into the commercial/residential cleaning business and he is going to come up and deep clean all the rugs and floors soon. I worry because we were going to replace our carpet in our br with wood floors, our dogs have ruined the carpet(and cats, too) not just missing the pee pads but throwing up and just dog stuff... now to show it?? before the deep clean??? NO way. I don't want to be embarassed if it is a muggy day, it does take on an fume de pee.
One DS lives right next door, the other over the garage..I cannot bear to think of someone else living next door to my grands!
The plan is to build on our land, a smaller more efficient house, perhaps a post and beam.
I don't know,,,I can't eat through this so I guess I will have to stay in the moment and try and work through all of these feelings...
huh...that IS a change...
About Me
Center Lovell, ME
Location
27.1
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Surgery
03/31/2008
Surgery Date
Oct 03, 2005
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