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So dear ones, you must be alert and on your toes at all times in this vast jungle of dangerous things lurking in MY DESK of all places..
At work on Tuesday, I had to hook up my fax machine to my phone line having cancelled the fax line due to *gulp* finances, and I was looking for this two way adaptor. I pulled stuff out of my desk cubbies, nope, and then started cleaning out the bottom cubby when all of al sudden...eeekkkkk!! A half bag of CADBURY EGGS tumbled our on the floor..OH NO!! I scrambled back away from it and looked at it in horror. Seriously, it was just like a viper had slithered out of my desk.  I poked it abit, and i was talking to myself the whole time, "you can't eat it, it will make you sick, don't even think about it, you will get so sick...etc..." I wish Icould say I threw it away right away, Idid eventually, but first stopped and figured out if 12 eggs is 33 grams of sugar, how many grams of sugar in one egg...HAHAHAHA. Then I bagged it up to go to the dumpster.  So I continue to pull stuff out and find the adaptor.  As I am putting stuff away, I look into the cubby, the back corner, and there were...NOT ONE BUT TWO plastic candy canes filled with chocolate Hersheyettes. For those of you who don't know they are the hersey's equivilent of M&Ms, and my fav, which theystopped making years ago EXCEPT at Christmas when you can find them in the candy canes, or apparently in my desk!! SO after a huge sigh of longing, I bagged those up too, and ran not walked to the dumpster and threw them into the furthest corner, again with this mantra.  "I will not dumpster dive, I will not dumpster dive!"
I think it was so horrifying because Iwasn't prepared, I have not craved chocolate of any kind, zip by candy aisle in the market, no problem, but this coming out of no where, threw me for a bit.  I did recover and am having a great laugh about it now. Hope you do too!

Just got back from a quick trip to Richmond, VA for the HS graduation of my DH's nephew. It was a difficult trip for unstated family reasons, but good for us to see our nephew succeed in his quest to go forward in his life. He had a tough SR year, broke his leg very badly the first day of football practice, (never should have been there, IMO) and spend most of his year in a wheelchair.  He walked for his diploma though, YAY!
Food was an interesting challenge for me.  Eating regular foods makes everything easier, but going out to restaurants is not.  I don't like to eat, and I hate to waste food, and everytime I order it isn't little enough.  I will learn to ask for exactly what I want, child's portions, and sides instead of a meal. My Dr. has a card that he has made up that asks restaurants to honor smaller portions or eat off the ch9ildren's menu...eck...but I just need to ask for what I want. Harder than I would have thought, for me.

My surgeon called me today to say he is really not avoiding me, circumstances have conspired to keep us apart.  LOL  He was very nice and had gone over my charts and was pleased with my progress and wanted to know everything, how I was doing, what I thought of the outcomes so far, any questions...very, very nice conversation. 
So, good...

WEll, to be honest, I am a little annoyed...

I got there and a look of horror came over Kim's face, and she looked at her computer and back at me...so...I'm thinking, do I have the wrong day, and then I know I don't because it has been written into my date book since my 2 week appoint.  So she said, it was fine, i would be seen...
Crystal came in in about 5 minutes, said she was going to take pics and that I was going to see this new nurse, Michael, because...here it comes....DR.LOGGINS IS ON VACATION...WHAT????????? Now, at my 2 week, he was out of town and I saw a really nice DR who was on call for DrL but I knew about that.  This one they just dropped the ball, completely...I haven't seen my surgeon since the hospital  Michael was nice , very knowlegable and helpful so that went well, I am always nice, after all.  After him, came Corinne.
Wel, not good, I have not been journaling, so really had no idea how many calories I am eating, did and do know to the number by protein grams and fluids, but not calories,,,hhmmmm.not what she wanted to hear.  And that was just the beginning. I added B 12 without asking, must not be chewing properly because I have had food stuck 3 times and vomited, honestly ...I just wanted to go home...
Now this is all in the context that I have
LOST 48% OF MY EXCESS BODY WEIGHT IN 2 MONTHS, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

I worked it out tho, and we were all smiling when I left.
When I got home I faxed a copy of the appointment card back to them to show them I did actually have the appointment today!! I am not crazy!! LOL
Oh well, really want to see him at my 6 month, he will be surprised then, right??

50# THIS AM ON THE SCALE...50#!! I AM SO HUMBLED AND GRATEFUL FOR MY RNY, MY SURGEON, MY FAMILY, MY OH FRIENDS AND ESPECIALLY MY LORD AND SAVIOR WHO BROUGHT ME THROUGH SO I COULD FEEL WHAT I AM FEELING TODAY. I DON'T CARE IF I STALL, I DON'T CARE IF I AM A SLOW LOSER, I CARE THAT I AM HEALTHIER AND MORE PROUD OF MYSELF THAN I HAVE BEEN IN A VERY, VERY LONG TIME.

OMgoodness, Thank you to my Lord and saviour Jesus, and the surgeon Dr. Jamie Loggins, and my family for supporting me and believing in me and all of my amazing, wonderful OH friends. I might actually do this after all!! I am going to have to post a new pic soon, I can see some changes, some wonderful, ah some not so wonderful..what's with the loose turkey waddle under my chin...but I am sooooooo happy.
Had a reflexology treatment today. It is suppose to help with my energy levels and any digestive problems...and stress. A good friend and collegue is studying the science and needs to do so hours toward certification, so it was free and GREAT! Felt like...MORE.
REgular foods starting today, slow and steady now...

I am here, well, just got back. DH and I have set our camper on a site for spring and I leave on Thursday nights with one grand girl and then he comes on Friday night with the other. He is working 7 days a week, it is his harvest season-he is a tree farmer-so the girls and I spend some great time together, walking and poking in mud and sitting on the beach(it is on a lake) The campground isn't really all open yet, this is a deal for 6 weeks, before season, so we are taking advantage of it. So, the playgrounds aren't completely ready and the restaurants have a limited pub menu if we wanted to go for a meal.  
I am finding, once again, the biggest part of camping for me was food.  Munching all day on dips and snacks, and BBQ at night. We have friends who also camp and we get together for the campfire at night, and more snacks...I never have been a drinker so snacking is what I do with my trusty diet pepsi.  So making a new way to camp has been a challenge.  Food is NOT fun anymore, and then I started to think, was IT ever fun, or did I make it fun with the meaning...it is still fun to be together at the campground, it is still fun to be with friends, so...FOOD just sits there, doesn't it!! LOL no new revelation, just a nod to common sense and how ridiculous life becomes sometimes.

Happy Mother's Day to all my girls in WLS land!

Ok,
I don't know...the weight is finally moving...and I am thrilled...
I had a most wonderful week in NY with my dgt and new grandson!! Jaxson is so awesome! I loved on him for 5 days and it was the best ever. Also had a great visit with my dgt, a most blessed time.

I am tired. I went back to work yesterday and I am NOT feeling it. I was exhausted both days by noon. Now, I have a job that I sit and listen to people and I just am exhausted. Both days home by 3, I did some grocery shopping today on the way home. Tried to nap when I got home but couldn't, now I am draggin.
I haven't had all my fluids today, for sure, and I am picking a bit, first on SF fudge pop, and some WW crackers, and some chicken...gotta stop that.

The deal tat work is we getting to the end of our lease, one of our therapists wanted to break her lease because she is out on medical(breast cancer) and is having a tough time paying the rent. But, we prob could sub lease her space.  BUT, today, the land lord said our lease is not up for renewal, he loves us but wants to sell the building and we have the largest suite of offices and he is pretty sure whoever buys it would prob want the bigger suite...so he wants us to stay in his building, just not there.
I can't think about moving, we just did 2 years ago, and it makes me tired to think about it, plus it willb e expensive...arrrggghhh i have to stop obsessing...
So, tired today....
more fluids....

Still at 198...
I AM getting my protein in, my water, my exercise..everyday..what is wrong. I feel different in my clothes, look dif in the mirror(a little to me) but the scale does not budge...

Well, the last thing Dr. Loggins said to me was "Now don't go home and be a slave to the scale."  Hello my name is Kate,I am a slave to my scale and it is ruining my day.  It has't moved since last Friday and I am getting a little annoyed and alot scared and frustrated. This is going to work, right>  DH says he sees the inches gone...well...lost #38 lbs and still wearing the same clothes. Is that because I am a short,dense Frenchwoman? My son said today, Mom I totally see your waist, now! LOL so I guess that is good. Others are on the board losing merrily along -a week out-and I am sitting here at 198, now 198 is great,don't get me wrong, I am so happy to  still be in onederland, I have not gone backward which BWLS I would have-gained it all back, prob. But I am sad...plus dh and i just had words...spring has sprung but no quite enough for him to get in the ground and dig his trees, so we have lost some orders...it goes on and on...
Tomorrow will be a better day, with God's help.
I think I will go to bed...