Feeling like a failure

Feb 18, 2009

I don't know if this is the "Buyers Remorse" that people talk about.  I don't regret having the surgery but in the past week I've gained 4 lbs.  I'm not sure why this is happening.  I'm doing pretty good getting in my fluids and almost hitting my protein target with food.  Twice in the past week I've started to eat dinner and I've wound up getting sick so I haven't  eaten dinner.  I'm not constipated.  I really don't know why the scale is going the wrong direction.  I go back to the surgeon in a little over a week and I don't want to get yelled at.  At my first appointment at 2 weeks post op he seemed disappointed that I hadn't lost more.  I'm taking in about 600-800 calories a day.  No I'm not working out yet.  I am 5 weeks out and won't be cleared for exercise for another week.  I've heard so many people say that you could do everything wrong the first 6 months and still loose weight and I feel like I'm doing things right and I'm not!   My husband says that this is a plateau but c'mon I shouldn't be gaining if it was a plateau, the scale wouldn't be moving.  I didn't tell people at work that I was having this surgery because I didn't want them to know incase I failed AGAIN, now it seems like that's exactly what is happening.  I'm so tired of being a failure.  I don't know what I'm going to do if this doesn't work.

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