Cleaned out my closet...and cookies. :(

Aug 01, 2009

I moved into a new house two weeks ago and REALLY needed to purge my closet.  I have gone from two huge walk-in closets to one walk-in closet.  I was completely dreading it and didn't think that I wanted to get rid of anything, especially since I haven't even had surgery yet!  I dragged myself in there and started pulling a couple of things off of hangers just to try and make some room.  The more that I looked through, the more clothes I grabbed and threw on the floor!  I was getting a bit angry, actually.  The clothes that I had in there were UGLY!!  There were some that I had left from when I was thinner (not skinny but THINNER) that were completely out of style now.  Others were ones that were bigger that I once thought were kind of cute.  Now I realize that they're really not cute, they were just the only ones that I could find that somewhat fit.  They were mostly cheaply made which pisses me off.  Anyway, even if the surgery doesn't work for me and I don't lose weight, I needed to get rid of those clothes.  I'm glad that I did it.

So, about the cookies.....  Freshly made deli cookies are my absolute FAV and I can't believe that I won't be able to have them again.  So, I ate ten coconut and pecan soft yummy cookies right after I was done taking out all of my ugly clothes.  I don't even regret it because it was pure HEAVEN.   What is wrong with me???!!!

I officially have 8 days until my surgery.  Less than a week before I leave to go to California.  I am so relieved.  However, I've realized that I've been a complete BEOTCH over the past couple of weeks!  I don't know if it's nerves, or hormones, or fear, or I don't know what.  Luckily, my kids are going to their father's for a month in August which will carry me through the first month post-op.  At least I won't have to fix too many regular meals while I'm doing the liquid diet.

Ok, I think I'm done rambling.  Any thoughts are always welcome!  Take care!

Oh, yeah, does anyone know if there's a forum for lower BMI people starting out? 

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