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Well it's done. I'm finally got what I was waiting for. I am getting approved. Well at least the psych portion is getting approved. I am so happy. All I need to do is get my follow up letter about my sleep apnea and then they can send in my info to the insurance to approve. I am so excited. One more step closer.

Well here is an update on my WLS journey. I had called last Friday to find out what they still need to send to insurance. Apparently they pretty much need everything. I got my letter I need to pick up from my Doctor's. I thought she had already sent it in. But NOOOOOOO. I have to get that. I was going to get it Monday but I ended up being in Boston really late from going to a funeral. I need to go see Dr. Gupta again so he can send his follow up to Dr. Pohl's office. I also need to get my psych clearance to them. I have to tell my therapist that I don't know if I will be able to have surgery in March like she and I hope I would be able to. I need to have everything in for insurance. Maybe she will clear me this visit so I can send it to the insurance and just promise to continue seeing her. I also need to talk to Peggy to see when she is going to send her letter to Dr. Pohl so I can have the sent too.

All the stupid hoops you have to jump through. I am starting to get to the point also that I don't care what surgery I have so long as I have it. It's just been so long. I feel like I have been battling more with my weight trying to get this surgery and more stressed to get it than I have been in the past. But then again, there has been a lot more going on in my life than before. I have always had my friends and support and I still have my friends just that we are all over the place. I miss them all.

Ok here is my quick update. I was suppose to have another session with Dr. Messier the therapist that specialized in eating disorders and gastric bypass patients. Well she called in sick when my appointment was scheduled. I had to reschedule it on December 22nd. She was very nice and seemed to be supported and she told me her goals were to get me ready for the surgery and to have me have it. She was going to talk to my dietician. I hope she does. I told Peggy more about it and Peggy seems to think that I would be a very good candidate and that I am trying to lose weight. I have lost 4 pounds of the weight that I have gained back. I need to lose another 4 and then I will be down below the lowest I have been since going with her. So that's hers and mine goal to have by the end of the year. I hope I can do it. I was really hoping to get approved and have the surgery before my birthday or right after the holidays. We will see. It's just a bummer that I have to wait. I know how we all don't like to weight. I am just getting tired of being trapped in the fat. I try to exercise and move and everything hurts. My ankles, my back and my knees. I know once I get more weight off that these things won't hurt as munch when I am exercising or just planning living my life.

Well I went for my psych evaluation and failed it. The doctor said that I am too depressed and that I am emotional eating issues. So she wanted me to see her or someone else. I didn't like the way she handled me and after talking with me for only ten minutes. I wanted nothing to do with her. I am going to go to see the person she wanted me to see so I can get approved.

I told my nutritionalist and she was shocked, though she believes that everyone should be seen for emotional eating before they have the surgery, but she was just shocked that I didn't get the go ahead. I still haven't done so well with my six month diet. I am slowly gaining my weight back. I am going to be trying to work on it again and get back on track. I have to admit is hard to eat right at work. There are alway some goodies around. I don't have a diet buddy anymore. That friend of mine, don't talk much anymore. I wouldn't really consider us friends anymore either. I have tired to talk to her but she won't have any of it. I guess telling her how I feel about things in our relationship was just too much for her and it hurt her feelings. I just don't get it. Oh well. Just a little bit less drama in my life.

On the home front, nothing really has changed. I am still living at home and my mom and I are still at it. My boyfriend is still homeless and not living in the best situations at a friends house. I really wish there was something I could do. His friend is totally using him. It's sad to see. He is working his ass off and he has nothing really to show for it.

My son is growing up so fast. He is almost 3 feet already. He is learning words and still getting in a lot of trouble. I just wish I could get this weight off and not be so tired when it comes to playing with him. He deserves a better in shape and not so tired and sad mother. I will get there some day. I just need to get all my ducks in a row I guess.