my story

Dec 29, 2008

each time i visit this site, i tell myself that i will start writing something to journalize my journey...but nothing until now!

i went to the lap band seminar at wesley long hospital in september or october of this year...this was the second time that i had attended.  i also attended one about a year prior but never did what i needed to do to get started.  this time i was more serious then i'd ever been.

i'm 28 years old now, quickly approaching 30...not that 30 is very old, but i just realize that i've never really given myself the opportunity to "have a life."  i've always allowed my weight to hold me back and the more and more it became an issue the larger i would become. 

there was a time when i would hang out with my friends and go to clubs or different types of events.  i did this until i had enough of being ignored by people.  of, often times, being the biggest person in the room physically, but being the tiniest socially.  they'd always encourage me to go with them, when i would explain my reasoning for not wanting to go, they'd simply say i was imagining things.  for several years i would not go out anywhere.  then i got to a point where i just didn't care and decided i wouldn't let other people prevent me from enjoying life and having a good time...that didn't last very long.

i was back to staying home in self-exile.  i didn't even want to go shopping with them.  there was hardly a point in trailing around behind them at the mall where there was barely a place for me to shop.

over the past 10 years, i've gained, at my highest weight, 60-70 lbs.  when i started college, i was around 240lbs.  my highest has been about 308 lbs.  I'm currently at 299 lbs.  I have my most recent weight loss effort to thank for that. 

i have lost weight in the past with the most being about 30 lbs.  seemingly inevitably, the pounds would return, bringing a few friends and family members!!

so now i'm on track to have lap band surgery.  i've been attending monthly check-ins with my dr. to make sure i meet that possible insurance requirement.  i have a surgeon, dr. newman with central carolina surgery here in greensboro, nc.  i met with him last thursday and he's pretty nice.  and i'm quite thankful for the bariatric liason in his office who scheduled all of my pre-op appointments instead of having me fend for myself as i had to do some years ago when i had considered wls.  and my pre-op clearances have been scheduled with my first being the psych eval.  that appt is scheduled for tomorrow. 

the other appointments consist of bloodwork, radiology testing, breath-tek/h. pylori (whatever that is, lol), the nutritionist, and i must attend the bariatric education class.  all of this will be over by 01/22/09.  not very long at all.  after that, dr. newman's office will submit my insurance information.  my current provider is bcbsga, but effective 01/01/09 is aetna.  prayerfully, things will go off without a hitch.

i will keep plugging away in the gym and eating better regardless of what happens.

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