kinidisoul
work in progress
Jan 11, 2009
well, i'm on my way. i had my first of two psych appts on 12/30/08 with dr. lurey. that was nothing major, just lots of questions and i love to talk, so that was a great fit! i also go homework from him! a thick packet to complete and a couple of questionnaires. i'm gonna finish those up tonight and drop them by his office one day this week.
i also had my radiology testing on 1/05/09 at the women's hospital (at 7:15am!). they did several x-rays as well as an ekg. they also did some type of upper gi testing. they made me drink barium sulfate **barf!** could they not have given me whole milk! ugh! it was kinda cool to watch it go thru my esophagus into my stomach and empty into my small intestines (i think, lol).
thanks to a cancelation at the nutritionishts office, i had my appt moved up one week and got to see her 1/07/09. she was pretty nice, she just liked to repeat herself! and i like for people to just get to the point when talking to me, but i stuck it out.
my next appt is for the breath-tek/h. pylori at 7:15am 1/13/09. i am NOT a morning person! but that means i shouldn't have to take time off from work. but i'm soooo lucky b/c i just got a new position at work (12/15/08) with VERY flexible hours. also, i'll need to get my bloodwork done this week at labcorp. and that will be it...with the exception of the bariatric education class that i am required to attend on 1/22/09.
ok...enough of that...
i'm so anxious to go thru with this that i don't know what to do. i'm so tired of being sick and tired. sick. AND. tired. i want to go out again. i want to met real people. i want a life offline. i want to meet men. and i want those men to be more concerned about me liking them and wanting to keep them around rather than having me bare the brunt of that burden. i want them to work to attract me. and wait for my call! lol. really. i'm tired of waiting for the phone to ring.
about a month ago i met this guy face to face. we'd been talking online for at least two months. the funny thing is that we work at the same place. we met on a conference call and starting communicating by the IM that we use at work. it had be nothing major, just friendly chit chat on a daily basis. it eventually turned in to texts after work and on the weekends, still nothing major, just friendly chit chat. one day he decides he's going to come down to see me. i thought it went well! besides, we were just friends right? u might as well say that was the last i heard of him. he had seen pictures of me, but apparently, the person in my pics and i are not one in the same. color me surprised.
i'm tired of people lying to my face telling me that my weight isn't a barrier to finding the person i want. i'm tired of my sister telling me that i'm not "that big" when she calls herself fat at any given moment. i'm just sick, that's all...
enough venting for today...
oh yeah, i was sick this past week and not in the gym. time to head back tomorrow after work! 45 mins of cardio and 2 set of 14 reps on my favorite strength machines. i am excited. at least i haven't gained any weight during my week off. until next time...
