Lady_of_Shadows_and_Myst
First plateau.....and learning it's okay
Jun 05, 2009
A little over 3 weeks ago I hit my first plateau. I realize after losing 98 lbs in 9 months that I've done amazingly well, but I am not a patient person and had it in my head that I would continue at that rate the whole time. Unfortunately, folks, that just isn't realistic. Over the last 3 weeks I have gained and lost the same few pounds several times. As of this morning, I'm back to my surgeon's goal weight again....but still about 20 lbs from where I want to be.
After not losing anything (and actually gaining a few pounds), I wanted to throw my hands up and just say "forget it!" (well, not actually the words I used, but I can't write those here!). I got really depressed and told my husband that I should have known better than to think I could get back into my size 8's, and who was I kidding? I found myself eating some stuff I shouldn't and too much of it because I was mad at myself and at the world.
In looking back, my reaction was really WAY over the top. My husband doesn't understand why I have this "all or nothing" mentality. I don't know either, but it is irrational and just causes me to get depressed. I know perfectly well that plateaus are normal and sometimes the body just needs time to catch up and reset itself, so to speak. Queen of denial that I am, I didn't think it would happen to me. Well, Duh.
I guess the lesson in this whole thing is that it's okay to have a plateau, even mess up a little. You just have to pick yourself back up, work a little harder and keep going. This was a speed bump, not a road block. I have been very successful so far, and will continue to be.
We all need to cut ourselves some slack, allow ourselves to be human and mess up from time to time, and not give up.
We can do it......and we will.
Almost there!!!!!!
May 07, 2009
Well, I'm almost there!! I only have 1 more lb to lose to get to the goal weight my surgeon set for me!! Woooohooo!!!!!!!
Of course, my own personal goal is 20 lbs more than that, but I know I'll get there just fine.
I can't seem to wrap my head around the fact that I have lost nearly 100 lbs. Wow. I keep going to the large size racks in the store when I look at clothes. When I wander over to the "Mediums" I feel funny, like people will look at me and say "who is she kidding?". Does anyone else have that problem? I just can't seem to get it settled in my brain yet. I guess that may take a little time.
Oh, and I got "checked out" in WalMart the other day by some guy in the garden department. It made me smile. Kind of nice to be noticed for something besides being the "fat chick".
Yep, today is a another good day.
Hang in there, guys!
Another milestone!
Apr 19, 2009
And it gets better!
Yesterday I put on some jeans and thought "you know, these seem a little loose", so I decided to try the next size down. And guess what? THEY FIT!!!!! I promptly got all the jeans and pants I have in that size and tried them on. They ALL fit!! I happily took all my size 14 pants and stuffed them in a bag to take to the Goodwill.
Wearing a size 12 for the first time in more years than I care to think about makes me feel absolutely great. I still have, in storage, all my size 10 and size 8 clothes. Thank goodness I kept them all! I look forward to going down another size.
I don't go back to the surgeon until the first week of June. I know I'll be at the goal he set for me by then since I'm only 8 lbs away from that. By the end of summer I plan on wearing all my size 8's. I can't wait.
Oh, another great thing. Today when I entered my new weight on here, I looked back at my BMI number from when I first started. As of right now, I have dropped my BMI by 15 points! THAT, my friends, is HUGE!!
Today is my step-daughter's birthday. I am making a chocolate eclair dessert (using fat-free, sugar-free pudding, low fat graham crackers, and lite chocolate icing). I am going celebrate and enjoy a piece of that.
Hang in there guys. It just keeps getting better.
Progress!
Apr 02, 2009
I asked him about my band since sometimes it seems like I eat more than I should be able to, and I eat steak and things like that all the time. I'm just careful. He said not to worry about it. As long as I'm losing weight and it's not causing problems, leave things as they are. Yeah!
So...tonight I'm going to Texas Roadhouse with my Mom. Guess what I'm having for dinner? STEAK!!!!
Working out....works
Mar 31, 2009
For someone who used to HATE exercise, I find that I am now addicted to going to the gym. I work out at the local YMCA at least 5 times a week, doing a combination of weights, cardio and Pilates. No matter how lousy I feel or how tired I think I am, always feel SO much better after I work out. There is also the added benefit of being able to treat myself to an occasional goodie since I know I will just burn it off at the gym.
I would not have come so far so fast if I wasn't doing the workouts. I am sure of that.
If you aren't working out or walking already, try to start. Trust me, it will make a big difference both in your weight loss and in how you feel in general.
Signed....a former exercise hater.