Laurie S.
when I logged on I said, "WHAT? Two years since a blog post?"
Apr 10, 2013
HI, all -
I'm sure my old followers are no longer following, but I'd love to hear from you!! =) It's been a long two years... and not necessarily completely positive. Let's go down the list of goods/bads....
Good: Still 140# lighter - I've gained a little back, but am managing to stay around 220..... and have been here a long time. It's not 197, but I'm still a shadow of my former self, which makes me happy. I'm still healthier than ever - no longer pre-diabetic, cholesterol and BP are beautiful. My docs are all thrilled with that aspect of my life. I'm an aunt again! I have a gorgeous niece named Brielle who is now 8 months old and just a love of my life. When my brother got married, I inherited 2 more nephews and a niece whom I love so much....I spoil them uncontrollably. They fill the baby hole. As usual, my nephew, David, is such a love...and at almost 4 years old, he's so bold.....but I adore him. My sister is moving in with me to pursue culinary school - so food is going to be all up in my house! Good thing about that we are planting a veggie and herb garden this year! Two of my brothers got married and I have two amazing new sisters.....I'm very blessed. But most of all - I am still married to the most amazing man I have ever known - and I am so thankful he continues to love me through the good, bad, crazy, and neurotic. We just celebrated our 13th anniversary, on which he surprised me by coming to work with a bouquet of flowers and lunch.
Badness: On the baby front - we did IUI and IVF to no avail... hubby and I are still baby-less.... it's a heartbreak, but we're surviving. we have one more round of IVF that Jeff's insurance will cover, then it's out of pocket or adoption. Seeing as I just turned 40, the baby train will soon be creeping out of the station - so we have to jump on it. Almost 2 years ago, the saddest day of my life to date occurred. Three short days after the joy of my baby brother's wedding, God took my Daddy home. I miss him every single day.....and there is not a day that goes by that I don't talk about him and either laugh or cry as a result. My momma is a pillar of strength.....and though I know she misses him more than any of us, she's such an inspiration. On her front - she had her knees replaced, which was supposed to be a blessing, but she suffered a fall which ruptured her tendon connecting her kneecap to her shin - and is no longer able to walk. She is confined to a wheelchair, with my sisters championing taking amazing care of her. I love her so.
I have to tell you- my greatest frustration as of late? My difficulty with getting back on the "protein first" and "low carb" lifestyle. Cookies, cakes, chips, and other bad stuff have crept back into my life....and I do my best to limit them -but that darn carb monster - once he takes over, it's so hard to restart. I haven't been to a support group in months, and now that my IVF doc says it's important to also follow this type of diet - it is even MORE important. I'm disappointed in myself for falling off the wagon..... and feel like getting it together for the iVF is just an exercise in futility, since they said my eggs are too old. But I digress.....
So, I'm back - *from outer space..insert Frank the Dog's voice here from MIB* Hopefully to utilize all the tools that brought me success in the past. Glad to be here.
Stats:
Weight - 221; clothing - pants 14 or 16, shirts M - XL depending ( you know how that is)
Later, gators!
Laur =)
