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Hello ALL!!
Things are going great! 
I was asked a questioned by someone and just felt I needed to share the answer with all.  I have gone through some difficult situations within the last few years and was asked how I got past them,  over them etc. This answer is not to replace counsel, doctors therapy or drugs for those that need them. I want to be responsible and say that first. that option was not one I chose.

I still have my moments! I don't discuss the issue because I never felt I should. I am rethinking that. I so want to tell what occured. It was so unneeded ,unwanted or even warranted. But it was extremely difficult. When I think about it even now my eyes welt with tears. There was no reason logical or otherwise for what this group of people allowed to occur because of their pact to protect wrong doers. 

Any ways. My doctor gave me a diagnosis of Situational Depression (GASP ME?!?!?)
Yes me. Strong mind ,positive  outlooking me. That was a blow to me. I knew things weren't great but didn't want to accept how bad they had become.

The purpose of this is to say you're not alone. I am in this with you.

My answer to the question. How do you deal with this? I deal with it daily. I reassure myself hourly that God is in this plan. That he has a purpose behind the madness.  When I need strength I remind myself that Jesus took it to the cross with him and this is something that I should not occupy my mind with. I move on. I look for my power. I look for God's promise of a sound mind... It is in his word. I look in his word.  I want to encourage all. It is within you. There will be people in somecases that will not allow you to move on from your doubts, fears or change actions. How would YOU have the audicty to want to move on toward change!   I ask you DO NOT ALLOW THEM!!! You define who your are. Not people with vile purpose. When they put it in your face remember  he took it to the cross. He is the great I AM and he is with you. People often say "things look dim" when you are going through a tunnel there is dimness before you see the light at the end of the tunnel. Keep tunneling through, The dimness is hope! It gives us direction. Keep moving. No matter what.
I wish you a sound mind and much love!!!! (MUCH MUCH Love)

Just wanted to share I am no longer obese!!! Just overweight!! Who ever thought that would be a great thing!! I am still working on getting to goal. I will not give up. Life is good. I weigh 190!! 
 It is so much better now although alot hasn't changed. It is so different when you don't have stupid people harrassing you. I was being harrassed and must have a sticker on my head that say's pick me! There are insecure people and sick jerks in this world. People don't like you when you stand up for yourself. I will always stand up for me and  those who can't do it for themselves. I guess I will always be in trouble. God has a purpose for all of us. It is time for me to get to my purpose. Making sure those who can't speak for themselves have a voice. One that is not afraid and will kick a$$ no matter how much threating is given. You B!%@#'$ are in trouble now!

God is great and greatly to be praised , Glory glory to his name. God is great and greatly to be praised, Bless the lord o my soul!!!!!!


Let's have a wonderful day in spite of the imps around us! God is great!

I am going to change my page. I haven't updated in a while because of intruders that is looking for something here they won't find. Not here anyway. I  am doing well in my weight loss jorney. I have my issues many of which I normally don't share I don't feel this is the place for it. This is the where I could come to to get encouragment to go on . I am rambling and that is not good. Just wanted to say hello. I will be back soon.

Hell o everyone,
I was leaving work Friday and a co worker was going to the bus stop. I walk to work everyday. It is a little over a mile. Any ways  she was telling me she had told her husband about me. She said "Our new manger is very nice.  I told my husband I don't know any other way to describe her. It is like Miss. America coming in to work every day.  I  told him you were always so nice , easy to talk to and so beautiful!" Me?! I thought who the hec is she talking about. My health is so much better. I was thinking of my health but okay I can be beautiful too! 

I don't think people realize the impact they have in people's life. What kind of mark are you making? Did you share a smile today? Did you say a encouraging word? Did you help someone? Did you lie? Steal cheat?  Abuse your use of power? Did you leave someone with some hurt feelings? How do you feel about the impact you shared today? Every second of our life can be a defining moment. And yet so many of us refuse to define who we will be. Our time here can be so very precious. Not just to yourself but to all you touch.   

I hope whom ever is reading this that god blesses you! If you have doubt or negative situations in your life I pray that he remove it. Sometimes things happen that we can't control. I pray that he gives you strength to endure until he shows it's purpose. We never know why god allows things to happen to us. But know for certain that he meant it for our good! It may not seem like it at the time you are going through it but know he is there with you. If when it feels like he is not. God will keep you safe from the brink. Every time you think you can't go on he pushes you forward until you can walk on your on. I am so very thankful for god showing me that no matter what he holds tommorrow. 

I don't know about tomorrow , I just live from day to day. I don't borrow from it's sunshine for it clouds may turn to gray.  I don't worry about my future. For I  know what Jesus said and today He walks beside me. For he knows........ What lies ahead. Many things about tomorrow...I don't seem to understand ....But I know who holds tomorrow and I know who holds .........who holds...my hand.
May god bless you and yours provide for your needs and keep you safe. In Jesus name I pray......... Amen

I had a ranting moment the other day! I have refered to a "situation" on several occasion. Well yesterday it resurfaced. I let it get the better of me . I sometmes get angry all over again when I think about it but okay life goes on. the battle goes on. And I pray that the trurth comes out no more no less! I want to tell you life can be great. get past the bad stuff and move on. It will show it's ugly head again and again. But re focus and move on. I hope everyone is doing well. I send love support and blessing your way. Look for the book!! Coming soon!

I have a new job. Managing 45 people. I should be making a whole lot more money! But we have to start somewhere. More later!!

 

There are some pathetic people in this world! Lying, insignificant people that feel inferior and they take out their miserable existence on others. They are small, not worth the air they breathe. Hateful useless as they are. They hide themselves behind other groups of the same cancerous types. They group together and shield the stupidity of their idiotic behaviors. You would be amazed at where these leaches lurk. I have gone through a situation I don’t talk about it because that is not who I am. I almost lost it but God is the great I AM! Have you ever been pushed to the point of wanting to beat the hell out of some folks. That’s were I got. I will not allow you to strip me of who I am. I don’t care how much money, power you think you have. I will not go away. You will not get away with what you did. It is so easy to just do the right thing. You chose not too! We all have to live with our choices. I live with mine and I keep my dignity, my self respect my character. And you all of you stand behind your lies! Stand gracious and tall! You stink of corruption and do not want the world to know. It was so unnecessary. I am still angry, hurt and amazed at the level you people went too. I know you are miserable people. I know your lives and so will everyone else! This I promise! I hope God truly gives you what you deserve. I want know but wish you well in the deepest pits of hell! I wish you there for eternity! I will tell your story to all that will listen but this is not the place nor the time! I have plenty of copies.

Have a great day!

To my OH friends please disregard my rant! Sometimes things get the best of me.

I am so close to my one year mark. I am so pleased with my progress so far. I have been reflecting a lot on this past year and my life to be honest. How do we get to places that make us so uncomfortable? Takes away our center. Disrupts our souls? Where in our lives do we decide to stop particpating in the conclusion? I too like so many others felt that my progress was not as great as others. Why do we not congratulate ourselves for doing good things. Why do we tear ourselves down? I am like no one. I am a original. I do things in Lesa's way and not anyone else’s'. I say this because we all have a tendency to compare our progress to other's our successes, failures. We simple can not do that. NO other has traveled my journey. No one walked in my shoes. We are uniquely made. There is not in this entire world another me. I am specially, wonderfully , amazingly unique. God made me and broke the mold because he knew that one day I would find my greatness, my center that is so like him. Made in GODS image. Shaped, molded, impressed and fashioned into perfection. Not only on the outside. None of us were born filled with the doubts, suspicions and sometimes the horrors that are placed in our lives by others. We are placed here perfect, uncluttered, seeking, absorbing and somewhere along the way we were integrated with fears, harm ,uncertainty, resentment and insecurities. But that is not who we are. That is what we have been taught, narrated and somewhere along the way we started to deem it so. I want to share now with everyone,IT IS NOT TRUE.

Continue YOUR journey. Learn who you are. No one’s journey is the same just similar in some of the spaces in our lives we have visited.

In your moment of doubt, fear, self hatred or insecurities that surface speak and tell yourself it is not so. YOU choose not to believe it. YOU will, going forward make choices to control YOUR destiny. YOU will identify who YOU are. Not mother, father, husband, wife, children, friends……YOU decide. And make it a great one. To reflect the greatness YOU have deep inside that no one can touch.

We are not perfect. We are being perfected as time goes on. Continue your journey. It has great things in store. I am excited to see the rest of my life! Elated to no limits.

 

Much love and peace!

Lesa

I am feeling very thankfull tonight. I thank God for ALL the events that have occured this year and for bringing me through with a sound mind and strong spirit. I want to encourage someone. Trust God! NO MATTER WHAT!

Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father;
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;
As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be.

Great is Thy faithfulness!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!

I feel wonderful! ( fake it until you feel it!!!)Had fun new tears eve. I am so very happy with my weight loss this past 8 months (almost 9) I have a new plan in place. I relaxed during the holidays. But now it is back to basics to get off the remainder of this weight !  Up the protien eat simple small portions. Limit carbs. I am going to update often to let you know how this goes.

So much has happened in this last year. At years start  I was beating on doors trying to get this surgery accomplished. I didn't feel that it would but finally my " yes" came through. I have lost my job and is currently sueing long story I wll be glad when I have time to update you in that, My family is wonderful. a new man, a old man (LOL) April 10 was my day. It seems so breif and yet when I look at the amount of weight I have lost it is amazing. I tried for years to just lose 20 lbs. Within the past 8 months I have lost 116 lbs. God is good and always blessing. I have made a promise to honor what he has given me. My body will no longer be taken for advantage. I will treat it with respect. My health is important. I own that . No one made me gain the weight. I didn't  lose control. I allowed it to happen. I had choices. I failed in some cases to make them. I will not live that way again. I have only one regret. That I didn't do this sooner. It is worth it.
 I have been following orders and doing wonderfully. Going into this new year I want to finish losing the few remaining pounds and enjoy my life. I feel 16 again and look so much younger. I am on my way to the gym. I will check in later!