LianaMarie248
Last Day before Pre-Op Diet
Jan 24, 2011
Tomorrow will be my last day for my regular diet and then its liquids til surgery. Im nervous about this entire experience but im excited to finally be joining the "losers bench" as people on the site refer to it. I feel blessed that I have been given this opportunity to become healthy again and to fix my body where Ive ruined it before. This is my motivation : My overall health and my self esteem. I know I can make this journey especially with the support from my best friend and the love of my life ( same person haha) and from family and friends and all of you!
On a side note, I went to the last required support group pre-op tonight. It was informative but big..its not really intimate and I sort of feel like the people who have had their surgery and go are a little bit cocky about being "pros" in the department. Its helpful on some level, but I feel like they spoke more than the person running it and she acted as if they were a panel of sorts. I know everyones surgery is different and they can only explain whats happened for them but it made me feel out of place and very much an individual as opposed to being part of the group. But it is nice to have a community of people that are going through/went through my upcoming experience. I just wish they did more than one group a month since it tends to feel crowded.
Okay well Im done with my post for the night. This helps to write down my experiences and feelings. :)
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On a side note, I went to the last required support group pre-op tonight. It was informative but big..its not really intimate and I sort of feel like the people who have had their surgery and go are a little bit cocky about being "pros" in the department. Its helpful on some level, but I feel like they spoke more than the person running it and she acted as if they were a panel of sorts. I know everyones surgery is different and they can only explain whats happened for them but it made me feel out of place and very much an individual as opposed to being part of the group. But it is nice to have a community of people that are going through/went through my upcoming experience. I just wish they did more than one group a month since it tends to feel crowded.
Okay well Im done with my post for the night. This helps to write down my experiences and feelings. :)
My Surgery Date!
Jan 22, 2011
So I was supposed to have surgery on February 14th, but they decided since I wasnt working and could fit my 2 week pre-op diet into a sooner date/schedule that Im having it on February 9th. Im excited but I think when I get there Im going to be anxious. I wonder if they can give me meds to calm down day of surgery? for the nerves and whatnot. Other than that, Im amped. Liquid diet starts this Wednesday and Im going shopping for "supplies" today. Hopefully I dont cringe at what Im allowed to have. I will miss crappy food but the results of this life change are so much more than worth it!
I hope Everyone has a great day!
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I hope Everyone has a great day!
My list
Jan 17, 2011
Okay, So today I decided to make a list of goals for my life (long term and short term). Some of my short term goals included sticking to my pre-op diet that starts on January 31st, Packing all our unneccessaries (things we dont need right now before we move) before the surgery (less to do after), Give away what we dont need/donate clothes and shoes and books, etc, Stop obsessing over each .5 of a lb that I gain or lose each day, Start writing again, work hard in my classes this semester, Continue growing artistically, Find a job for March since Im losing mine in the end of January, and try and be a nicer, more generous and spiritual person all around. :)
Long term: Reach my weight goal after surgery, Be 100% debt free (small car loan and large school loans), Grow my hair out to my waist like it used to be, excercise regularly, finish school, Travel all over the world, help people when I can, get married to the love of my life, go skydiving, reach the top of a mountain hiking, go rock climbing, go skiing, go camping, donate all of my "fat" clothes, stick to my "life" plan after surgery when it comes to food (body=temple), buy a 4 wheel drive car..lol..(smh @ New England winters), Feel good in my own skin, Have a baby one day...like in 5 years haha, Try and be nicer and happier, Follow my dreams, etc. :) TRAVEL TOO!!!!
I love having dreams and goals!
xoxo
Liana
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Long term: Reach my weight goal after surgery, Be 100% debt free (small car loan and large school loans), Grow my hair out to my waist like it used to be, excercise regularly, finish school, Travel all over the world, help people when I can, get married to the love of my life, go skydiving, reach the top of a mountain hiking, go rock climbing, go skiing, go camping, donate all of my "fat" clothes, stick to my "life" plan after surgery when it comes to food (body=temple), buy a 4 wheel drive car..lol..(smh @ New England winters), Feel good in my own skin, Have a baby one day...like in 5 years haha, Try and be nicer and happier, Follow my dreams, etc. :) TRAVEL TOO!!!!
I love having dreams and goals!
xoxo
Liana
My First Blog Post on OH
Jan 14, 2011
Today is a good day. I am starting to realize this surgery is the best thing thats ever going to happen in my life (besides love and children and whatnot), but I have been nervous about it for some time now. I am trying to eat a lil healthier now even before the pre-op liquids only diet, but im finding it hard when I am rationalizing that I "need" to eat this tasty slice of pizza because I will never get to ever again. I need to stop thinking this way and thats hard. I think it's the hardest part because food is my "friend" for all intents and purposes, but thats all in my head, I imagine, since it's the reason I am depressed about my weight and size (well I'm to blame for that really, but let me blame it on food so I can get angry at it and not want that icky pizza in my body ever again! lol).
So, anyway, I need to have a talk withmy bf pre-op. He's the sweetest guy in the whole world ever (I know..Im biased), but he really is. He loves me for who I am and knewme when I was 175lbs (still big) and not 245lbs (huge!). He says he loves every inch of me...even my "chubbies," as I like to call them. In any case, I need him to toughen up for me and be supportive like he never has before. I know my personality and his and when I want something he gives it to me no questions asked (most of the time), but he's pretty much an enabler when it comes to my food addiction:always bringing me a snack home when he comes home from work at midnight or serving me a giant plate and not batting an eyelash when I go for seconds, etc. I know Im wrong but its hard to justify doing whats right when everything, including my love, says its okay and its acceptable. Im sure he will be here for me no matter what but I want him to smack that burger out of my hand when I give in to my desires. lol. I will try and be as strong as possible and try not to take it out on him when I want something I can't have and Im miserable on liquids because its all a means to the end.
Thanks for listening to me rant! haha. Have a great day. Mine includes cleaning and packing (the non- neccessities) so its done for our move on April 1st (and so I dont have much to do post op) :D
xoxo,
Liana
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So, anyway, I need to have a talk withmy bf pre-op. He's the sweetest guy in the whole world ever (I know..Im biased), but he really is. He loves me for who I am and knewme when I was 175lbs (still big) and not 245lbs (huge!). He says he loves every inch of me...even my "chubbies," as I like to call them. In any case, I need him to toughen up for me and be supportive like he never has before. I know my personality and his and when I want something he gives it to me no questions asked (most of the time), but he's pretty much an enabler when it comes to my food addiction:always bringing me a snack home when he comes home from work at midnight or serving me a giant plate and not batting an eyelash when I go for seconds, etc. I know Im wrong but its hard to justify doing whats right when everything, including my love, says its okay and its acceptable. Im sure he will be here for me no matter what but I want him to smack that burger out of my hand when I give in to my desires. lol. I will try and be as strong as possible and try not to take it out on him when I want something I can't have and Im miserable on liquids because its all a means to the end.
Thanks for listening to me rant! haha. Have a great day. Mine includes cleaning and packing (the non- neccessities) so its done for our move on April 1st (and so I dont have much to do post op) :D
xoxo,
Liana
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02/09/2011
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Dec 08, 2010
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